(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Gong in 1996, but there was something imperceptible preventing me from improving during the first two years. On July 20, 1999, the day the Chinese regime launched the persecution of Falun Dafa, I went to the town hall to appeal for justice. The minute I returned home, my enlightenment was suddenly elevated. I began picking up things when I studied the Fa. The more I studied, the more I loved to study.
On the sensitive days, which marked the massacres and incidents of persecution carried out by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), practitioners would not gather to do the Falun Gong exercises outdoors. Instead, they came to my house to study the teachings and do the exercises. I was at first afraid that the authorities would find us. Through studying the Fa, however, I came to understand how to face this test, and I stopped worrying about the sensitive days.
As the suppression intensified, more and more practitioners were arrested and imprisoned. Slanderous talk about the teachings and Teacher was everywhere. Some practitioners I knew personally were arrested after they went to Beijing to appeal for the right to practice. I struggled, because I was worried about what would happen to my children if I went to Beijing to appeal for Falun Dafa and was arrested.
Teacher said in Zhuan Falun:
"You are unable to interfere with the lives of others, and neither can you control others' fates, including those of your wife, sons, daughters, parents, or brothers. Can you decide those things? Furthermore, how will you practice cultivation if you do not have any worries or troubles?"
Teacher also said in the "Drive Out Interference" from Essentials for Further Advancement II,
"The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts."
My heart was changing, and the will to go to Beijing grew stronger.
In December 2001, two practitioners and I went to Tiananmen Square. The police took us to the Tiananmen Police Station. After beating and yelling at us, they locked us in a metal cage. Human notions arose in me at the time, and bad thoughts flowed into my mind. I started to recite Teacher's articles to adjust my mental state. I wanted the Fa to rectify my every thought. I also sent righteous thoughts to eliminate the bad thoughts. The teaching of Falun Dafa gave me courage, wisdom, and power, and allowed me to let go of the fear of losing what I had, including my life. Only one thought remained in my mind, and that was to appeal for justice for Falun Dafa and Teacher. Three days later we were released from the detention center.
When the persecution had just begun, we had very few materials to help people understand the truth about Falun Dafa. The regime broadcast false and slanderous news about Falun Dafa on TV and radio every day, and people's hatred toward Falun Dafa, Teacher, and practitioners intensified each day. Several practitioners and I made banners and signs to clarify the truth about Falun Dafa. At night, I went from village to village to post these materials.
During those dark nights, I hung up banners and posted the materials alone. When I got scared, I sent righteous thoughts, memorized the Fa, and thought to myself that I had Teacher and the Fa with me, so nothing could harm me. In time I stopped being afraid.
Teacher said in "Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)" from Essentials for Further Advancement II:
"If you are not afraid, the factor that would make you afraid will cease to exist. This is not to be self-imposed, but is achieved by truly and calmly letting go of it."
On one occasion, it got too dark for me to see clearly. All of a sudden there was light coming from behind me. Initially, I thought there was someone walking behind me, but when I turned around, no one was there. I was moved almost to tears. Teacher was protecting me. There was no reason left for me not to let go of my attachments and do well.
After the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was published, I started to distribute it. I began with my family. Initially they didn't understand the facts, but I continued explaining to them the facts about Falun Dafa, and eventually they quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. As I gained more experience in clarifying the truth, I began talking to my friends and people I met on the street about quitting the CCP.
During the past 14 years, I have come across danger several times, but I always got out of it thanks to Teacher's protection.
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