(Clearwisdom.net)
1. I'm So Lucky to Have Been Saved by Our Benevolent Teacher
Shortly after beginning cultivation in Falun Dafa, I had a dream. In my dream I went back to the time of the Mayan culture. There, I was a woman living in a palace. But I was not sure what I was doing there. The only thing I remember was that at the time, all aspects of culture were prosperous and had reached their peaks. However, the level of morality of the society as a whole had deteriorated at the same time. Later, other tribes invaded our land and came to the palace. One person who looked like an aborigine held a weapon that looked like a lance. He threw the weapon towards the woman and hit her in the back.
The woman screamed. Her screaming seemed to go through time and space and directly reached me while I was still sleeping. Suddenly, at that moment I opened my eyes and the screaming was still there. Then I touched my back.
Before having the dream, my back had hurt without any reason for a very long time. In order to find a cure I had gone to different doctors in vain. I tried Chinese massage as well. Even before the doctor touched my back, I cried out "It hurts! It hurts so much! Stop touching my back!" Then, I had this dream. There must have been a reason for it. After having the dream, my back no longer hurt.
Here I want to thank our Teacher for offering salvation to us with His Great Benevolence. After waiting for thousands of years, I finally have the good fortune to find Falun Dafa and begin cultivation. From now on, I will cherish this precious opportunity even more, be more diligent and never let our Teacher down.
2. Judging Myself from the Fa
After I had practiced Falun Dafa for two years, I began to recite Teacher's lectures. The main reason for this was because a local contact person pointed out to me that I was not in a right state when sending forth righteous thoughts. She suggested that reciting Fa would help.
Once when I was working, I made a decision that I would try my best to recite the Fa. No one would convince me that I couldn't do this. I have confidence in myself. I know it may not be easy to remember the Fa, but if I try again and again, and if I try many times, it will work. Because my job does not require me to use my head too much (it's physical work), I recite the Fa whenever I am not busy. I recite the Fa while at the same time deepening my understanding of Fa.
I enlightened to the fact that all the people that I hurt in previous lives would try to get even in this lifetime. But I didn't accept that and even thought that they were wrong to do that. In "Remaking Mankind" (from Essentials for Further Advancement), our Teacher said,
"Human selfishness, greed, stupidity, and ignorance are interwoven with the goodness inherent in human nature, and humans are unknowingly creating everything they will have to bear; this is currently swallowing up society. Numerous social problems of various sorts are surfacing in the world and crises lurk everywhere. Yet humans do not know to find the causes within their own nature. After the degeneration of morality, humans are unable to see that the terrible human heart is the poisonous root of social problems, and so they always foolishly try to find the way out in social phenomena. As a result, human beings never realize that all the so-called 'ways out' that they create for themselves are precisely them sealing themselves off. As such, there are even fewer ways out, and the new problems that follow are even worse. Thus, with much difficulty humans again find a tiny space and take new measures, thereby closing this remaining bit of space once again. As this repeats itself over a period of time, there is no room left and they can no longer find a way out, nor can they see the truth beyond the enclosed space. Human beings begin to suffer from all that they have created for themselves. This is the final way in which the universe eliminates lives."
"[N]or can they see the truth beyond the enclosed space." I thought, "Why is it that I cannot see the truth?" It is because I "do not know to find the causes within their (my) own nature." And I didn't know that, "after the degeneration of morality, humans are unable to see that the terrible human heart is the poisonous root of social problems." For example, in the past I was never satisfied with my marriage and felt it would end up a tragedy in which I was the only victim. If this man does not want to continue to share life with me, ok, let's end the marriage.
In terms of work, I used to think that how much I was paid represented the judgment of my ability. Therefore, I stupidly tried to find a way out and exchanged my virtue with karma. What I got in return was illness. Wasn't I sealing myself off?
Before learning Falun Dafa, I was doomed to be eliminated. After practicing Falun Dafa, I realized that I had done lots of bad things in the past. It is our Teacher who saved me from Hell. I sincerely thank our Teacher for his benevolent salvation.
3. Cherish This Precious Opportunity Which One Could Only Have Once in Thousands of Years.
The first time I attended a cultivation experience sharing conference was in 2004. The conference was held in New York, and I saw our Teacher there. I felt deeply grateful to our Teacher, and my gratitude was beyond words. That night, in my dream I saw square, round, triangular and other different shaped materials falling in my space. It felt like a boat that was sinking. No words can express the fear that I felt. Yet, I didn't fall because I was holding the pillar of Dafa with both arms. A man beside me was falling all the way down. I asked him to hold the pillar of Dafa as well. Yet pitifully, he still kept falling down. Those who were unable to hold close and tight to Dafa fell.
