(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Gong at the end of 2004, shortly after I withdrew from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations. By studying the Fa diligently, I finally found the answers that had eluded me for many years. I realized that everything in this world was arranged by higher beings and that humans have to return to their origins. I was certain that Falun Dafa was what I had been looking for.
Falun Dafa Changed Me
After graduating from the Physical Education School in 1989, I landed a good job. I was good-looking and I had an outgoing personality. However, I was always blunt and wasn't interested in minor details. In my mind, there wasn't much difference between men and women. My nickname was “Tomboy.” Even though I occasionally sensed that some guys looked at me with romantic eyes, it didn't affect my outlook. After I got married, I quit my job and started doing business because I was interested in making money. However, things were not going smoothly. I started drinking and playing mahjong for most of the day. Although not happy about my behavior, my husband kept quiet because I did take care of the house. Looking back, I now am ashamed that I drank in public while playing mahjong. Consequently some rumors spread about me. I didn't like that, but I was addicted and often couldn't control myself.
At that time, there were several Falun Dafa practitioners who lived nearby. They clarified the truth about Falun Dafa to me and said, "If you cultivate well, you can repress others' bad thoughts." (In fact, those were my own bad thoughts). I was interested in practicing Falun Dafa. Later, I convinced my mother-in-law to join the practice. A year after my father passed away, my mother came to live with me for a short time. I also convinced her to practice Falun Dafa. Thus, they both started practicing Falun Dafa while I was still goofing around and playing mahjong daily. However, I lost every time I played. Consequently my health deteriorated. My mother-in-law placed the book Zhuan Falun on my pillow. I knew that I had to read this book.
I read several pages daily, no matter how late I returned home. This was the turn-around point in my life. I no longer drank or played mahjong. Instead, I locked myself in my room and studied the Fa. Sometimes I read six chapters a day. My neighbor, a practitioner, gave me a bag full of Falun Dafa materials, including the Minghui Weekly. As I was reading, I finally began to understand some of the principles and my illness symptoms disappeared. I no longer suffered from the effects of coal smoke and a lumbar hernia. I let go of my attachment to comparing myself to others and became more caring toward husband. I had learned how to be a good person, a better person, and a true practitioner. All my neighbors said that I truly changed.
A Small Flower Blossoms in Our Home
In the fall of 2005, one of the practitioners was arrested, leaving behind a DVD burner. Other practitioners asked me if I could learn to make Falun Dafa informational materials. It didn't take any time for me to agree, as I had wanted to do this for some time. With help from other practitioners, I quickly learned how to burn DVDs and CDs. I was also able to transfer files to an MP3. I took care of my business during the day, studied the Fa at night, and then made DVDs until midnight. I never felt tired and practiced the five exercises daily. After providing other practitioners with materials, I distributed the remainder. We often went out to distribute materials. I never hesitated to attend any activity as long as it was an opportunity to validate the Fa. On weekends, I distributed the materials in rural areas and never felt tired even after walking 13 to 14 hours a day.
One day in 2007, I rode my bike to distribute materials in a rural area. As soon as I entered one village, seven or eight residents started to chase me, holding weapons in their hands. I didn't run away, thinking that it was a good opportunity to clarify the truth. I knew that I had strong righteous thoughts, because I often read the Minghui Weekly. Another practitioner turned back to look for me. We both spoke to the villagers about the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), the suppression of the students at Tiananmen Square, the persecution of Falun Gong, and the staged Tiananmen self-immolation. We said, "We've risked our lives to tell you the facts so that you can have a good future. If we are arrested, we could be sentenced to prison or even beaten to death. We haven't commit any wrongdoing and simply do this for your benefit. If you don't want these brochures, I can take them back." Some of the villagers said that they needed to read them to understand. I continued to talk for another half an hour. The director of the village security office told us, "You should leave now. Otherwise we will report you." Under Teacher's protection, we walked away and finished distributing the remainder of the materials. On our way home, we wrote facts about Falun Dafa in appropriate places and erased the propaganda slogans that promoted the CCP. We recited the Fa and shared our experiences along the way.
