(Clearwisdom.net) After being illegally detained for two and a half years, I found a job suitable for communication with many people. Although the job is very tedious, I thought it a good opportunity for me to cultivate myself and clarify the truth to others, so I felt very happy and worked really hard. After a period of time, co-workers started recognizing my character and achievements. I also felt pleased with myself. The attachment to fame and gain was growing. My brain was always so packed with the thoughts about my job that I forgot who I am and what my mission really is. I was doing the exercises less and less and gradually deviated away from the state in which a practitioner should be.
As a result, the evil had a chance to control my mind and body. Detailed manifestations are as follows. My mind was full of thoughts about my job no matter whether at work or not. I was not willing to do the exercises and couldn’t stay focused when studying the Fa. I often had many messy thoughts in my mind and felt my forehead swelling. Even after sleeping for 12 hours a day, I was always yawning and felt sleepy. I deeply realized I was in trouble and my cultivation was experiencing severe problems.
Under the interference of evil, my righteous thoughts were not strong enough to break through. One night in the winter 2003, I felt clearly in a dream a strong force pushing down upon my chest. By instinct, I tried to push it away with my hands. But I couldn't manage for very long before losing energy to withstand it. Thus, the evil scurried into my chest. Then, I felt my chest and throat were blocked causing me to cough seriously.
Without strong righteous willpower, in the early spring of 2004 when a relative of mine passed away, I was moved by human sentiment. The dark minions and rotten demons of the old forces took advantage by persecuting me and my family like crazy. I got a high fever, then, my eyes began to get red and swell. It was extremely painful.
At the beginning, I thought that it was a hint from Teacher to reveal my problems. But when the pain kept getting worse and worse, I came to realize the severity of my problem. My child, who was a student, got infected with acute conjunctivitis and was in a very severe condition. Almost immediately following my child, my wife had an infection and developed hives. Quickly, her face and whole body were swollen and her heart rate reached 120 bpm. Once she fell into shock for two minutes on her way to the bathroom. The very next night, she dreamed of two beautiful Fa boats sailing down from the heavens. I realized that I had dropped my level because I hadn’t passed the test well. I felt so regretful.
During the horrible ordeal, I read the newly published lecture by Teacher, "Eliminate the Dark Minions With Righteous Thoughts." I suddenly realized that the dark minions and rotten demons were the cause of our symptoms. So my wife and I sent forth righteous thoughts together late at night. When I held my palm erect upon reciting the Fa-rectification verses, I felt the hair all over my body stand on end, as all the evil began rushing away. Then I concentrated on eradicating thoroughly the dark minions and Communist evil spirits persecuting my whole family. After continuously eradicating the evil, my family all recovered.
After this experience, I reflected on the matter. Why was the evil able to repeatedly persecute me? The main reason is that I was so lazy in my cultivation that I didn’t conduct myself like a practitioner. I had given the covetous dark minions opportunities to take advantage of me. But Teacher told us:
"The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." ("Drive Out Interference" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
To get rid of my laziness quickly and dispel the interference and strengthen my righteous thoughts, I studied the Fa diligently, conformed to the Fa thoroughly, and treated anything and anybody with the mind of a practitioner at every single moment.
The seriousness with which I evaluated seemingly small matters enabled me, in turn, to study the Fa calmly. Nonetheless, while I was studying the Fa the evil kept interfering with me so I adopted different methods to break through different types of interference. The following is a summary.
"Whenever there is interference of one kind or another in qigong practice, you should look for reasons within yourself and determine what you still have not let go." (Zhuan Falun) Accordingly, I kept careful watch for signs of my own hidden attachments.
Upon returning home from work I always felt so sleepy and wanted to go to bed immediately. If I indeed took a nap, it was very hard for me to wake up. As a result, I didn’t have time to study the Fa. After I realized that this daily pattern was itself evil interference, my main consciousness became sober. I kept up my spirits and sent forth righteous thought repeatedly to clean the evil factors blocking me from studying the Fa.
Once in a while, some thought that had "enlightened" to the evil came into my mind when studying the Fa. My main consciousness would be immediately alarmed. Next, I would tell myself that the thought was not from my true self and then sent forth righteous thought to eradicate the evil behind the evil thought.
It was very often for thoughts about working and other ordinary things to come into my mind and cause absent-mindedness while reading the Fa. At that moment, I would order my main consciousness to be sober, control my own mind, and distinguish those thoughts that were not my own. Then I immediately sent forth strong righteous thoughts to eradicate the dark minions and the rotten demons and the Communist evil spirits. Normally, my brain would feel numb for a few minutes before recovery. If the interference happened again, I would send forth righteous thought again.
Sometimes while studying the Fa, I would fall asleep without notice. Obviously it was interference from the dark minions and rotten demons. At that time, I would wake up my main consciousness first and send forth righteous thought to eradicate the dark minions. Then I would wash my face with cold water and read the Fa while standing.
Sometimes I found some barrier deep in my mind. No matter how hard I studied the Fa, my understanding stayed on the surface. Then I would send forth righteous thought to clean all different dimensions of my brain to eradicate all the dark minions and rotten demons precluding depth of Fa understanding. Although my brain would experience swelling for a while, the problem would disappear quickly. Upon restarting Fa study, each word I read appeared to dissolve into my microcosm.
Sometimes I would feel dizzy while studying the Fa. This was also interference. If the dizziness was only slight, I would continue studying the Fa while sending forth righteous thought. If it continued, I would close both eyes lightly and concentrate on sending forth righteous thought to dismiss all the evil factors interfering with me. Then there would be a sense of sharp increase in dizziness followed by the quick disappearance of all symptoms.
If I met with inference such as dizziness, heaviness and drowsiness when I read Dafa books, I would often recite the following passage: "During the Fa-rectification of the cosmos, I can make a reasonable arrangement for those of you who don’t interfere with my validating the Fa; I can have you become beings in the future. Those of you who seek a benevolent resolution should leave me and wait in my surroundings. If you really cannot leave me, then don’t have any part in interfering with me. In the future I will be able to achieve Consummation, and I will offer you a benevolent resolution." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York") With this compassion, the interference would disappear quickly.
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