(Minghui.org) I have been practicing Falun Dafa for over 20 years. In the first few years, I had been in good health and my body truly felt light and illness-free. I was later subjected to persecution by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). After my release from being imprisoned for five years, I experienced severe sickness karma.
I had painful deformities in my joints for several years and struggled to walk. When one area got better, another began to ache. However, I never took it as an illness, nor went to see a doctor.
Because of my poor enlightenment quality, I didn’t get Master Li's multiple hints, nor treated myself as a true Dafa practitioner. I didn’t make the breakthrough in this regard until a few years later. The sickness karma spread to my internal organs, which manifested itself as bronchitis, asthma, and a nagging cough.
In October 2019, I was exhausted, short of breath, and constantly coughed. I couldn't sleep and had to sit up in bed and lean on the headboard.
I knew this was the old forces persecution, and I shouldn’t acknowledge it. I studied the Fa every day and negated the interference with righteous thoughts: Eliminating and dismantling all evil elements.
However, I subconsciously had the attachment of pursuit. I was in unbearable pain and wanted the suffering to stop. I looked inward and found all sorts of attachments, but I couldn’t let go of them. I was exhausted, as I couldn’t enlighten to what held me back; I suffered every day.
I couldn’t lie down for over two months, nor stay focused when sending forth righteous thoughts. I said to Master Li (Dafa’s founder) that I’d only follow His arrangements and negate any others. I also kept reciting the auspicious phrase “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!”
Deep down, I never took it as an illness. When fellow practitioners said I was eliminating karma, I didn’t agree with that either, however. My only thought was the old forces were persecuting me, but I couldn’t find my loopholes.
In a haze, I saw a grand hall and a stage covered in white flowers. After a group of people in front left, one voice said, “Take them to her.” But I replied, “Don’t, I don’t want it!” The voice then said to take them away but bring them back to me in three months.
I shouted out, “I have my Master!”
After I woke up, I figured the old forces were about to come down hard on me and try to take my physical body away.
I had the thought I wanted to stay with some practitioners for a few days to help me find my fundamental attachments and pass this test.
I went to a Fa study site to share my thoughts. Ms. Li who rarely went to this site said, “Your family environment is very good, given that there are three practitioners in your family. How can you still go outside to look for help?”
Her words shook me. I thought it was Master using her mouth to give me a hint to look inward, as opposed to looking outward for answers. In addition, another practitioner who was always willing to help out other practitioners didn’t invite me over to her home. Originally, I thought to seek her help, but it seemed like I really had to cultivate myself.
I started looking inward. I always complained about my husband and set very high standards for him. Because he didn’t do things to my liking, I thought he was incompetent. After I realized this, I began to rectify myself. I tried to hold back when I was about to complain. I also tried to express my opinions less.
I looked at my brother-in-law (also a practitioner) as being a bit arrogant. He liked to lecture others and often took the Fa out of context. So every time he pointed out something to me, I ignored him.
I then changed my notions about him and began to use the Fa to measure myself. I pointed out when I saw something wrong with what he said. I also rectified myself by letting go of the thought of looking down on him or holding onto resentment.
During that time, I kept studying the Fa, doing the exercises, and clarifying the facts every day, regardless of how much pain I was in. Especially during the pandemic, I’d go out to talk to people as long as I could. I felt time was pressing to save people.
My daughter-in-law asked me to stay at home as she was afraid that I’d be taken away and put in quarantine because I had a cough, or I could be infected with the coronavirus.
Since the lockdown was enforced, there were fewer people on the street. There is a big wholesale market in our area and a lot of phone numbers were posted on the gate. My husband drove me on his motorcycle to the market. I copied down the phone numbers and sent them to practitioners outside of China so they could call these people to clarify the facts.
I was on a tight schedule every day and held myself to the Fa’s requirements at all times. I didn’t worry about my discomfort or if I’d get better by doing this and that, or which attachment(s) triggered my tribulation anymore. When I wanted to cough, I just coughed; when I felt tired, I would sit down and rest. Soon enough, all my discomfort disappeared.
I came to realize that as long as we have faith in Master and Dafa, we should be able to pass trials and tribulations, regardless of how difficult they seem.
A Family Tribulation
Last month, my son and daughter-in-law had a fight, which resulted in my daughter-in-law leaving home. My son brought their two sons to me, then left without saying a word.
I had originally planned to join group Fa study but had to cancel. My attachments surfaced, which made me think of whether they would get a divorce. How would the children be raised? I was full of negative thoughts.
I tried to expel them, but they kept popping up. I always thought about how I should deal with the situation. I then decided to let go of all my attachments.
Master said,
“For one, you don’t have the power to change another person’s life or fate, ultimately, even if they are your closest of kin. Could you really change a person’s destiny?” (The Fourth Talk, Zhuan Falun)
I was able to let go of my sentimentality and not worry about it anymore. Then Master cast this passage of Fa in my mind,
“...just by staying unmoved you would be able to handle all situations...” (“Fa Teaching Given at the 2014 San Francisco Fa Conference”)
I felt so touched, as I knew Master was right beside me controlling everything. Soon enough, my daughter-in-law returned home. She and my son made up as if nothing had happened.
In order to help us raise our xinxing, Master makes use of our family and friends to help us eliminate attachments.
Master Arranges Everything
During the lockdown, every street was guarded. Only one person from each household was allowed to go out for groceries every few days upon presenting a pass. People from out of town couldn’t go into residential areas, especially in the city.
My printer broke, and I didn’t know how to fix it, nor could I find someone to help. I tried sending righteous thoughts but that didn’t work. When I wanted to go borrow a printer, I couldn’t get into that residential area. Meanwhile, practitioners were waiting for me to provide them with materials and copies of Minghui Weekly.
The next day, my husband drove his electric four-wheeler to take me to the city to look for a new printer. However, all the main roads were blocked, and the stores were closed. After we finished running some errands, we went to the same street where we bought our last printer. But the street was blocked. There was only one entrance with two security guards stationed there.
The guards were chatting away, and we drove straight past them as if they didn’t see us. No store was open except for the printer shop. The owner told me there was only one printer of that model left.
As we were heading out, the security guards stopped us and asked for our pass. They also asked us where we came from and where we were going, and told us to register with them. I said we had no pass and were heading to the supermarket. They let us go and reminded us to bring our pass with us next time.
As we rode away, we shouted out, “Thank you Master! Thank you Master!”
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