(Minghui.org) After the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) launched the “Zero-Out” Campaign against Falun Dafa practitioners, the 610 Office mailed me a set of documents to sign.
The documents aimed to represent a practitioner being transformed and giving up cultivation. They also requested I make a video of the signing process, claiming they would stop my low-income allowance if I refused.
My low-income allowance was the only financial support I had because the CCP forced my workplace to fire me many years ago.
Under enormous pressure, my younger-generation relatives wanted to fill out these forms in my name because they didn’t know doing that would be harmful to both themselves and me. But I refused to let them do this.
I was determined not to fill out and sign the forms. Unfortunately, I was interfered with by my attachment to personal gain; I was afraid of losing my only source of income.
I decided to write truth-clarification letters to the local residential office, Civil Affairs Bureau, and the town mayor. Out of the attachment of fear, I only signed my name and didn’t list my title as a Falun Dafa practitioner.
After I sent out the letters, I clearly saw a scene when I was doing the meditation that day: I was holding a leek in my hand. Most of the leek’s skin was peeled, with only the heart of it left.
I enlightened this was a hint from Master that I needed to let go of my attachment to fear: the fear of losing my benefits, going through hardships, losing my freedom, etc.
I cleansed those rotten substances with righteous thoughts, but I felt regretful that I had lost such a good opportunity to improve my xinxing.
Two months later, the director of the police station called and said he would come to visit me at my home.
I stayed unaffected and explained to him that the ban against publishing Falun Dafa books had been lifted by the National Press and Publication Administration on March 1, 2011, which indicated that practicing Dafa was legal.
I also persuaded him not to do evil things anymore, such as persecuting practitioners but to think of his and his family's future instead. He hung up before I could finish talking and ended up not visiting me.
I asked myself why I always feared so many things. When I looked inward, I found it was all because I didn’t study the Fa well.
When I looked inward further, I was shocked and found an ego (composed of molecules), which was based on enjoying the benefits in everyday life.
When I acknowledged it, this “false self” manipulated me more strongly. All the interference and setbacks I went through in my cultivation were derived from my attachment to that ego.
Because I was confined to the level of everyday people and failed to develop compassion and kindness, I didn’t have enough righteous thoughts and couldn’t save more people.
As a result, a lot of people with predestined relationships lost their chance to be saved! Being unable to let go of that ego is the fundamental reason why we linger at the level of everyday people and cannot assimilate to Dafa.
In this final stage of the Fa-rectification, we must study the Fa well, let go of all our attachments, reinforce our main consciousness, and measure everything with the standards of Dafa’s guiding principles (Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance).
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