(Clearwisdom.net) My husband and I are both Falun Dafa practitioners. I had a difficult time in deciding to marry him after he proposed to me, as I felt that we were not compatible. I also felt that, from the perspective of everyday society, he was inferior to me in every way. After we got married, things were all right when my husband listened to me, but I felt resentful whenever he didn't listen to me.
A few years ago, I was resentful of my husband for an extended period of time. While asleep at night, I saw two dark minions coming to attack me. They stuck their long black claws into my legs. Being very scared, I cried out, "Master, save me!" and I was rescued. After I gave birth to our child, my mother-in-law, who is also a Falun Dafa practitioner, got involved with the family issues, and the conflict among the three of us became more intense. Since Master has made it clear that, for a cultivator, divorce is an omission in cultivation, I didn't dare to divorce, and thus maintained the marriage, but I didn't regard my husband as my husband, and I also intensely resented my mother-in-law.
Last month, I developed the symptoms of a cold with a runny nose. I knew I had not done well and the old forces were taking advantage of my omission to persecute me. I looked inside and found many attachments. However, the sickness karma symptoms didn't improve. I couldn't seem to find the fundamental attachment. I was quite puzzled, as I could not pinpoint the problem.
A few days ago, when I was reading "Teaching the Fa at the Founding Ceremony of the Singaporean Falun Dafa Association," a paragraph suddenly caught my attention. Master said,
"All humans create karma. Some people have taken lives, offended others, sworn at others, hated someone, done something bad, and so on--all of which result in karma. It is a black substance, and it exists around the human body. It determines when a person will suffer and fall ill, or encounter trouble, or fail in business, or be assaulted or cursed at by others, or many, many other types of suffering. All of these are caused by karma."
For the first time I realized, just like assaulting or swearing at others, hatred also creates karma.
Master said,
"By contrast when a person is in a calm state, he is good, and that in fact is the true state of a human being." ("Teaching the Fa at the Meeting on Writing Music")
"If both of you could let go of self and cultivate well and not have such a strong sense of self, then could you not handle those things well, given that both the husband and wife are Dafa disciples?"
"When both of you are cultivators you should each be considerate of one another, and with that how could you talk about divorce? Marriage should be something unbreakable." ("Teaching the Fa at the Meeting with Asia-Pacific Students")
When I had a clear understanding of the Fa principle, I felt that many of the filthy substances in my field were suddenly removed, and my mind then became open. My husband and mother-in-law are both my fellow practitioners. Master said that everyone in the world was once his family member. How could I be so unkind as to resent them? The fundamental reason was selfishness. Once I understood that hatred also creates karma, I dug out the attachment of resentment, and the cold symptoms and runny nose also went away.
June 8, 2009
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