(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1997. However, after 1999, the year the persecution began, my study of the Fa was lacking and I failed to understand the Fa rationally. I failed to cultivate myself truly and as a result, I returned to the state of being an ordinary person. Though I have always had Dafa in my heart, I still walked a crooked path for several years. But Teacher is compassionate and didn't give me up on me. In 2003, encouraged by my husband, who is a fellow practitioner, I began to again walk Dafa's cultivation path. I was so fortunate to become a Dafa practitioner in the Fa-rectification period.
Through Fa study and cultivation of my heart, I found that I still held strong attachments to fame and self-interest, especially the latter. During the years when I was not studying Dafa, I worked as an accountant for my company. I was in charge of managing capital flow. Without the constraints of Dafa, I was very greedy. I kept ten thousand yuan of the company funds for myself. As long as I did not say anything, nobody would ever know about it. One day I came across the sentence in Zhuan Falun:
"Some employees also returned to the factory what they previously took home. This situation occurred throughout the entire factory."
While I was reading Zhuan Falun, I was suddenly enlightened to one point: the practitioner brought back to the factory even the towels that he had taken home before; imagine how much debt I would owe for taking ten thousand yuan! How strong my greed was! What terrible behavior for a cultivator! How could I deserve to be called a practitioner in the Fa-rectification period? How could I do justice to Teacher's compassionate salvation? I discussed with my husband what I had done. He also urged me to return the money.
As long as you want to improve yourself, Teacher will arrange everything for you. Soon after I decided to return the money, my boss came to me and asked how much capital we still had that would be used for the employees' pension. I took the opportunity to add what I owed to the total amount and thus returned the money to the company. I really felt that a layer of dust was removed by Dafa and dirty things were poured out. Just as Teacher said,
"For example, if a bottle filled with dirty things is sealed tightly and thrown into water, it will sink all the way to the bottom. You pour out some of its dirty contents. The more you empty the bottle, the higher it will float in the water. If it is emptied entirely, it will float on the surface completely." (Zhuan Falun, Lecture One)
We Dafa practitioners cultivate in ordinary human society. What we should do is pour out all our human things. Only by doing this can we be filled with divine things. When our body is filled completely with divine things and without any human things, we will then complete our cultivation.
After I cultivated in Dafa, my jealousy, fighting mentality and anger gradually diminished. These attachments of mine were more pronounced with my family. I have three sisters-in-law and I am the youngest. I used to believe that my mother-in-law was partial towards the third elder sister-in-law. After I studied the Fa, I knew that people have different predestined relationships. As a Dafa practitioner, wherever I am I should try to be a good person, be compassionate, treat everyone well, look within when faced with conflicts, consider others, correct our thoughts and align them with Dafa, validate Dafa in our work environment and save sentient beings.
After understanding the Fa to this extent, I could calm down and look within when I heard other people talk to me about my mother-in-law's partiality toward my third elder sister-in-law. I knew that Teacher arranged this for me to remove my jealousy so as to upgrade my xinxing level. However, it's easier said than done. Sometimes I was still unbalanced. When my anger and jealousy surfaced, I would think: "I am a Dafa practitioner. I have to get rid of these attachments. These are not my true thoughts, but the things that I should remove." After I studied Teacher's lectures, and under the protection of compassionate Teacher, I have come to understand how important it is to remove all these attachments. Only after we improve our xinxing levels, purify our hearts and get rid of human selfishness and thoughts can we save sentient beings. In the past, I only pretended to be sincere to my mother-in-law. Now I am sincere to my mother-in-law and sisters-in-law from the bottom of my heart. There is now true harmony in my family. All the neighbors admire us. They are glad to hear the facts about Falun Dafa and have all quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
In this way, I strive to constantly purify myself and discard human thoughts and notions.
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