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Greetings, Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!

Twenty-five years have passed since I began to practice Falun Dafa in 1997. With guidance from Master Li and help from fellow practitioners, I was able to improve my xinxing and let go of human notions. Having maintained a material production site at my home for over 10 years, I learned to eliminate attachments and gained a deeper understanding of Dafa's principles.

Letting Go of Fear

My husband and our daughter are also Falun Dafa practitioners. In the beginning, we relied on other practitioners to produce truth-clarification materials for us to distribute. There were very few materials production sites at the time. One practitioner was forced to stay away from home to avoid being persecuted, and she produced materials in a rental place for practitioners in my area. The demand was high, but there was only her to meet it. When some materials were passed on to me, I cherished them very much. Whether it was flyers, pamphlets, or CDs, I would check in detail what was inside and repackage them before distribution.

Several times I found the pamphlets had areas that were blank, meaning whatever content was supposed to go there did not print. As time went by, I saved quite a few materials of this kind. That practitioner must be very busy and she did not have time to notice them, I thought. So I decided to produce materials myself and reduce the burden on others. I shared the thought with other practitioners close to me, and most of them were supportive, especially the practitioner who produced the materials. I gave her all of my savings, several thousand yuan, for her to purchase the equipment and consumables for us. That was late 2009, and the material production site in my family was thus established.

My Fa study was not solid at the time, nor did I have strong righteous thoughts. From time to time, I overheard that some material production sites were raided by the police, which made me fearful. One night I had a dream in which the 610 Office called me and told me to wait at home since some officials would come to my home the following day.

The next morning, I was very nervous and asked other practitioners to send forth righteous thoughts for me. By noon, my mind was still not calm and I discussed with my husband whether to continue this material production site. What if someone came while I was printing materials? My husband started to practice Dafa after me and he was also worried. He suggested that I stop for now and put away the equipment. Right as he was about to move the printer, I felt something was wrong and stopped him. It was a Friday and many practitioners were waiting for their copies of Minghui Weekly, I reminded him. But my mind was still unstable, so I sat down to send forth righteous thoughts. After that it was close to 4 p.m. I did not know what to do and began to study the Fa.

At that time, “Fa Teaching Given at the Epoch Times Meeting” was just published. Master said,

“The bigger you perceive the challenges to be, the harder things will be to carry out, since “the appearance stems from the mind.” And so the task will become increasingly burdensome. When I say “the appearance stems from the mind,” by that I also mean that the difficulty stems from your overstating the importance of the matter itself and seeing yourself in a lesser light. Don’t take any such things to be a big deal, for with something as significant as saving sentient beings you should just do what you are supposed to do, going about it in a composed manner. When you encounter things that don’t sound so good or that aren’t what you hoped for, don’t take it to heart, and just nobly and confidently do what you are supposed to. If you don’t let the evil’s interference sway you, bad factors won’t arise from you, the evil will become trivial, you will become towering and massive, and your righteous thoughts will be ample. That’s truly the case.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the Epoch Times Meeting,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. X)

My mind became clear and my righteous thoughts arose. I also began to produce materials immediately. I knew I had been scaring myself. I also learned that only Dafa could eliminate all elements interfering with me.

There was another incident. Several years ago, I had a vivid dream: several police officers came to my home and I stopped them at the entrance. “Let’s see if her pamphlets have information on [clarifying the staged] self-immolation incident on Tiananmen Square. If so, we will get her arrested,” one of them said. I tried my best to keep them out, and they did not get in.

I talked with my daughter about this the following day. She also had a dream in which four security cameras were pointing at me and the computer that I was using to download truth-clarification materials.

We thought her dream and mine could be a hint that we were in danger.

I did not panic this time. I soon remembered to check if there was anything I did not do well, or if there were human notions. I did not find any. My daughter and I decided to send forth righteous thoughts. We did so every day, eliminating interfering vicious elements in other dimensions to protect the material production site. With no fear in our mind, we also felt cleaner in other dimensions. Then a real test came.

One day when I was walking down the street, a man asked me for directions. I told him and asked if he had heard about quitting the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) organizations before.

His expression changed and he yelled, “You, Falun Gong! I will call the police.”

“Please don’t. I just want what's best for you,” I replied.

He left on an electric bike. After walking a few steps and looking back, I saw him talking to a policeman, with his finger pointing at me.

The police van then came, and 6 or 7 officers surrounded me. I had just bought a bag of vegetables, but they went to check my backpack. There was nothing there except for a truth-clarification pamphlet. A stout police officer handed it to others. He and I also looked at each other. By then, a lot of passersby had gathered to watch what was going on.

The stout officer told other officers, “It’s just a pamphlet. Let’s get out of here.”