This man was perhaps the person who I introduced to Dafa. He said that he had been possessed by animals or other spirits since he was a student. He didn't want to get rid of it, nor did he consider it a bad thing and continued his pursuit of fame and self interest. Due to that, we gradually lost contact with each other. Our Teacher said in Lecture Three of Zhuan Falun:
"'One would rather not obtain a righteous way in one thousand years than cultivate a wild fox practice for one day.' Thus, one must conduct oneself well and truly practice cultivation in a righteous way. Do not mix it with anything else in cultivation, not even with any mind intention." (Zhuan Falun, Translated by US practitioners, 2000)
My understanding is that if we miss this precious opportunity which one could only have once in thousands of years, there will not be another chance.
The first time I clarified the truth to people from mainland China face to face was in Hong Kong. I was afraid of meeting strangers, and that was a big obstacle for me. I was afraid to speak. The only thing I could do was distribute the flyers. I said to myself "I should overcome this obstacle! When people don't want to take a look at the truth clarification materials, you need to talk to them." Fellow practitioners keep reminding me and looking at me from time to time. This fear of mine was like a wall. When the fellow practitioner who was responsible for that area was going to have lunch, he told me to clarify the truth well and he left, leaving only me and another practitioner from Taiwan there. Groups of tourists came and left. If I didn't open my mouth, I would miss the chance. I thought, "Why am I here? What am I here for? I have a heart of saving people. Why can't I open my mouth?" I began reciting Teacher's poems "Hurry Up and Tell Them" and "What is There to Be Afraid of?" I thought, "What should I be afraid of?"
Seeing the tourists coming my way, I kept encouraging myself. "Keep holding on! I always lack self-confidence and don't know how to be independent. Righteous thoughts! Righteous thoughts! Hold up your hand; give them the flyers. Ask them to look and listen. Help them to understand the truth. These people are related to me. I cannot miss the chance in this way!"
When I was clarifying the truth, I noticed that all of them looked in the direction that I pointed. The looks on their faces told me that they understood the truth, and I will never forget those faces. The more I talked, the louder my voice became. I had gained confidence in myself and had nothing to fear. If I hadn't taken this step, it's hard to imagine how many attachments I would still have. When could I get rid of them? And the attachments that I haven't realized that I still have... I really don't know when all these attachments could be eliminated. It was then that I realized that the road arranged by our Teacher is for helping cultivators. We don't recognize the arrangement of the old force. A cultivator can break through all obstacles.
Because of the nature of my work, I meet around two to three thousand people every day. But I meet each and every one of them for only a few seconds. In order to clarify the truth to them, I play "Nine Commentaries on Chinese Communist Party" in front of the Jilong Post Office after work every day.
One day, a man came over, watched for a while and asked, "Which company do you work for? Why are you doing these things?" I was really afraid then. His attitude scared me. I thought, no matter whether his intention was good or bad, what I was doing here was right. I then told him "I am here to tell everybody what the CCP (Chinese Communist Party) really is. It has killed 80 million Chinese people. It starts a movement every four to five years. Every time it starts a movement, people are murdered. If I don't say anything now, years later my sons and my grandsons will ask me, 'What were you doing then?' I wouldn't know how to answer. Therefore, I have to tell all the people who don't know the true nature of the CCP what the CCP really is." After listening to me, he also agreed and thought I was right. He still said, "This thing should be done by the government." To this, I replied, "Actually, human rights have no boundaries among nations. Freedom is a value that is honored by the whole world. Everyone can do what I'm doing now. Perhaps the government hasn't realized how important this book is!"
After I stood in front of the post office for several days, I couldn't move my legs when I climbed the staircases. I was surrounded by a nameless fear. I cried. I said to myself, "Am I a cultivator or an ordinary person? Why can't I move my feet? Will this last long? If I can't walk in the future, what will I do? No. How can I have this kind of thought? I am a cultivator! Nothing will happen to me."
My colleague, who was walking with me then, saw that I was having problems moving, so he carried me for a little while. I didn't want to trouble others, and after a while, I was ok and could walk again. They all laughed at me saying, "You didn't cry even when you fell from the motorcycle, and now you cried when there was no wound at all." I knew at that time that it was our Teacher who eliminated my karma and got rid of some of my human heart.
Another time I was clarifying the truth at a night market near another post office in Jilong. I met a family coming back from a vacation in the United States. The man said, "I've read the 'Nine Commentaries' published by The Epoch Times in the States. Is your 'Nine Commentaries' the same as theirs?" I said yes. He then held up his thumb and said, "You guys are really great. You are very marvelous, very strong!"
He shook hands with another fellow practitioner, and we talked for a while. I was also deeply grateful at that time. What we are doing now is right. After people get to know the truth, they will acknowledge our efforts, even though we are not seeking recognition from them. As long as they can tell what is good from what is bad and choose a bright future for themselves, that's all that we want.
The whole journey of one's cultivation is the process of eliminating one's human heart. By doing this, a cultivator can be upgraded. If I hadn't come out, I wouldn't have been able to experience this improvement. These are my recent thoughts. If there is anything wrong, please kindly let me know. I will correct myself sincerely. Thank you, Teacher! Thank you, everyone!
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