Teacher Helped Me Overcome Tribulations
In 2008, the Olympics were held in China. Because of many of my attachments, the old forces took advantage of my loopholes. At that time, I didn't study the Fa diligently and didn't have a good understanding of the Fa, so I didn't know how to reject the old forces' arrangement. I even considered myself quite good. Although I had read the Falun Dafa books once, I didn't truly understand much of what I had read. When I was arrested and detained, I thought to myself, "It is time to calmly look within. No need to rush." Once I found my shortcomings, I was determined never to take the path arranged by the old forces and that I would only follow the path arranged by Teacher. Since I was there, however, I had to validate Falun Dafa.
In that year, many of our local practitioners were arrested, and there were 14 practitioners in our cell alone. We agreed not to wear the prison uniform, refused to do hard labor, resumed our Fa study, and did the exercises. Although some practitioners were afraid at first, they gradually stepped forward and started to sing Falun Dafa songs, thus forming a whole body and disintegrating the bad elements in that environment. During outdoor time, we passed a letter to the male cell, encouraging them to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations and delivered the same letter to the guards. One guard was shocked after reading it and said, "My God!" Forty days later, I was taken to a forced labor camp. Because I practiced the exercises and refused to wear the prison uniform, the guard took me to the guards' room. I saw six electric batons on the table and had a thought that those were not for me. I then sent forth righteous thought and recited the poem "Nonexistence" from the book Hong Yin:
“Live with no pursuit, die not caring about staying, clear out all wild thoughts, cultivating to a Buddha is not hard.”
Four guards simultaneously struck me with electric batons. Seeing that I didn't react, they removed my jacket and continued to shock me. I sent forth a righteous thought, telling the electricity to return to those torturing me. I also asked Teacher not to have them generate karma. At that moment, I saw the director's hand suddenly start shaking. They all stopped. The director grabbed my hands, looked at them, and put them down. Afterward they pushed me down and put clothes over my head. They tied me to the death bed torture device for five months. One time when they released me to clean me, I fainted and fell. I heard the guards shouting loudly, "Disintegrate it!" I started sending forth righteous thoughts to disintegrate the bad elements. I recovered after a little while. The guards once again tied me to the death bed. Later someone told me that it was Teacher giving me hints me through her mouth. Similar miracles happened many times. One time, my legs were tied tightly with a leather belt. However, when the guard checked it, the belt was loose. He said, "No one is allowed to touch the leather belt or his term will be extended." He tightened it again. But when he checked it, it was loose again. Later he told another inmate to tighten it and never bothered to check. Another practitioner told me, "The leather belt cannot harm you. Teacher is watching over you." But I didn't enlighten to it at that time. I realize now that Teacher was helping me, otherwise I could not have survived the torture.
Another time, I couldn't sleep due to excruciating pain. I felt a tall person take me into his arms, pat me, and say, "Sleep for a while." I fell asleep. When I woke up, I knew that person was Teacher. Teacher's protection strengthened my determination that I had to walk out of there with dignity. During my detainment, I constantly sent forth righteous thoughts and looked inward. Thus, the time there was not unbearable. Because I never signed any of the documents, they wanted to extend my term. I enlightened, "Whatever you say counts for nothing. I need to go home. My Teacher arranges everything for me. I must do well and be responsible so my family doesn't worry about me." With such thoughts, I returned home.
Joining Fa Rectification
After I returned home in July of 2009, I studied the Fa intensely and quickly joined the efforts to validate the Fa and save sentient beings. With the help of fellow practitioners, I have been writing Falun Gong information on paper currency that I give in change to vendors. It went from several thousand yuan every week last spring to over 20,000 yuan a week now. Fellow practitioners all actively participate. At the beginning, I was a little reluctant. But I am doing it very well now because I know that Teacher is always with me. Some kind vendors remind me to be careful with this large amount of money. I smile and thank them. Sometimes I also give them truth clarification materials about Falun Dafa. Some vendors even ask for it. Some call me "Little sister of Falun Dafa" and say, "Falun Dafa is good.” At first, one vendor didn't know the facts about Falun Dafa and didn't understand what we were doing. Now he understands and is very supportive. Because so many vendors want to change money with me, I am usually quite busy. The sentient beings are awakening. I have realized that Fa study is the most important thing.
There is still so much to share. Words can't express my gratitude to Teacher. Without Teacher's protection, I could not have survived to this day.
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