(Clearwisdom.net) When I turned on my computer one morning, I immediately saw the experience-sharing articles written by Mainland China practitioners. I quickly read through three or four articles, and admired them from the bottom of my heart: They are so good! The sharing articles are short and precise, and their quality was again much improved from the articles shared at the last Fa-conference, especially the parts about their cultivation experience. I was moved to tears. In the early evening, I turned the computer on again and continued to read a few more sharing articles. Again, I was deeply inspired.
I read a few articles more attentively, which included "Do What You Should as a Disciple" by Jinglian (http://www.clearwisdom.net/html/articles/2010/11/20/121515.html); "Validating the Fa with Righteous Thoughts" by Juexing from Hebei Province (http://www.clearwisdom.net/html/articles/2010/11/10/121345.html); "Transcend Tribulations and Bring the Wonders of Dafa to Sentient Beings" by Ruo Shui from Northeast China (http://www.clearwisdom.net/html/articles/2010/11/17/121459.html); "The Mighty Power of Righteous Thoughts Is Boundless" by Jian Ding (http://www.clearwisdom.net/html/articles/2010/11/18/121479.html);
"Only Walk the Path Arranged by Master" by Jinbao from Beijing (http://www.clearwisdom.net/html/articles/2010/11/16/121446.html). While reading, tears streamed down my face, and I experienced a mixed feeling of inspiration, admiration, and regret. I also submitted an article, but by comparison, I felt I was so far behind, not only in writing, but in cultivation and saving sentient beings. My general feeling is that they are truly worthy of the title "Fa-rectification Dafa disciples!" They have truly done what Master has required us to do. Both in studying the Fa, reciting the Fa, maintaining righteous thoughts with righteous action, and saving sentient beings, they are outstanding. Some practitioners used only over a thousand words to share their experiences of nine years of diligent cultivation, how they broke out of the dens of evil, and how they have saved sentient beings. I feel these fellow practitioners are the good "students" who listen to Master the best. I used to work as a teacher, and I remember I used to ask each of my students to write two to three observations in their diaries each week, but the result was not very satisfactory. The best students wrote in their diaries every day, and they paid great attention to their choice of words and the content; students of average merit just did as I required, while the third level of students did not even complete what I had asked them to do. I feel that in terms of my current cultivation state, I am even worse than a third level student. I feel extremely ashamed.
This is no surprise. While I was writing my sharing, my thoughts were not very clear, and I did not know where to start. It took me a few days to think before I started to write. In the past, just before and after the persecution started, when I wrote articles to promote the Fa, clarify the facts, and validate the Fa, I would just pick up a pen and write, without much thinking. I felt I had endless things to write about and could write very easily, either in quoting Master's teachings or describing the miracles in Dafa cultivation. My supervisors and those who participated in persecuting me all praised my writing skills and said what I had written was sensible and reasonable. But now, I'm so far behind.
I wondered, "Why is this?" Of course it is because I have failed to meet Master's requirements and do the three things well; I have been tied up with all kinds of human attachments, such as fear and selfishness. Master said, "Every attachment for you to remove in your cultivation practice is a wall, standing there and blocking your path of cultivation practice." ("Environment" in Essentials for Further Advancement) It seems that I am doing the three things every day, but there is a big difference in terms of how much I put my heart into them and how effective they are. I said I had let go of life and death, but after I returned home after being persecuted, I became scared of the persecution. In fact, it is fear of hardships.
Because I still have attachments to fear, the old forces always instigate the local police to monitor my movements, and the evil beings in other dimensions often present persecution messages that scare me and make me unstable in my cultivation. My efforts to save sentient beings are also inconsistent, and the number of people I have saved is also limited. When I see that fellow practitioners are so unselfish, that they have truly let go of life and death in saving sentient beings, and let go of attachments to fame, personable interests, and sentiments, and they work with such great efficiency and have saved so many people, I feel really ashamed in comparison to them.
However, I understand that the purpose of a Fa-conference is to encourage Dafa disciples like me to catch up quickly and become diligent. The Fa-rectification is nearing the end, and if we still do not make an effort, we might not even be able to go beyond the three realms. We cannot just say that we want to return home with Master while not making any effort. That would be like a student who wants to go to university, but he never studies hard; in the end it will come to nothing. What we need to do next is to regard the Fa as teacher, quickly catch up with the progress of Fa-rectification, and do well what Dafa disciples should do during this period of time. We should unconditionally do well the three things and have faith in Master and Dafa.
Master said,
"You need to really, truly put some effort into cultivation, and not lapse into just doing it superficially; you shouldn't have so many human attachments. As Master sees it, your each and every thought, and your every single action, reveals to me what your heart is like. What I least like are those who are all talk and no action. Nor do I like those who are cunning. What I like are those who are honest and simple, sincere and down-to-earth. I also hope that you can all, after so many years of cultivating, positively grow in wisdom and not grow so much in terms of knowing how to deal with worldly matters or how to conduct yourself as a human being leading a worldly life." ("Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa Conference")
Let us remember Master's teaching and be honest and simple, sincere, and down-to-earth Dafa disciples. Let us genuinely cultivate, save more sentient beings, and return with Master upon consummation.
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