(Minghui.org) For many years, I have been actively clarifying the truth and I’ve also tried hard to practice the exercises and send forth righteous thoughts. However, fellow practitioners often remind me that I always fall asleep when I do the meditation or send forth righteous thoughts and say that my problem is very serious. They even said that I have been cultivating my assistant consciousness, but I did not feel anything wrong as I was not able to see myself when I meditated. Therefore, when fellow practitioners pointed the problem out to me, I did not agree with them and I didn’t even admit to it. I felt that I slept very little every night and I’ve already tried hard and been diligent in my cultivation. Over time, the fellow practitioners became so used to my state that they no longer pointed it out to me anymore.
Although fellow practitioners have been used to my state, they still pointed out that I sometimes fall asleep when I meditate. Weirdly, whenever the meditation ended, my body and hands returned to the correct posture and position such that I felt that I did not fall asleep at all. Therefore, I did not realize the seriousness of this problem, much less did I rectify myself.
Once I used my mobile phone to record the whole process of my meditation and sending forth righteous thoughts. After viewing the video, I was really shocked; when I erected my palm to send forth righteous thoughts, I was swaying to and fro when I sat there. My head fell so low that it was almost reaching the floor, but I was totally oblivious to it.
My main consciousness lost control of my body within a very short period of time; things were worse when I did the meditation and I was practically sleeping. The moment I closed my eyes, I did not know where my mind went. I realized that every time when I closed my eyes, thought karma and evil beings would transform into all types of people, matter or objects to come and disturb me so my main consciousness would relax. Once my main consciousness relaxed, my body was no longer under my control.
Practitioners suggested that I sleep more; I also thought that my state may have been caused by my limited sleep as almost every day I would sleep after sending forth righteous thoughts at 12 a.m. and wake up around 3 a.m. So, I got more sleep. However, the more I slept, the more I fed the sleep demon and the sleep demon became stronger, causing my main consciousness to loose control more often. All of this makes me feel giddy and uncomfortable. I even had nightmares that people were dying and I saw feces in the toilet. The demon of lust also came and created disturbances.
There were a few days when I did not go out to clarify the truth. I stayed at home to strengthen my sending forth righteous thoughts. Every time after I finished an hour of studying the Fa, I would send forth righteous thoughts one time. For the whole day, I continued to strengthen my main consciousness in this way. Every time when I sent forth righteous thoughts, I recorded the process with my mobile phone. Initially, my palm was limping and I was falling asleep; it was really serious but I did not give up. I just begged Master to strengthen me. Gradually, I was able to maintain the erected palm for 10 minutes, then 20 minutes, then 30 minutes. However, the maximum length of time that I could keep my palm erect was 30 minutes and I could not go beyond that.
I sent forth righteous thoughts for a long time, eliminating all the evil beings and arrangements of the old forces that make me lose my main consciousness when I meditate. When I meditated, I set up a few poles around me. If my body moved a bit, a pole would fall. This helped me maintain an upright posture and prevent my body from swaying when I meditated. Every time when I meditated, I treated it seriously and recorded the whole process with my phone.
I even used my mobile phone to set alarms to go off every five minutes. Every time when the alarm sounded, I had to use my hand to press the pause button. In this way, my main consciousness would stay in control. After persevering for some time, I no longer fell asleep even when I did not use an alarm when I meditated or sent forth righteous thoughts for an hour. When I meditated or sent forth righteous thoughts, I was also able to sit with proper posture and have an erected palm.
After a period of strengthening my practice, I finally overcame my long-term problem of relaxing my main consciousness when I meditated or sent forth righteous thoughts. I am able to maintain correct posture and complete the fifth set of exercises with a clear mind.
Now when I go out to clarify the truth and persuade people to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its youth organizations, my righteous thoughts are stronger and the effect is much better.
In the past, my stove took a long time to ignite. No matter how many times I had it repaired, it was still the same. Now, things have returned back to normal; my sink faucet also no longer leaks water. Although I only sleep a little more than three hours every night, I am still able to maintain my vigor. If I am sleepy, I will not try to catch up with my sleep. Instead, I will meditate for a while and I will immediately become full of energy. Once again, I experienced and witnessed the supernormal abilities of Dafa.
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