(Clearwisdom.net) When Master talked about being able to endure the toughest hardships of all in Lecture Nine of Zhuan Falun, he told us about a person who had so many troubles sudden unemployment, an elderly parent hospitalized, a son involved in a fight, a spouse having an affair, and more. He also said we would not necessarily have such troubles, but xinxing" conflicts are no easier to endure than these kinds of things. Reflecting upon my experiences over the last few days, I was just like the person Master talked about. All the troubles came almost at the same time creditors calling, my mother's illness, my husband becoming unemployed, my son having bad grades, my daughter's demands, fellow practitioners staying away, and myself also experiencing symptoms of sickness.
I had borrowed tens of thousands of yuan to build my house. Included in my debts was a debt of 3,000 yuan to my brother. However, this brother unfortunately was diagnosed with a very difficult to cure heart disease. He spent more than 100,000 yuan and no cure was in sight. I hastened to put together all the money I had and finally got 3,000 yuan to pay my brother back. I only had a little more than 100 yuan left. After paying the debt, I felt completely relaxed. I thought that now I could study the Fa peacefully. Unexpectedly, my 80-year-old mother called early the next morning and told me that her leg hurt so much that she could not walk. She received a drip at the hospital and wanted me to look after her. There was a humming noise in my head it was just like someone was hitting my head with a stick. I realized that this was interference. I started to send forth righteous thoughts. I told my mother to recite Falun Dafa is good in her mind. With blessings from benevolent Master, my mother started to improve. But then, my husband received a call from his boss saying that the company business was not in good shape because of the world financial crisis, and my husband had to stay home for a number of days. (My husband was a driver for a private store owner.) In fact, he was facing unemployment. My family depended on his income for food. I didn't know how to deal with this sudden loss of income. Then, my son told me after school, Mom, my teacher wants you to go to the school to have a meeting because my Chinese grades dropped from top marks to the bottom on my mid-term exam. I had previously taught at my son's school. Everyone there knew me. What would everyone think of me?
With so many things suddenly appearing, I also started to have abnormal reactions a toothache, backache, chest pain, and more. In addition, my daughter started using foul language, saying it was my fault she was suffering so much. All this occurred within three or four days; it was all so sudden and unexpected. However, I remembered Master's teaching,
"Whatever you experience during your cultivation--whether good or bad--is good, for it comes about only because you are cultivating. (To the Chicago Fa Conference)
Isn't that true? At the beginning, I was not moved when the economic persecution started. I thought I could go through it with Master's help. Sure enough, my cash flow turned a corner again and everything was moving in the right direction. The interference caused my mother's illness, dragged me away from Fa study and the three things, and preoccupied my mind. However, my mother broke through the difficulty by reciting Falun Dafa is good. Since then, my mother has not interfered with my practicing Falun Dafa because she has seen Dafa's beauty in me I have cultivated for ten years, I have good health and I have saved countless amounts in medical expenses. Also, like thousands of other Dafa practitioners, I am kind to others, and do not care about fame or personal gain. I am always considerate of others first. I do not mind how much I lose. Witnessing this for herself convinced her.
The interference wanted me to suffer economically and have my husband lose his job. Actually, this was not a big deal. Maybe having another job would improve his income. No matter what happens, I can always go through it because I have Master, Dafa, and righteous thoughts. Whoever or whatever impedes my truth-clarification will surely be eliminated.
In the process, I also looked inward. I found the deeply hidden attachment of being sensitive to reputation. Then, I put everything aside, and open-heartedly walked to the campus where I had worked. I found my son's teacher. The young teacher said that my son was not good at listening in class. I told her that my son was obsessed with computer games and did not spend a lot of effort on school work. I had on several occasions pulled the plug or hidden the mouse, but it proved useless. It was necessary to convince his heart. I took advantage of this meeting and tried to educate him. So, the meeting was not a bad thing. It exposed my own attachment, and I also got an opportunity to educate my son.
In hardship, I was still cheerful and I did not dwell on those things. I studied the Fa when I should have. I sent forth righteous thoughts when I should have. I clarified things when I should have. I memorized the Fa when I should have. Nothing could intimidate me! At the same time, I denied the evil persecution, found my own attachments, and then eliminated them. Is there anything that is not good? Actually, all the arrangements by the evil interference are futile, and they are nothing in the face of a true Falun Dafa practitioner. Disintegrating evil and following Master is our only true path.
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