(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Dafa in November 1995. Throughout these years, I have not only felt the profoundness of Dafa, but also often found gaps and shortcomings in my cultivation. My most painful experience was slacking off in my cultivation due to an insufficient understanding of the Fa. Here I would like to share some of my experiences.
The local 610 Office handed a letter to my employer in August 2007. It was a notice to maintain social stability, and demanded that I write a guarantee statement promising to stop practicing, and that I had to slander Master.
I was told by an official from my workplace that I had to meet with someone. Upon meeting this person I immediately knew what it was about, even though we had not spoken yet. When the person talked to me, I was anxious and fearful. Instead of listening and compassionately clarifying the truth to the person, I tried to reason with them using an ordinary person's thinking, and my strong attachment of competitiveness prompted me to argue. We argued back and forth for more than 40 minutes. I was then told that I had only a few days to think about cooperating with them or I would be reported to higher authorities.
With a strong belief in Dafa, I had one thought. I absolutely must not yield to their demands. I adjusted my mindset and compassionately talked to them. I said that Falun Dafa helps us to become better people, and I informed them of the principle "Good is rewarded, and evil is punished." When I returned home that evening, I exchanged my understanding with a fellow practitioner, and realized that regardless of the circumstance, this was a process of truth-clarification. Since the official asked questions, it meant that they did not understand the truth about Falun Dafa, so I decided to tell them more, and spoke about the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. This was then all reported to a high-level official. The next day, a group of people came to my office. One of them said, "We are under a great deal of pressure now. In the past, we took a risk and protected you. If you refuse to cooperate now, and continue practicing, we will have no choice but to hand you over to the police." I was given two days to think about it and respond. I told them that I could not do what they asked, and that their actions would harm them. One of the officials had read Zhuan Falun before the persecution started, and even said the book was very good. He also interacted with practitioners after the persecution started, and had read the Nine Commentaries. Why then did he act this way now? This must mean that there are some areas where I needed to improve.
I discussed the situation with my wife when I returned home, and decided to be more proactive in my efforts to clarify the truth to people. That evening, I studied the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts with my wife and child. Then, while they continued sending forth righteous thoughts at home for me, I went to find the official again, but I was unable to meet with him. I returned the next day and told him of the benefits we had received from the practice, and even mentioned that my performance at work had improved because of this. The official agreed with me. When I began speaking about the persecution and the Nine Commentaries, he stopped me, "I know what you are going to say. Please stop." I said, "These things are the truth and have taken place. We have to face up to the truth." He tried to stop me again and said he could not help me. I told him that cooperating with the CCP was essentially doing bad deeds. In the end, he said he had no other choice.
When I returned home, I sent a brief statement of the incident, and a list of all the officials' phone numbers, including their cell numbers, to practitioners overseas. A day later, the officials visited me again, and said, "You practitioners are very powerful! As soon as we had finished talking to you, people started to call us. When we had a meeting, we received text messages on our cell phones. Our home phones rang when we got home. We don't dare to answer the phone now." As we spoke, two officials' cell phones received incoming text messages. They looked at each other's cell phone and smiled. The officials said, "All right, we will not bother you anymore!" Since then, I have not been visited by any officials. I would like to sincerely thank the overseas practitioners for their great help.
The police visited me about ten days later and asked why I had not written the guarantee statement promising to give up the practice. I asked them, "Why do I have to write such a statement? Will you arrest me if I don't write it?" They replied, "No." I continued, "Very often you do these things with an excuse to maintain social stability. Right now I have a normal life and a job. So who is stirring up things to create trouble?" One of the officers then tried to start a quarrel. I remained very peaceful and didn't argue with him. I said, "History will judge what happens, no matter what we do today. Good is rewarded with good, and evil will meet with karmic retribution." They then stopped discussing the issue and started to talk about other things. Eventually, the officers smiled and said, "If you need our help in the future, please call us." They left me their phone numbers.
Under Master's compassionate care, and a strong belief in the Fa, I have managed to remain steadfast in cultivation.
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