(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Dafa in June 1996. I would like to share some of my perspectives and give an account of how I have been doing truth clarification and saving people.
All this time I have never had the feeling that some days were better or some more dangerous for truth clarification. Regardless of the time of the day, I went out as long as it was for saving people. Every day I came home safely. I distributed all types of materials including booklets, VCDS, fliers, and copies of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. My perspective was based on the Fa and I knew therefore that there was nothing to be afraid of. We should break through all kinds of attachments of fear and continuously eliminate degenerate human notions.
Each and every time, prior to going anywhere to distribute truth-clarification materials, I sent forth righteous thoughts to disintegrate the evil and at the same to communicate with the materials, enabling them to fulfill their purpose of saving people. Arriving at a destination, I'd talk to the people in my mind, "My Master sent me here to save you. I hope you read this information attentively, so that you can understand the facts and be saved. Also, please pass the truth along to your relatives and friends--you would be doing a good deed that brings rewards." This is why, whenever I distributed informational materials, I never had any problems.
In the summer of 2005, I was getting ready to distribute a few dozen fliers. But the night before, I had a dream and saw some practitioners being arrested while distributing materials. When I woke up, I was unsure about what to do--to go out or not.
I opened up Zhuan Falun after waking up and read "Demonic Interference in Cultivation" (Lecture Six). Teacher said,
"This is the simplest form of interference, and it can achieve the goal of stopping your qigong practice. If you practice qigong and achieve the Tao, what about those unpaid debts you owe others? They will not allow it, so they will not let you practice qigong."
After studying the Fa, I was quite clear about everything--that dream was all evil demonic interference. I knew that Teacher's fashen protects me wherever I go, all the time, so what appeared in my dream wasn't real; it was nothing but a false image forced on me by the old forces, trying to distract me from saving sentient beings. I sent forth righteous thoughts to disintegrate it and then I went out and distributed all the Dafa materials I had in less than three hours.
Over the last two years, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) has installed numerous surveillance cameras everywhere to monitor people, especially trying to interfere with practitioners' saving human beings. I was trying, early on, to solve the problem with human notions, trying to figure out how I could detour around the cameras to distribute materials. However, this "detour" was a human notion, the same as the old forces' arrangement. It would amount to the evil finding practitioner's loopholes and the CCP installing more and more cameras. Thus, the more "detours" I made, the bigger the loophole, because I didn't negate the issue fundamentally.
Actually, I did not really comprehend the problem, even though Teacher had given me many hints. Take one of my dreams, for instance. There were lots of big holes in the walls of houses. I realized that I had loopholes about the problem of the surveillance cameras, but I didn't look within myself even though I had sent forth righteous thoughts directly at them. And still no breakthrough came, because I had not gotten rid of the attachment of fear: its spirit and its karma still existed in that field. One time, when leaving a residential complex after having handed out materials, one of electronic eyes of a surveillance camera was aiming directly at me. I said in my mind that I didn't acknowledge it and that it didn't have the ability to photograph me from across the street. Yet, for a few days I was still a little worried. Even though it didn't turn out to be a problem, what the situation showed me was that I had not really eliminated the fear. With regard to that matter, I had not met the standard of the Fa.
From then on, each time I went out to clarify the truth, I send forth righteous thoughts with an additional thought: "Disintegrate the evil behind the electronic eyes." When reaching my destination, I talked to the electronic eyes, telling them, "You are here for the Fa, for assimilating to the Fa, for serving and ratifying the Fa with Dafa practitioners. You'll have a good future, which is why Teacher selected you." However, by doing all this, I wanted only to change others instead of myself; how could the evil stop its interference?
In the summer of 2007, with truth-clarification materials in hand, I went to places I had been before. After distributing only a few fliers, I noticed that there were monitors even in the small lanes. With human notions creeping in, I walked many miles in less than two hours, causing the old forces to brutally persecute me. All out of a sudden, I had an arthritis-like pain in my right knee, so severe that I could not put any pressure on my leg. Every step was terribly difficult. At that time, I had a strange feeling, a human notion: "Take a taxi home." As I was dragging myself toward an apartment building, I thought, "Since I came to save people, I should not bring any materials home. The sooner I pass them on to people, the better." After entering the gate, I wasn't able to climb the stairs, so I began sending forth righteous thoughts and I also asked Teacher for strength. When I tried to climb the stairs again, I did not feel as much pain. I climbed up to the top floor. On my descent I began distributing the Nine Commentaries and truth-clarification brochures. Also, I told people that my Teacher had sent me to save them. It didn't take too long before I had passed out all the materials in the next apartment building.
For more than a year, each time I go out to distribute materials, my righteous thoughts have been very strong, and my state of mind has always been very upright in the process. Even though sometimes I had to walk a lot, basically, wherever I went I was able to finish distributing all the materials. However, on my way back, I always felt that other people were constantly watching me. Whenever I came across a police vehicle, I'd wonder if it had come for me or whether it had been tailing me. I already knew that this thought was a living thing that always interfered with me--it always reappeared many times, no matter how hard I have tried to get rid of it. Teacher has given me hints many times. My understanding was that I was required to eliminate the attachments of fear and selfishness.
I had a dream in which I saw the CCP premier, Zhou Enlai, and I was somewhat respectful toward him. Upon waking from the dream, I felt that it wasn't like a regular dream, and I realized that I hadn't been completely cleansed of the CCP's cultural poison. Having been through the CCP's so-called "political movements" so many times, witnessing firsthand its wicked way of giving people a hard time for a long time, creating an attachment of fear, trying to protect myself any way I could, I unknowingly agreed with what vicious Zhou Enlai had done in his cunning way. I maintained this kind of notion until recently, when I reread "Buddha Nature" in Zhuan Falun (Volume II):
"A notion, once formed, will control you for the duration of your life."
"And such a notion controls a person for not just one lifetime, but continually onward. Only when a change takes place will it be eliminated. Failing that, it will continue to exert control. When the notion gets progressively stronger, the person's real self will truly cease to exist."
"But it is very hard to vanquish thinking and notions acquired after birth, for that is what cultivation is all about."
After studying the Fa, I came to understand, all of a sudden, why recently the problem had always been with me. I didn't go deep enough when looking within to find the root of the problem. Instead, I was not really acknowledging the Fa from the Fa, and I was taking human notions as my own, thus making it impossible to break through this problem. I also understood that the interference of the surveillance cameras and my own suspicious mind were all a kind of fabrication that caused hindrance to my truth clarification. It all came from my belief in "science," a form of postnatal notion.
Once I understood the principle of the Fa, I got rid of this human notion, and I felt that I had become weightless. I was able to be more diligent and became better at doing the three things for the salvation of humans.
Heshi!
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