(Clearwisdom.net) I turn 50 years old this year. When I was a kid, the quality of my physical health was always very poor, and my immune system weak. I had to frequently stay in the hospital for several days at a time. When I was in my twenties, I was diagnosed with inflammatory psoriasis. Medication would ease the symptoms, however without medicine, I would fall back into the state of illness, and every relapse intensified the symptoms of the illness. When I was in my forties, the place I worked at was closed. Suddenly I had to face the problem of survival. As for my expensive medication, there was no way I could afford it anymore. Depression and anxiety gave me a bad temper day and night. I felt exhausted, thus the sickness worsened rapidly. My whole body looked like a map with reddish spots on it. The spots became larger and larger and eventually connected to become one large red mass. Thick scales covered my whole body with bloody lesions here and there, I could not take care myself anymore.
Before Falun Gong was banned in 1999, I was introduced to someone who talked about the health benefits of practicing Falun Gong. It was for this reason that I started to read Zhuan Falun. Because of my serious health condition, I had a strong attachment to getting healed. In Zhuan Falun, Master had mentioned:
"We emphasize one point: If you cannot relinquish the attachment or concern for illness, we cannot do anything and will be unable to help you."
I looked at my sick body and expected that it would become better. Even though I was looking at Zhuan Falun superficially, my biggest problem was that I could not relinquish a very strong attachment to curing my illnesses. The sickness continued to get worse. Eventually I went to the hospital and gave up cultivation. I had a third operation to remove a thyroid tumor. My illness never got better and many family problems arose; my family was falling apart.
At the beginning of the 2003 New Year festival, I got cold and had a fever. After more than 10 days of intravenous drip, I showed no sign of improvement, my fever rose up to 39.5 degrees Celsius and my whole body was swollen. Facing these daunting facts, I had many different kinds of thoughts. When I was at a point when my life was going to end, and there was no way to regain my health through everyday people's science and medicine, I truly put down the attachment to life and death and wholeheartedly walked the path of cultivating Falun Dafa.
Since my hands and face were badly swollen and I could not read the book, I started to listen to Master's audio lecture from Guangzhou. After listening to it for nearly four hours, I got out of bed started to walk. Suddenly, I felt that my whole body was relaxed, and my temperature dropped. After that, I had a very sound sleep. The next day morning my temperature went back to normal, the swelling was gone, and large pieces of skin peeled off. Experiencing this, I was in tears; it was hard to restrain my excitement. Once again Master gave me a new life; this chance gave me the opportunity to cultivate in Dafa. There is nothing that can describe my appreciation to Master for giving me a new life.
Because of my strong attachment, I almost missed the opportunity of many lifetimes. I have practiced Falun Dafa for nearly three years. In this period of time, I have never taken any medication. Whatever reactions appeared on my body, I regarded them as a process of karma elimination. Two years ago, I had serious symptoms of a dislocated spine, but in less than a month I could walk normally again. I felt so grateful for Master's compassion and his unwavering willingness to save me. As a practitioner, I will walk well each step in validating the Dafa, nothing is going to change my mind to practice cultivation. Steadfastly I will cultivate towards a bright future.
I wrote this article in the hope of sharing it with my fellow practitioners who have similar tribulations. Do not make the same mistake I did, and walk righteously on your own cultivation paths, never letting down Master and his boundless compassion for us.
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