(Minghui.org) My husband and I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1995. We’ve both endured trials and tribulations during the 24 years we have cultivated.
My husband was illegally sentenced to prison for many years, and I have been held in detention centers and forced to attend brainwashing sessions. Protected by Master Li and guided by Dafa, we’ve made it through. We continue to steadily do the three things Master has asked us to do.
I would like to share my most recent tribulation. I started to have a slight dry cough about a month ago. I figured I was probably eliminating some sickness karma and therefore didn’t pay much attention to it. However, the cough got worse a week ago.
Then, three nights ago, I fell asleep after sending forth righteous thoughts at midnight. I woke up at 2 a.m. with a very tight chest and had difficulty breathing. I also had an unusual pain in my heart.
I struggled out of bed and bent down to pick up my mat to do the sitting meditation in the living room. When I stood up and started to walk into the living room, my heart ached even more (a symptom of heart disease) and I almost collapsed. I quickly sat on the floor by leaning on the couch.
It became harder and harder to breathe, as if I was going to pass out. Just then, I clearly heard a male voice say, “Your life has come to an end. It’s time to go.”
My main conscience was not clear, and I responded, “I’m almost 70. I guess it’s about time.” Then I thought, “When I’m gone, my body should remain at home for at least three days, according to custom. The mourning hall should be arranged this way, and the living room should be arranged that way.”
I also thought, “If I’m gone, who will take care of my granddaughter in elementary school? My husband has no income (the Party refused to give him his retirement pay after he was released from prison), so how will he get by? Who’s going to take care of him? Oh wait, he’s entitled to my 50,000-yuan death benefit, which should be enough...”
I suddenly woke up and thought, “I cannot go. I am Master Li Hongzhi’s disciple. I do not accept or acknowledge anyone else’s arrangements. I want to follow Master home and go nowhere else!
“I cannot taint Dafa’s reputation. [Two other practitioners in my residential area passed away, which had a negative impact on non-practitioners.] I have so many things to do yet. I want to be an honorable Dafa disciple who is solid in her cultivation.
“Master, I know what to do now.” By then I couldn’t breathe and I felt as if I was going to die, but I cried from the bottom of my heart, “Master, help me! Master, help me!”
The feeling I was dying went away. I had literally felt as if the old forces had come to take my life, but Master saved me.
Master said,
“When interference comes up it’s usually caused by those old forces.” (Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference)
“…because your gaps would be taken advantage of due to the fact that you yourselves still do have undetectable elements, and the old forces insist on forcing in what they want to do.”(Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference)
“Master doesn’t acknowledge them. And you shouldn’t acknowledge them either. Do things well in an upright and dignified way, negate them, and strengthen your righteous thoughts. "I’m Li Hongzhi’s disciple, I don’t want other arrangements or acknowledge them"--then they won’t dare to do that. So it can all be resolved. When you can really do that, not just saying it but putting it into action, Master will definitely stand up for you.” (Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference)
I said to the old forces, “I am Master Li Hongzhi’s disciple. I answer to Master Li only. You are not allowed to interfere. While I have shortcomings and omissions in my cultivation, I can rectify myself in Dafa. With Master, I will cultivate well. Don’t even dream of taking away my physical body! No evil beings or elements of the old forces are allowed to persecute me.”
Master said,
“It is because in another dimension there lies a being in that place. That being is in a very deep dimension.” (Lecture Seven, Zhuan Falun)
“It is because there is a being in a deeper dimension who generates this field.” (Lecture Seven, Zhuan Falun)
I asked Master to strengthen me. I told myself, “I am a mighty god—how could I not handle this petty matter? Regardless of what evil being, element, or specter in other deeper dimensions it is, before a true practitioner, a tiny finger will be more than enough to crush it.”
My confidence was boosted. In my righteous thoughts, I locked the evil specter in the other dimension with my powerful gong and Falun, disintegrated them, and cleansed them completely. I sent forth righteous thoughts until 4 a.m.
