(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Gong in 1999. At the beginning I encountered many difficulties, but I always believed in Teacher and Dafa. In the end I was able to create a good environment for validating Dafa.
After learning Falun Gong, the saddest thing for me was that my husband did not support me. I was especially sad after July 20, 1999 and the persecution began. He beat me several times. I was also facing the decision to continue the practice or drop it. Whenever I said I would practice Falun Gong, he would swear and beat me. When I said I would not practice, he would change his behavior completely.
Only beginning in 2003 did I truly practice Falun Gong. After studying the Fa I realized all of this was evil interference. So I sent forth one thought: "Teacher, I will not let dark minions and rotten demons come to persecute me, whatever comes I will disintegrate it; my future is determined by myself!" After sending out this thought, I told myself it would not be effective by just saying so, I needed also to thoroughly reject the evil through action. If our mind deviates from the Fa, the evil will take advantage of our loopholes. So I sent righteous thoughts and recited the Fa Rectification verses no matter when or where I was.
I also enlightened to this: when I was trying to make a decision to practice Falun Gong or not, and experiencing harassment from my husband and my work unit, I was aligned with the arrangements made by the old forces. As long as I do well the three things requested by Teacher, Teacher will help me. So I made good use of my time to study Dafa and at the same time I clarified the truth to my coworkers. Slowly, my coworkers changed and began to understand and accept Dafa, and also took initiative to protect me. To my husband and directors in my workplace, I no longer directly mentioned my decision of practicing Falun Gong or not. During the daytime at work, I used my spare time to write truth clarification letters, study and copy the Fa, and deliver Dafa materials. At night I went out to distribute flyers and posters. My husband is often not home at night as he is busy making money. When he is not at home, I would do the three things. When he was at home, I would send righteous thoughts toward him, and take care of my family well. I would write letters to my managers using different pens and according to their personality, including poems that I wrote. When new truth clarification materials arrived, I would carefully make selections and mail them to the Police and Justice Departments, or to city officials. Names of people that I mailed letters to were collected through newspapers and magazines. Those people often had some prominence in the community and were deeply poisoned by the Chinese Communist Party culture. Over time, the list of names I collected became more complete and included a large section of the community.
One time a practitioner posted truth clarification flyers in my workplace. My manager called me to have a talk. At that time I first held one thought: no interference by evil is allowed. Because I frequently mailed him letters, he was not as bad as before and was able to admit that Falun Gong is a person's belief. However, he still said since the Chinese Communist Party bans it, you should not do it. I did not want to give up the opportunity to clarify the truth, so he listened to my clarification for more than an hour. In the end, I said all other countries allow Falun Gong, only China bans it, so it is the CCP that is bad. He reluctantly urged me to be considerate of our workplace and my family members. I said I understood. After I returned back to work, my colleague said I was "transforming" our manger. Yes, those deceived people are the ones that really need to be transformed and saved. After that I felt more confident and my righteous thoughts were stronger.
After the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party came out, I read it as soon as possible. Afterwards I wrote letters to my work place managers to expose the CCP evil nature. I will keep doing this, and I will not give evil the opportunity for survival. As long as I do things righteously, nothing can touch me.
Through unceasing study of the Fa, my understanding based on the Fa became increasingly clear. I understand that only when we cultivate in the Fa are we the safest. We should use the Fa as the standard for everything at all times, put faith in Teacher and the Fa, do not look for those things that everyday people want, and truly be a practitioner in the Fa-rectification period.
My righteous thoughts and righteous actions also affected some of my colleagues. They also read Falun Dafa materials and listened to me reading Teacher's articles. When other practitioners came to see me, they would offer to help and look for me. They took the initiative to leave the room to us if needed. My colleagues asked me that if the persecution of Falun Gong is so severe, how come you feel at ease. I told them that with a firm and unconditional belief in Dafa and Teacher, I can feel quite relaxed. Cultivating Dafa does in fact lead to good fortune and happiness.
When my cultivation is in a good state, I am often with Teacher in my dreams. In fact Falun Gong practitioners are protected and cared for by Teacher all the time. My work load is light, so I make good use of the time to study the Fa. When I need to go out, I would distribute flyers and clarify the truth along my way. I do not fight for fame and profits with my colleagues. All of them say that I am nice and kind. Isn't this also validating Dafa?
Now I do the three things in an organized timely manner. My home is very close to a Forced Labor Camp, prison, and Judicial System's family compound. At night I often go there to distribute truth clarification materials. When I return home, if there is still time, I would study the Fa. In the daytime during spare time at work, I would deliver materials and study the Fa. I also took advantage of my work condition to help practitioners translate several dozen Dafa books. I write articles about our practitioners and when there are not enough truth clarification materials, I would make posters myself. Although I did a lot of Dafa work, my job was not affected, and my study environment was good. Maybe it is because I do not have pursuit, thus there is no pain. Except for saving the sentient beings, I rarely think about other everyday people things. Perhaps because of this my mind is more pure, and I do not have many human notions and thoughts to interfere when I do Dafa work. I am very focused and the effect is good. I was never arrested and I was never forced to attend any brainwashing session. This may be related to my above mentioned state of mind. Of course, Teacher arranges different cultivation paths for different people and the factors that I cannot see may be very complex. But I believe everything comes from the Fa. Only when we truly believe in Teacher and the Fa and purify our mind and heart, are we safest. Teacher benevolently cares for every practitioner. When encountering tribulations, it can be because we ourselves have some problems.
Recently, I suddenly enlightened to why Teacher said we should relinquish sentimentality and desires. Because all those attachments are related to one's karma, and they are the factors that dark minions and rotten demons persecute us upon. So I told Teacher silently, I firmly want to get rid of those things, truly let my heart be empty, and only think about the three things. If we could walk on a path that Teacher arranges for us, with righteous thoughts and righteous actions, if we could truly achieve that, evil could hardly find loopholes to persecute us. Of course the goal of purifying ourselves is to improve and reach consummation so as to better save sentient beings, not to avoid being persecuted.
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