(Minghui.org) Greeting, revered Master! Greeting, fellow practitioners!
It has been two years since we had the Minghui Fahui in 2019. In the past two years, both my personal cultivation and the cultivation of all those involved in the Minghui Radio team have gone through significant changes. It was both tough and happy for us. But no matter what we encounter, it’s all a good thing.
Inner Peace After Looking Within
One day in early 2020, I suddenly had a high fever. During the few days I lay in bed, I began to go through the things I did before – some were recent and some from a long time ago. Somehow, those things all became very clear to me. I examined them closely—I saw my thoughts at that time, how some of my actions were not in line with the Fa, and how I hurt fellow practitioners, whether they told me or not. I was shocked to see how bad a person I was. I felt regret and shame. In my heart, I apologized to them, to myself, and to Master.
In the end, I said to myself, “I must live my life as a kind person.” Kindness has nothing to do with other people. It’s a personal choice. In terms of how I’ve hurt others, even though I didn’t realize it back then, I will one day. And as for the exhibition of my demonic nature, I will also recognize and regret it, as well as bearing the consequences of it.
Lying in bed, I envied those who could join the group exercises, deliver newspapers and those who work on the team. When I couldn’t do these things, I watched them like a bystander. I could only envy them. I realized how lucky we are, to be able to do the things Dafa disciples should be doing.
After the karma was eliminated, I felt myself become purer and softer. For the next few days, I felt unbelievably calm and peaceful. Even when I was driving, everything around me was so quiet. I opened my car window and listened carefully. “How come it’s so quiet.” Then I realized that the quietness came from my inner self. I didn’t realize I could reach such an inner peace. This state lasted for a few days. In those few days, I always wanted to listen to Pudu and Jishi. The music was just beautiful! Why didn’t I realize it before? After a few days, those feelings gradually disappeared.
Looking within based on the Fa and cultivating myself is a must. It has nothing to do with looking at others.
I found it helpful to cultivate myself based on how others behave. For example, when someone read the wrong word during Fa study, I examine myself to see whether I was fully concentrated in my own Fa study. Or when I noticed how others reacted to something, I thought about whether I would react the same way. Or if others do something well and conform better to the Fa, I could identify my gaps and learn from them. As long as we look within, no matter the circumstances, we are able to find something or gain some new understandings. It’s all a good thing.
The Power of Fa Study
I enlightened that everything—from my righteous thoughts, my strength, my ability and my inspiration, all comes from the Fa.
One time I was very focused while studying the Fa. After I finished, I lifted my head to see what time was it. At that moment, I suddenly lost the sense about time. “What is time?” I tried to collect myself and I was pulled back into our time-space. While I was so concentrated on Fa study, I felt my body was frozen and everything had stopped.
There were times when as soon as I began to study the Fa, I realized that my thinking changed – it could be how I planned to do something, or I suddenly lost interest in something I was attached to, or I suddenly felt some of my actions were so laughable, or I had some inspiration about what I needed to do next.
When I study the Fa, Master is teaching me in front me, and only to myself. All of my understanding and ideas in the project come from the Fa. None of them come from me. What I need to do is to enlighten from the Fa about what to do and then do it.
I also found that when I was thinking about my enlightenment in cultivation or things related to the project whenever I did the exercises, sent forth righteous thoughts or studied the Fa, I actually fell into the trap. I thought I was diligent, but in fact I was not. I didn’t take the opportunity to truly cultivate myself—instead I just went through the motions. When we talk about being diligent in cultivation, I felt many of the things are in the details that we can’t see with our naked eyes. It’s not an easy thing to stay in a good cultivation state all the time.
Now when I look back at the things I did, I can see my mistakes. It felt that no matter what I said or did, I was making mistakes. But that’s also a state brought about by cultivation and it’s all a good thing.
Improve Our Programs
Master said,
“Everyone knows that it’s very hard to proofread the book prior to printing; since it is the Fa, there is demonic interference. And there is also the thought-karma of human beings making trouble, so it’s extremely hard to do.” (Teachings at the Conference in Canada)
In the past, we received feedback pointing out our mistakes we made while quoting the Fa or in other places every week. In early 2020, we listened to nearly 1,000 episodes of previous programs that had Fa quotes and we corrected hundreds of mistakes. Since then, we added two proofreading and feedback steps to avoid mistakes. This was an omission in our team. We weren’t being respectful to the Fa and we needed to correct it.
In October 2020, we began to do the short wave radio program for audiences in China. This requires us to produce better and more timely programs. We included daily news from Minghui, persecution updates and cultivation stories, as well as opinions on current affairs. I deeply feel in the process that Master gives us whatever we need, as long as we walk each step with the righteous thoughts of a cultivator.
Keep Improving
Master said,
“Ours is a genuine cultivation practice of both mind and body. The gong that we cultivate is stored in every cell of the body, and the high-energy matter gong is even stored in the original minuscule particles of matter at an extremely microscopic level. As your gong potency becomes greater, the density and power of gong will also increase.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
I enlightened that our project is the same. For every practitioner involved, the higher density of our high energy matter, the more powerful we will become, and our project will be more effective – this includes every step, including broadcasting, the articles we select and other logistics.
A few months ago, we began to hold weekly group Fa study. I felt that with the significant increase in our workload and the need to improve our quality, we need everyone to make improvements in their cultivation and cooperate with each other better, in order to move forward. After all, we are a group of cultivators first, so cultivation comes before anything in the project. In order to improve together, group Fa study is the only way I can see right now.
Because we are in different time zones and fellow practitioners also shoulder other projects outside of the podcast work, I wasn’t sure how many of them would show up for Fa study. Later I realized that I need to stop worrying about how many would come, if I can make sure that I come each time, then we will be able to continue doing this.
To make it more convenient for more practitioners, we set up one big group Fa study each week and two smaller Fa study groups. I attend all three of them. I think we are experiencing the biggest and best changes I’ve seen thus far. After Fa study, we share our understanding of the Fa, things taking place in our personal cultivation, or things and suggestions coming up in the project. When I shared with fellow practitioners that I just began a new round of reciting Zhuan Falun, several practitioners said they are also reciting the Fa. I’m happy to see the solid cultivation foundation of our project.
Now I just wish we started group Fa study earlier. It’s me who didn’t fully fulfill my responsibility.
Thank you, Master! I can’t thank you enough.
(Presented during the 2021 Minghui Website Fa Conference)
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