(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Gong in May 1999. Before becoming a cultivator, I had undergone several abortions, so my health was always very poor. Moreover, I also suffered mentally and felt that life was not worth living. During a period when I was attempting to commit suicide, a practitioner who was my neighbor introduced me to Falun Dafa. As soon as my other neighbor heard of Falun Dafa, he said to me, "Falun Gong's Teacher is a Buddha reincarnated. He came to earth to save people." I had respected Buddha since I was a child. As soon as I heard that Teacher came to earth to save people, I immediately wanted to practice Falun Gong. A few days later a lady practitioner gave me the book Zhuan Falun. I saw in my dream that night that a Falun was rotating nearby my bed several times. From that moment, I started my course of cultivation practice.
While reading Zhuan Falun, I saw that many of the words and sentences were shining as if they were made of gold. While studying Fa and practicing the exercises, Teacher purified my body. One time I had a high fever and diarrhea that made me go to the bathroom nine times in one afternoon. When I suffered very badly, I thought of Teacher's Fa. As soon as that thought appeared, my illness went away and the next day I could go to work as usual. From then on, whenever I had any sickness symptoms, I quickly recovered. Whenever I had a conflict with my husband or he bullied me, I always thought that I should be magnanimous because I was a practitioner. When my husband had an affair with another woman, I was frequently bullied. One day while I was on the way to the practice site to study Teacher's Fa with a group, I ran into the woman who was having the affair with my husband. When she saw me, she swore at me loudly. At that moment, I recited Teacher's words in my heart:
"What is a heart of great forbearance? As a practitioner, the first thing you should be able to do is not fight back when you are beaten or sworn at--you must be tolerant." (Zhuan Falun)
Thinking about Teacher's words, I arrived at the exercise site. After adjusting my emotions, I calmly studied the Fa.
On July 20, 1999, the CCP started slandering and persecuting Dafa. When the evil slandered Teacher, I thought, "As a practitioner I should safeguard the Fa. Our Teacher came here to save people. How can we allow the evil to slander Teacher?" So, with 20 fellow practitioners, we did the exercises outdoors to protest the persecution. When the police and officials came to prevent us from practicing the exercises, I remembered Teacher's words:
"Some disciples said: 'What's there to fear? My body would still sit there even with my head cut off.' When you compare them it's clear at a glance how well they cultivate." ("Huge Exposure" from Essentials for Further Advancement)
So it didn't matter how the authorities disturbed us. We still sat there with our legs crossed in the lotus position. The next day some practitioners and I went to Beijing to appeal for Dafa. We were illegally arrested by Beijing police and taken back to our local area by local police. I was held at a brainwashing center for a month and had more than 4,000 yuan extorted from me
The second time I went to Beijing to validate the Fa, the Appeals Office refused to see me so I went home. The third time I went to Beijing, I was held for over a month. The police tried to brainwash me but I didn't compromise, so I was sentenced to forced labor in 2000. In the labor camp, I was persecuted so badly that I lost consciousness, which enabled them to take advantage of me. After being released, through studying the Fa and practicing the exercises, my xinxing level improved and I issued a solemn declaration on Clearwisdom.net.
In 2002, I was again illegally sentenced to forced labor. During the imprisonment, I was isolated in a cell where the guards instigated the criminals to closely monitor me around the clock. They slandered Dafa and Teacher all day long and forced me to do extra heavy work. They used all kinds of brutal methods to torture me. One time, the guard forced us to listen to the tapes slandering Dafa and Teacher. Due to my attachment of fear at the time, I didn't pay any attention to the recording for two days. On the third day, I remembered Teacher had said:
"Why should you, a Dafa disciple, fear the evil ones when enduring persecution? The crux of the matter is that you have attachments. If not, do not endure passively, and face the evil people with righteous thoughts at all times. No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's demands, orders, or what it instigates. If everyone does this the environment won't be this way." ("Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful" from Essentials for Further Advancement II )
So I woke up and thought that I should throw the tape recorder on the floor. As soon as my righteous thoughts appeared, that tape recorder caught on fire and ceased to work.
In order to force me to give up my belief in Falun Dafa, the guards used every means they could think of to persecute me. Six criminal inmates, three guards, and six collaborators took turns to deprive me of sleep for 18-19 days. During that time, I was only allowed to have a two-hour rest twice. Afterward, the prisoners told me these things which I didn't remember at all because at that time my state of mind was unclear. Under this kind of brutal torture, I still firmly believed in Dafa. At that time I said in my heart, "Teacher, it is so hard for me to endure the torture, but for so many sentient beings, I would rather give up my flesh body than give up my belief." Then I thought about it again, "If I give up my human body, what will my husband, my son, my relatives, and friends think about Dafa? How can I save them?" As soon as this thought appeared, my physical suffering slowly went away.
Later the hospital confirmed that I had heart disease, hypertension, a cardiac muscle with insufficient blood supply, a pinched nerve in the spinal cord, muscle hardening, dementia, and other problems. I was unable to take care myself and was very sick. Under Teacher's merciful protection, I finally walked out of the camp.
After studying the Fa and practicing the exercises, my physical condition quickly recovered. Now I can do well the three things that Teacher requested us to do. We do well denying the old forces' interference, validating the Fa, accomplishing our great tasks, and walking well on the path of cultivation practice that Teacher arranged for us. Only then can we be worthy of our benevolent Teacher's enormous effort to save us.
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