(Minghui.org) When the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) Virus broke out in early 2020, people became panicked and felt helpless. In seeing people’s despair, I felt pained and thought, “How can I help?” The streets were empty and everything was locked down. My husband was also home because his company went remote. He supported me to cultivate but was afraid of the persecution. He was in charge of the security where he worked and knew the government’s persecution plan ahead of time. He always reminded me about safety and did not allow me to go out to talk to people about Falun Dafa.
I understood that, as a Dafa practitioner, I have the responsibility to assist Master Li (Falun Dafa’s founder) in the Fa rectification to save lives. I knew that I must deny the old forces’ arrangements. So I used all opportunities, such as when my husband was asleep or running errands, to download and print materials related to the pandemic and information about how Falun Dafa saves lives. In late evenings, after the security guards left their posts, I made excuses to go out and went building by building to distribute truth-clarification materials. I put up big posters in the hallways and smaller posters upstairs. I also distributed pamphlets for the residents. In my subdivision, I visited every floor of every building.
Joining Group Fa Study
During the lockdown, it was difficult to join group Fa study. Going to Fa study during the day was a little easier because one person per family was allowed to go out shopping with a permit every other day. However, after dark, the subdivisions did not allow non-residents to enter and did not give permits for residents to go out. All the entrances were blocked off with fences and guarded.
Master encourages group Fa study for Dafa practitioners. So I made up my mind to join a group. Before I went out, I sent righteous thoughts to make the guards unable to see me when exiting the subdivision. This way, I arrived at the group Fa study every time.
I once went to a fellow practitioner’s home for Fa study and had to cross a road to get there. The other side of the road was blocked with fences that were welded together, leaving no gaps to pass. One had to walk a long way to the end of the road to cross over. While I was wondering how to cross the road, a woman came by and told me she knew a way. We climbed over a partial wall, up a snowy slope by holding onto small pine trees for support, and came to the other side of the road.
When I arrived at the fellow practitioner’s subdivision entrance, I saw two people guarding the gate. The entrance was wide and part of it was not fenced, so I walked directly to that side and entered the subdivision. When I arrived at the practitioner’s home, he was amazed. He said that even a resident living in the same building could not re-enter the building without a permit and that some other practitioners could not come in. He said it was a miracle that I made it.
Helping People to Break Through the Internet Blockade
At the end of May 2020, I started distributing QR code cards. People can scan the QR card to break through the Internet blockade to access the information they would not be able to read otherwise. I produced these QR code cards from the Minghui website. Each day after I finished reading one lecture of Zhuan Falun, I went out to distribute the cards.
The lockdowns were lifted by then, and going in and out of subdivisions became a lot easier. After I entered a building, I posted a big poster first in the hallway and then went to the topmost floor. I distributed the cards, together with other materials, door to door going down each floor.
For safety sake, I picked an alternative entrance to go in if there were people gathered in front of the building. I liked to go out on rainy days because I could go in just about any entrance to distribute the materials.
I always brought the QR cards and small cards with Falun Dafa information with me. After I ran out of heavier materials, I kept distributing the QR cards and posted them everywhere I went, including shopping malls, buses, and scenic locations.
Setting Up a New Fa Study Group
A new practitioner in my building did not have a Fa-study group to go to. So she asked me if we could form a group and read the Fa together. I agreed.
She is older than me and very diligent and persistent in doing the three things every day. After the one-hour Falun Standing Stance music was published, she has been doing it every day. She had hypertension before and occasionally experienced karma-elimination symptoms. Her belief in Dafa was never moved by these tribulations. Sometimes her symptoms were so severe that she was barely able to breathe, so she just sat down to meditate. Her diligence inspired me to cultivate more diligently. I used to do the one-hour standing stance every other day but became less diligent over time, After we formed the new group in December 2019, I also started doing the one-hour exercise daily.
Passing Xinxing Tests
In the past, when passing tribulations, I often failed xinxing tests. This situation bothered me. Fellow practitioners had pointed out that I was attached to myself too much. I tried to correct myself, but I still often failed the tests when a tribulation came. Recently, while I was memorizing Zhuan Falun, Master’s teaching awakened me.
Master said,
“Accordingly, in your future cultivation you will run into all kinds of tribulations. How could you cultivate without these hardships? If everyone is good to one another without conflicts of interest or interference from the human mind, and if all you do is just sit there, how can your xinxing improve? That wouldn’t do. One must truly temper and improve oneself through actual practice” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
“Why do you encounter these problems? They are all caused by your own karma. We have already eliminated for you many, countless portions of it, leaving only that tiny bit that is divided into tribulations at different levels for improving your xinxing, tempering your mind, and removing your various attachments. These are all your own tribulations that we use to improve your xinxing, and you will be able to overcome them. As long as you improve your xinxing, you can overcome them.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
I suddenly realized that I must truly temper and improve myself through cultivation practice, and these tribulations were the opportunities for me to improve.
I had read and memorized Master’s teachings before. But when going through the tribulations, I felt trapped in them and did not pay attention to improving my xinxing. These tribulations then lasted for a long time and kept repeating.
For example, my mother-in-law often gave me expired or even spoiled food, or even some from her daughters’ homes; she said that I could eat them, and she felt I should appreciate her for giving me these foods. Considering her feelings, I accepted the food every time with a smile. However, I felt disturbed and unbalanced; I resented her and looked down on her for giving me expired food. I knew that there must be some karmic reasons since I cultivate. So each time I said to myself that I must pass the test well. But whenever I failed to, I felt terribly upset
I came to understand that cultivators in the past had to go wandering around in society to endure various tests. Dafa practitioners also cultivate among everyday people. So Master makes use of our karma and arranges opportunities for us to improve. However, I did not fully understand this and kept failing the opportunities. Compassionate Master did not give up on me and kept arranging new tests again and again for me to improve. Thank you Master, for your compassionate arrangements.
Upon seeing that I desired to improve, Master arranged another opportunity right away. My mother-in-law gave me some corn ballast that had expired in 2017. I did not feel disturbed this time; I thought that I would eat it if it was still edible and throw it away if not. The tribulation seemed trivial this time!
When I look back, life is like a show. Before, I was easily stuck with all kinds of attachments and failed to see the whole picture; I could not find the way back to my true home. Master shows us the way to return, however, and leads us out of the illusion. Thank you Master!
I know that I still have many attachments. In the final stage of the Fa-rectification, I will discard them and reach the standard for a Dafa practitioner and return home with Master.
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