(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1998. I have stumbled for more than 20 years to make it to where I am today. I was illegally detained twice for two years or less each time. However, nothing could shake my determination to remain steadfast in my practice and to follow Master home.
Overcoming Fear
In 2019, when I was distributing truth-clarification materials, I was reported to the authorities by someone who did not know the truth about Falun Dafa. Another practitioner and I were arrested and taken to a detention center.
I returned home a year and a half later.
I immediately joined a Fa study group, but my fear of being persecuted was so intense that it followed me like a shadow.
Prior to the arrest, I clarified the truth face-to-face to save people, but now I didn't dare to open my mouth. In fact, I was so afraid that even when I did go out to distribute materials, I disguised myself for fear of being recognized. I took several hats to change into and did everything with trepidation.
I read an experience-sharing article on the Minghui website. In it, the practitioner described how police who knew the truth protected Dafa practitioners from persecution. So I decided to send a truth-clarification letter to the officer who handled my case, in hope that he would no longer participate in the persecution and choose a better future for himself.
My intention was very pure; I was completely doing it for the policeman’s benefit. After studying the Fa that day, I sent out the letter. However, right after I sent it, my fear returned. A lot of negative thoughts arose, and I started to imagine that the officer would guess that it must be me who sent the letter. Moreover, he knew my address. What if I would be monitored and tracked? I went to group study every day at a fixed time. Isn’t this bringing an unsafe factor to other practitioners? The more I thought about it, the more fearful I became. I felt the danger would come very soon, so I cleaned up my place and hid the Dafa books. I could not sleep and instead got up to send righteous thoughts.
Only then did I think of using righteous thoughts to dissolve my fear. This fear was not me; I didn’t acknowledge it. I tried to save that officer, so I sent him the letter. So our relationship is one of saving and being saved, not persecuting and being persecuted. I’m a Dafa disciple who is walking on a divine path. I only follow the cultivation path arranged by Master. The old forces are not qualified to use any excuse to interfere with or test me. They cannot reach me. In addition to sending righteous thoughts four times a day, I added two more times. Due to my constantly sending righteous thoughts, my dimensional field became much cleaner.
I clarified the truth in a hospital to two people who looked like they were mother and daughter. The mother was lying on her daughter’s lap and watching her phone. I sat next to the daughter and started chatting with her. The daughter listened attentively, so I decided to talk a little more. I mentioned the staged “Tiananmen self-immolation”. I further talked about the Chinese Communist Party’s (CCP) previous violent political movements that persecuted good people. I finally brought up the persecution of Falun Dafa. Afterward, I helped her quit the youth organizations of the CCP.
I then noticed my picture appear on the mother’s phone. Because I was focused on clarifying the truth, I didn’t pay much attention to the mother. Only after I arrived home did I realize that she was recording me. My fear returned. I quickly went to Master’s portrait and asked Him to help resolve the ordeal. At the same time, I remembered that I am a Dafa disciple, and I have supernatural powers bestowed by Master. I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts, including one to delete the recording.
At that time, I felt my righteous thoughts were very strong. However, in retrospect, I realized this was another form of my acknowledging the persecution. If I could look at things from the perspective of the Fa, I should not acknowledge it at all: She cannot reach me and is not qualified to interfere in any form. It is not allowed to have sentient beings commit crimes against Dafa! I’m a Dafa disciple, so how could she interfere with me?
When I looked inward, I found that my dimensional field was still not clean, and there were substances of fear. It’s the old forces that tried to prevent me from saving people. I needed to not acknowledge the old forces, pull out the root cause of fear, and eradicate it completely, I took this experience as a step for my improvement. I should be positive, seek help from the divine, and strengthen my righteous faith.
By constantly studying the Fa, sending forth righteous thoughts, and getting rid of fear, my righteous thoughts became stronger and stronger. I can now clarify the truth face-to-face again, and I’m no longer afraid when distributing truth-clarification materials.
The Power of Righteous Thoughts
One of my back teeth suddenly started to hurt. I didn’t pay much attention to it at first. Then half of my head and both of my ears began to hurt. I could not eat or sleep. I had to dismantle this interference and not let it interfere with me. So I sent forth righteous thoughts a few times, and after a while, my teeth no longer hurt.
I use a small audio player when I do the exercises. Two buttons on the audio player were not working well. I then used righteous thoughts to communicate with them: “You are beings who came for the Fa. You accompany me in doing the exercises. You do a lot. You are very fortunate, and I wish you can accompany me until the fulfilling moment when I return to my true home. Now that you’re in an abnormal state, please use Dafa to correct it quickly. I also have room for improvement. Let’s correct ourselves with Dafa. Remember, ‘Falun Dafa is good, and Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!’” The next day, the audio player worked normally.
I also had a cell phone I used to remind me to send forth righteous thoughts and do the exercises every day. It fell on the ground and stopped making any sound, so I could only use vibration mode. Sometimes, I didn’t notice the notification in the middle of the night. I communicated with the phone several times: “It was all my fault. I accidentally broke you, and I apologize. I hope you will recover as soon as possible. I am reluctant to give up on you. Please use Dafa to correct yourself.” Now my phone can also be used normally again.
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