They all left, and so did the onlookers.

I was still standing there and my mind was blank. There was no fear or resentment, just some regret that I had not talked with them about Falun Dafa. On the way home, I suddenly realized that it was compassionate Master who gave me a hint of what would happen. Because my daughter and I sent forth righteous thoughts and cleared the field in time, the tribulation became smaller. That is, when I remained undisturbed and met the requirement of the Fa, Master helped me resolve this tribulation and I was very thankful to Master.

After I started to produce truth-clarification materials, I also started to systematically study all of Master’s lectures. Since 2006, I also began to memorize the Fa. I knew solid Fa study is the foundation for everything. Only by keeping Fa in our minds can we handle all kinds of interference, maintain righteous thoughts, and walk every step well.

In 2015, I joined many other practitioners in filing criminal complaints against former CCP leader Jiang Zemin for ordering the persecution of Falun Dafa. After all, Jiang and the CCP had committed sins by deceiving the Chinese people and I had no hesitation bringing him to justice.

My husband was concerned about the material production site’s security.

“Writing these complaints means using your real name and address. Aren’t you afraid that officials could come harass you?”

“These are separate issues,” I replied.

At that time, I had let go of many human notions, including life and death.

After I filed the criminal complaint, local police and community workers came to harass me a few times. My husband blocked them outside the door so that they would not interfere with me producing materials. One day when returning home, I saw my husband walking out with a police officer. I smiled at them and said we could chat for a while.

The officer came inside again. He asked, “Why do you want to sue Jiang?”

“The Supreme Court has instituted a policy to ‘docket all cases and accept all litigation’,” I replied. “Jiang has committed sins in persecuting innocent people who want to be good citizens. Look at how chaotic society is. He should have been sued a long time ago.”

After asking for my personal information, the police officer asked me to sign a document.

I told him that I would not sign any document because that would become evidence of him participating in the persecution.

The police officer left and never came back again.

Meeting the Needs of Other Practitioners

When first starting the material production site, I understood the importance of security. I did not causally allow other practitioners to come to my home, and I would deliver materials to them if needed. In the beginning, not many practitioners needed the materials and they were close by, so it was easy to cover. Over time, more practitioners began to step forward, while some material production sites were raided by the police. As a result, our local coordinator had to keep increasing my workload.

Due to poor xinxing, I complained in the beginning, thinking it was too much. The more anxious I was, the more problems the printer had. Plus, repairing the printer also took time. I looked within to see if I had done anything improper. I decided to continue studying the Fa and improving xinxing to resolve these issues.

Master’s Fa principles enlightened me. When looking inward, I noticed my first response to anything I deemed negative was always human notions. It was not accidental for others to contact me and ask me to help produce materials. Without me doing the work, how could other practitioners distribute the materials and refute the hate propaganda from the CCP? Therefore, I should get rid of the notion of fearing hardships. Instead, I should think of other practitioners’ needs first. With my thoughts rectified, the printer hardly had any problems. I was able to make more varieties of materials and with better quality. I could basically meet the needs of other practitioners.

One day in 2007, I dreamed of a practitioner who was a former co-worker of mine. In the dream, that practitioner was lying in bed dying. I interpreted this dream as a hint from Master that the practitioner was in danger. It was not easy to locate her, but we did meet each other in the end. I told her about the dream and she was shocked. For many years she had been bothered by tribulations in her family. Moreover, she did not have group study with others or have access to Minghui Weekly. I said I could give her the materials that she needed.

She had a very busy job, so we met at a bus station every week, most of the time after getting off work. For security reasons, I did not use a cell phone to contact her. Sometimes I had to wait for more than half an hour without seeing her. I would go home and go to the bus station the next week. When that happened, she would apologize with a smile, “I am sorry that I totally forgot about our appointment after getting off work.”

I did not complain and instead shared my understandings based on the Fa. In those years, she participated in a project of calling people and playing automated truth-clarification messages. Whenever her phone card or phone had problems, my daughter and I would help her. This way, she was able to do truth-clarification all year long. We worked together like this for about 7 or 8 years until she moved to a faraway city to live with her daughter.

My material production site has been running for more than a decade and it has become an important part of my cultivation practice. With help from Master’s Fa, and trust as well as assistance from other practitioners, I am able to operate the material production site stably. I took these activities seriously including downloading and printing files, uploading lists of people who quit the CCP, copying audio files for experience-sharing articles, printing truth-clarification letters, and writing envelopes to mail these letters.

More than 20 practitioners come to my home every week for audio files, including Minghui Weekly, experience-sharing conference (Fahui) articles, recollections of when Master had lecture seminars, stories of young practitioners, and many more. I’d help them upload those files onto their SD cards or other forms of media.

