(Clearwisdom.net)
Exposing One's Own Crimes
In October 2005, three guards at the Panjin Forced Labor Camp, including Liu Dahan, and a section head surnamed Guan, illegally arrested me. Later they took me to the Benxi Forced Labor Camp.
Two policemen including Xu Hao from the local Public Security Bureau of Xinglongtai District, Panjin City came to interrogate me. They forced me to tell them the names of those who helped secretly transfer a truth-clarification materials production site in Xinglongtai District in August 2005.
Out of fear of having my prison term extended, being tortured further, and my lack of righteous thoughts, I gave in to the evil and accurately reported that two other practitioners and I moved the materials production site. Because I told them the names of my fellow practitioners, the authorities were able to arrest one of them.
After that I regretted it very much. Since my mistake was irrevocable, I experienced tremendous mental sufferings. I became more and more depressed. As a practitioner, I knew what I was trying to cover up. While it appeared that I was cultivating, I knew I was cheating myself.
After reading Teacher's recent article, "Pass the Deadly Test," I felt too ashamed to show my face. I realized what a blunder I made. Nevertheless, Teacher has not given up on me. Instead He keeps giving me more opportunities. Today, I want to expose the shameful crime I committed.
I must be worthy of Teacher's compassionate salvation. I must not do anything harmful to my fellow practitioners. Learning this lesson, I must follow Teacher's requirements, cultivate myself, do the three things, and be a true Dafa practitioner.
Zou Liming
May 13, 2005
Exposing My Attachment of Fear and Passing the Deadly Test
After reading Teacher's new article, "Pass the Deadly Test," I realized that I did not expose all the wrong things I did in my previous Solemn Declaration. That was due to my fear. Now I want to expose this attachment, and pass the deadly test. In 2000, under the coercion of my husband, I said bad words about Teacher, wrote a repentance statement, and handed it over to my superiors at work. At the end of 2000, I tried to validate the Fa, and in return, the authorities arrested me and imprisoned me for fifteen days. Under the interference of my human sentimentality, I gave in to evil, wrote the statement that admitted my "wrongdoing," turned in two Dafa books and some of Teacher's articles, and put my fingerprint on the repentance statement. The secret police demanded that I call them whenever I had any new information about other practitioners. Although I verbally agreed, I have never actually followed their instruction. In fact, I burned the note with the phone number they gave me. When they were about to release me, they wanted me to write the Guarantee Statement. Although I told myself I would continue to practice, they forced me to write the statement while they narrated the content.
After returning home, my whole family tried to attack me. First my husband wrote the repentance statement, and wanted me to hand copy it. I said I had to be responsible for Dafa, and responsible for myself. I refused to copy it. As he was going to beat me, I told him I would copy it the next day. The second morning, I hid the Dafa books and left home. On the train to Beijing, my human sentimentality came back again. Afraid of hurting my family, I turned back home. Then my family agreed not to force me any more.
The day after the so-called "Self-Immolation" incident, a local police official asked Jiang Yanhu, the Director of the Ministry of Public Security of Guizhou Province, to issue a warrant to arrest me. Under my husband's coercion, I copied his repentance statement. I modified his version to minimize the words against Teacher, and I split it into the Three Statements. My family made a few photocopies, and handed them over to various government organizations to avoid my arrest. While I was in the detention center, the center director forced me to write an experience sharing report twice, which I did. On another occasion, the prison doctor declared in front of my husband and I that he would make public in the circle of the local police departments the repentance statement I wrote, which I agreed to, albeit against my will. The director once told me that he would publish my statement in a newspaper. That, I refused. When I read Teacher's articles, "Dafa Is Indestructible" and "Fa-Rectification Period Dafa Disciples" in October 2001, I suddenly awoke. I declared to the local detention center, the State Security Bureau, the police department, the local court, and various other government departments, "Falun Dafa is good!" I declared null and void all the repentance statements I made while I was persecuted, and stated that I would steadily practice Dafa.
Since then, I have been back on the path to returning "home." During the four years of imprisonment, I continuously studied Zhuan Falun, practiced the exercises, clarified the truth about Falun Dafa to other people, validated the Fa, and as a result, won the praise and respect from the imprisoned as well as from the prison guards. Many officials and clerks in the court and procuratorate indirectly learned that Dafa practitioners are good people.
Because of my problems in studying the Fa on the path of cultivation practice, of my various deviated human notions, and of my stubborn selfishness, the old forces were able to persecute me. As a result, I caused damages to Dafa, which are the least tolerable and most regretful things that a Falun Dafa practitioner can do. Yet our compassionate Teacher has been caring for us and suffering for us. I once fell down. Now I have to stand up, follow Teacher's teachings, strengthen my righteous thoughts, expose my attachments, my fear, and my selfishness, annihilate all that does not conform to the standards of the cosmos, and eliminate all the factors of the old forces.
Lu Jun
July 11, 2006
Let Go of All the Filthy Attachments and with Purity Follow Teacher Home
I started to practice Falun Dafa back in 1996. Since then, I have made many mistakes because of my fear and other various attachments. In particular, since the communist regime launched the persecution of Falun Gong in 1999, due to my fear, I have not been able to walk out of this atrocity with righteous thoughts whenever the evil party persecuted me. Every time I was persecuted, I more or less compromised with the police. As a result, the spies have been constantly interfering with me, and forcing me to do things that no practitioner should ever do.
As Teacher said in "Pass the Deadly Test,"
"Fear can cause one to make mistakes, and fear can cause one to lose a predestined opportunity. Fear is a death trap on a human being's journey toward divinity."
In the past few years, I have been constantly troubled by my fears and the mistakes I made, as if I were carrying an extremely heavy burden.
"Pass the Deadly Test," the new article by our compassionate Teacher, gave me another opportunity. This time, I am determined to let go of my fears, let go of any filthy attachments I have, and follow Teacher back home.
I hereby solemnly declare null and void everything I did under the pressure of evil. I must be a genuine Dafa disciple.
Xu Hu and Zhao Gangquan
May 12, 2006
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