My body returned to normal at daybreak. When my granddaughter came for breakfast, I did everything I would normally do to take care of her. No one could tell that anything was different for me. Nor did I say anything about it.
My husband, who slept in another bedroom, did not know what happened that night. I wondered, “Should I tell him about it, so he will be mentally prepared in case something happens?” In an instant, Master’s Fa came to mind:
“We have said that good or evil comes from a person’s spontaneous thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
I negated that thought of mine immediately. Wasn’t I making arrangements for my death? Wasn’t I using human thoughts to follow along with the old forces’ logic and accepting the old forces’ arrangements? Master has changed my path of life, and it is a life of cultivation. I told myself that I completely negated all the old forces’ arrangements, and only follow Master’s arrangements.
At the time, my dedication to cultivating steadfastly and believing in Master and the Fa was rock solid. I was determined to stay on one path: doing the three things well, assisting Master in Fa-rectification, and following Master home.
I decided to tell my husband about the incident as a practitioner, without any human emotions or human thoughts.
My husband shared with me that, at almost the same time that I started to have the dry cough, a message kept appearing in his mind: “Your wife is going to die. You will be completely free.” My husband ignored it, but the message kept coming back. He looked inside for jealousy and resentments and eliminated them with righteous thoughts.
A few days later, a similar message came into his mind: “She (referring to me) is going to die. You can find someone young and pretty, kindhearted and wealthy.” And it came more and more frequently.
My husband was very distressed and wondered if the message came from his fake self that was formed by notions and desires over his numerous lifetimes. He sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate interference from the demon of lust for 15 to 20 minutes, and then again for 30 to 40 minutes.
However, the message became even stronger despite all his efforts.
I had no idea that he was going through this, except for noticing that he had recently strengthened his sending forth righteous thoughts.
It wasn’t until we talked that my husband realized that the old forces were doing both things simultaneously to try to take my life. If my husband had nurtured any of those unrighteous thoughts, the old forces would have taken advantage of that and gone all out to kill me.
Two nights later, I had similar symptoms at 1 a.m. that lasted a couple of minutes. I told my husband about it, and we sent forth righteous thoughts together. Afterward, along with Master’s strengthening, everything returned to normal. Moreover, the bad thoughts that had been interfering with my husband never returned.
Looking inside, I realized that my first thought tended to be ordinary and was then negated with righteous thoughts. I realized that I had slacked off recently and had become attached to my children and grandchildren. This, along with aggravated ordinary thoughts, kept me from cultivating as diligently as before, and I couldn’t put the Fa first in everything I did.
Master said,
“There is a criterion, however, that the life prolonged beyond your predestined time to live is completely reserved for your practice. If your mind goes wrong a little bit, your life will be in danger because your lifetime should have long been over.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
I am profoundly aware that Master extended my life for me to cultivate, not for me to lead a human life. From now on, I will study the Fa more, practice solid cultivation, remove my human thoughts and human ways of thinking, remove selfishness, strive to reach the realm of selflessness, and be an honorable Dafa disciple who is solid in her cultivation.
In my local area, some practitioners passed away after long periods of fighting the illusion of sickness karma. There were also some who cultivated very well, yet they passed away all of a sudden, which typically happened during the small hours at night.
After talking about these issues with local practitioners, we realized that the main consciousness was weaker when we were sleeping and that we need to strengthen the main consciousness in our daily cultivation. This will help us to lay a solid foundation of cultivation and reduce opportunities for the old forces to take advantage of us.
I’m sharing my experience for two reasons: to expose the evil and because I hope it will be of some help for other practitioners who are fighting the illusion of sickness karma.
My fellow practitioners, Master and the Fa are always with us. Master is omnipotent, and Dafa is omnipotent. As long as we walk our paths righteously, Master can do anything for us, and Master will definitely stand up for us. We will be able to fulfill our historic vows to save sentient beings and follow Master to return to our true homes.
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