Many communities were locked down during the pandemic. I contacted practitioners and delivered materials to them at an agreed-upon location. Because bus service was stopped during the pandemic, I rode my bike and always arrived on time. Helping other practitioners is my responsibility.

Once there was freezing rain. A practitioner and I decided to meet at 7 p.m. for me to give her materials. The road was slippery and I had to ride my bike slowly. Suddenly the door of a parked truck opened and knocked me and my bike to the ground. My clothes were soaked with mud and water. The driver asked if I was okay. I said that I was fine and left. Later I realized that I should have clarified the facts to the driver. Nonetheless, I did not feel any pain and I was grateful to Master for the protection.

Several years ago, our coordinator asked me to deliver materials to a study group relatively far away from us. Practitioners in the group were elderly and they had no access to Master’s new articles. After I started to do this for a while, most practitioners stopped showing up because of illness karma or other reasons. One practitioner still came and she also suffered from illness karma. The more challenges she had, the more support I needed to provide. So I continued sending her materials every week and shared understandings with her to help her remain diligent. She lived in a sixth-floor apartment unit and it was not easy for her to go up and down the stairs. Nonetheless, she still went out to tell people about Falun Dafa almost every day. This continued for about 10 years until she moved to another city.

Keeping Dafa in Mind

As Dafa practitioners, we know that our path is arranged by Master and nothing is accidental. That means we have to walk the path well; otherwise the old forces could take advantage of our loopholes and even take practitioners’ lives.

My husband suffered from chest pain early last October. Before that, he had been feeling weak for a few months, but neither our daughter nor I paid much attention to it, thinking that a practitioner would not have illnesses. This time, his chest pain was a warning. We sent forth righteous thoughts for him and helped him check if there were any loopholes in cultivation. For several nights, my daughter and I hardly slept because we sent forth righteous thoughts whenever needed. But my husband still died in the end. I did not feel sorrow because I knew that his life was not over and that his journey would continue.

My husband started to practice Falun Dafa in 2003 when the persecution was the worst. Especially after I set up the material production site at home, he helped me a lot. He even made many wooden boxes with wheels underneath to help move equipment and consumables. My home was small but neat. He often rode his electric bike to purchase consumables and he also helped repair the equipment. We had replaced the printer several times over the years. Especially when producing Shen Yun DVDs in the past, he bought many boxes of CD cases, for both us and other practitioners. Every week he would deliver the heavy materials to several Fa study groups.

Before I focused my efforts on producing materials, I often went out to clarify the facts to people face to face. After I set up the material production site at home, my husband and other practitioners suggested that I no longer do face-to-face truth clarification for security and safety reasons. But I went out to clarify the truth from time to time. As a result, my husband did almost all of the household chores, including grocery shopping and cooking.

His death meant that I had to pick up what he used to do around the house.

I could feel the pressure, but I always kept Master’s words in mind, “Yet as a practitioner you will find the things that people take seriously to be very, very trivial—even too trivial—because your goal is extremely long-term and far-reaching. You will live as long as this universe.” (Chapter III, Falun Gong)

Yes, with Master and Dafa, we could do anything. My daughter and I had a plan. For heavy consumables, we asked a practitioner to help us make the purchase once every two weeks. Others things needed for material production would be bought by me and my daughter. I still went out to clarify the truth every week. My husband also left me a high-end bike, which became a reliable mode of transportation for me. Right now, my daughter and I live our lives as usual. I continue to go out to clarify the truth and then buy groceries.

Some practitioners asked me, “How come you still look the same even after your husband passed away?” I knew negative feelings or emotions could cause negative effects, which would be reflected in the truth-clarification materials we produce. Since I am the one who produces materials, my positive thoughts are critical.

My daughter still misses her father very much and often dreams of him. Seeing her becoming skinnier over time because of this, I urged her to study the Fa more and let go of her sentiment towards her father. I talked with her and analyzed the loopholes of her father so that we could learn the lessons and walk our paths well.

My daughter and I began to memorize Dafa's teachings every day, especially during the pandemic. At first, we took turns reciting from memory the Dafa teachings, and later on we could do so at the same time. We did this for six months and she improved a lot. “In the past, I did not know what genuine cultivation was. I know now,” she said. She also joined me in submitting her article to this 19th China Fahui.

Looking back at these 10-plus years, I know that Master has been looking after me along the way. To fully assimilate ourselves to the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, we need to have deep faith in Dafa and Master. By letting go of selfishness and pursuit of material interest, we will be able to fulfill our prehistorical vows and return to where we came from.

The cultivation journey continues, and I will keep doing well with my material production site and look forward to the new era when the Fa rectifies the human world.

Thank you, Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners!