(Clearwisdom.net) In early 2005, our material site was destroyed and we could not read any of Master's new articles for several months. We could only read some hand copied versions of Master's articles, and other Dafa materials such as the "Minghui Weekly." Some practitioners suggested to me that we establish a small materials site, but I made various excuses, such as my home was too small, I do not know anything about computers, I needed to take my child to and from school and I need to guide him to cultivate, etc. I thought to myself, "I will wait for my child to get better."
In May 2002, my son had just turned four and caught a very rare disease. He had been taking medicine for three years, yet he did not get any better. He suffered quite a lot. Some practitioners suggested to me that I should guide my son to cultivate, but I was afraid that I would spend too much time on him, so I didn't. My xinxing was not at the right place. I was attached to my son and could not solidly do the three things well. I did the three things as though I were completing a task. In fact, my most fundamental attachment is an attachment to my son because his state is not good. This huge attachment was a big obstacle in my cultivation, yet I was unaware of it.
When practitioners mentioned that we had no one preparing truth clarification materials, and that it was very hard for practitioners to obtain Dafa materials, my heart was moved. I wanted to establish a materials site, but I was stopped by my strong attachment. Two months had passed when one day, I was sharing an experience with another practitioner and suddenly realized my attachment. When I eliminated the attachment, It felt like a big rock was removed from my heart. The practitioner encouraged me. He said to me that if I could completely let go of the attachment, things would be totally different.
Eventually, I established a materials site and became one of the "flowers blooming everywhere." Although there were difficulties, with Master's compassion we were able to overcome the problems. I had to learn all of the computer skills from scratch and no one could teach me. My husband knew only a little bit about computers and I asked him to teach me. He then asked a colleague for help. Although it took a while for me to learn, everything worked out well. I had difficulty getting on the Internet and downloading software to break through China's Internet blockade. We also do not speak English. We had the computer for two months, yet we still could not get on the Internet. One night, before I went to sleep, I looked at Master's picture and thought to myself, "Master, when can I get on the Internet?" The next day, my husband went to work and found a VCD. He thought that it was a VCD with Falun Gong truth clarification materials on it and it would be a waste to throw it out, so he picked it up and brought it home. I wanted to see what was on the disc so that I could distribute it. Then, I saw that the VCD contained software to breakthrough the Internet blockade. I immediately understood that it was Master helping me. I truly thanked Master. When we saw the writing on the Minghui website, my husband, who is not a practitioner, was so happy that he jumped! I was so excited that tears streamed down my face.
It was just like the practitioner said:when you let go of your attachment, things will be completely different. After we established the materials site, I downloaded some technical guides and was able to operate the site independently. My son (a young practitioner) also became better. I could now guide him to cultivate and it would not delay anything I needed to do.
Now I understand, as long as we firmly follow Master's requirements to do the three things well, everything is naturally within the Fa.
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