(Clearwisdom.net) I am a practitioner from the countryside, and I became a Falun Dafa practitioner in 1999. When I came into contact with the Fa the first time, there were some obstacles to my understanding the Fa due to the evil Party's promotion of atheism. I was young and healthy at that time, so I seldom did the exercises and only studied the Fa. One night I suddenly woke up and saw a revolving Falun shining with colorful lights. I was very excited and thought, "Is this for real?" I looked at my son, who slept deeply beside me. The Falun was just above him and everything was so real.
The next morning, I got up early to do the exercises. From then on, Master broke my attachment to atheism and gave me confidence in my cultivation. Even though the old forces caused a lot of tribulations for practitioners like me who obtained Dafa late, Master's arrangements pushed us forward and kept us from falling behind. Honestly, I am afraid that it would have been very difficult for me to get through the persecution without this encouragement from Master.
When I was illegally arrested in early 2002, I took my son's notebook with me. I had copied Master's lecture "Fa-Lecture at the Conference in Florida, U.S.A." and some poems from Hong Yin in it. Officials from the State Security office failed to find the notebook when they frisked me twice. When I was sent to a detention center, a guard searched me again. I could hear the rustling of the notebook every time I moved, but miraculously, I was able to bring it in with me. At that time my righteous thoughts were not strong, and I wanted to put notebook down so that I wouldn't be caught with it. But because the area was so dirty, I gave up that idea. When practitioners inside the prison read the articles, they sobbed. I suddenly realized that they were eager to read Master's Fa in that place. Due to Master's protection, I was able to miraculously bring these articles to fellow practitioners in prison despite the obstacles.
While in the detention center, when other practitioners and I recited the Fa together, a guard said that I was the leader and pulled me out of the cell. They forced me to sit on an iron chair and shocked me with an electric baton. At first I could not help screaming, but then I thought of Master. I closed my eyes, remained silent, and thought, "I will only bear what I should bear, and I will not accept what is not mine." Because of this thought, I felt the electric baton only on a small area of my body.
After I was released from the detention center, we set up a Fa study group. We studied the Fa, sent forth righteous thoughts, told people the facts about Dafa, and sent materials. But I was not diligent. My heart wanted comfort and my fear allowed me to be satisfied with my current state, plus I believed that I was keeping up with the Fa-rectification process.
When I listened to a fellow practitioner's cultivation experience, my heart was shaken by his selflessness, and I could not help but cry. The difficult life of practitioners that operated a material site and the pressure they were under allowed me to realize that their lives were hard every single day. I felt ashamed, because I could comfortably look at weekly articles but did not even cherish them sometimes. The selflessness of these practitioners was also a reflection of my selfishness. I knew that more than ten practitioners were not able to get the weekly articles in their surrounding areas, but I did not feel responsible and believed that I did not have the ability to get those articles to them. In fact, as a practitioner, if I have a righteous heart, then nothing is impossible. Millions of practitioners have already overcome similar obstacles.
I also wanted to set up a family material site to reduce the pressure on other practitioners who ran other sites and to complete my mission. After I had this desire, I soon was in contact with a practitioner who worked in this field. With this practitioner's selfless help, my material site was quickly set up.
The first time I saw Master's photo on the Minghui website, where he is "watching the world from amidst the mountains," I sobbed. I hated myself for not having stepped forward sooner. During that time, I studied the Fa, did the exercises, learned technology, made truth clarification materials, and did farm work. Though my life was hard, I felt very happy and enriched, and my life became valuable. A rural woman like me would never know why she came to this world without cultivating in Dafa.
The establishment of the material site is a new start for me in my cultivation. I must be strict and improve my xinxing, because everything is closely related to one's xinxing. When my xinxing was not good, my Internet speed became slow, and my printer also developed problems. This made me realize that I needed to be strict with myself and upgrade my xinxing. I also learned how to handle problems with righteous thoughts, not human ones. Many of the technical problems I ran into reflected my attachments. After I improved, these problems disappeared.
I remember that once, when I was using the computer, I had a heart of showing off before my husband and son. Suddenly, the system got stuck and nothing worked any longer, nor could I shut down the computer. I looked inward and asked Master for help. My son soon called out to me, even before I had reached Master's photo, "Mom, the computer works again." Cultivation is just like this. If we look inward, miracles will happen, and with righteous thoughts, we can overcome any tribulation.
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