(Minghui.org) Prior to my Falun Dafa cultivation practice, I often thought, “My Lord, how come you’re so unfair? I’ve been a kind person since childhood. Why has my life been so miserable?”
I lost my mother when I was nine years old. Then a year later, I lost my father. I also had an unfortunate marriage. Only two months after I married, I got into a fight with my husband. And I kept fighting with him for six years. During that time, I was subjected to the Chinese Communist Party’s (CCP) Cultural Revolution and suffered a great deal from it. In regard to my son, I also had to endure pain and hardship. I painstakingly raised him, and it took almost all the money I saved. Even so, he didn't listen to me. I had lost all hope in life at that point.
Then in 1997, I went with my neighbor to her relative’s home, where I saw a copy of Zhuan Falun on the table. After I flipped it open, I thought: “Wow! This book is truly amazing! The author is somebody important!” After I obtained a copy, I couldn’t put the book down and stayed up all night to read it. I was very excited; I suddenly understood the meaning of life, and why my fate was so miserable.
When I first obtained the Fa, I felt I could see hope in life, and this was all I was looking for. My severe anemia, neurosis, and all my other physical ailments went away. Being illness-free, I felt so light. I was so excited and always upbeat. I cultivated very diligently every day.
I often thought: “Cultivating Dafa is good for one’s health and elevating one’s moral values. Thus, it’s beneficial to society and the country. If each of us were to practice Falun Dafa, how wonderful that would be!”
“What Would I Be Afraid Of?”
Since I began cultivating, I always thought that I was very noble. This feeling was unlike the way ordinary people think highly of themselves, but rather it is something felt from deep down. Master had imparted the universal Dafa. He is omnipotent. And since I can cultivate the universal Dafa, I have my own power as well.
With this thought, when the persecution began, I had no fear. I also never took the evil doers seriously or as being powerful. With the deepening of my Fa-study, Master’s Fa principles made me clearly understand that I’m a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple, and I shoulder the responsibility of assisting Master in saving sentient beings. I am envied by countless gods in the universe. The title of being a practitioner is so remarkable and fortunate! I felt extremely proud.
I told my son, “My Master is most righteous. I cultivate the most righteous universal Dafa. The path I’m walking on is also the most righteous. I want to be an upright practitioner. What would I be afraid of?”
I deeply felt that amidst tribulations and trials, if we can treat ourselves as practitioners, truly have faith in Master and Dafa and strengthen our righteous thoughts, then we will become very powerful, whereas the evil will be at a much lower position.
My Heart Remains Unmoved Upon Encountering Police Officers
A new university graduate was once hired as a police officer. He came to my home one day to find me. I talked to him very peacefully. I took out a stool for him to sit on. Both of us sat in front of the entrance, and I clarified the truth to him for nearly two hours.
I said, “You just started working, right? Nowadays many police officers who learned the truth stopped getting involved in Falun Dafa matters. Participating in the persecution of Dafa brings you no benefits; it can even negatively impact your life and family.” I told him how righteous Falun Dafa is and how practitioners benefited from it.
“If each one of us were to follow Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance to be a good person, then society would become stable, which would make your life easier. When each of us benefits, wouldn’t it be a great thing? Think about it, is there anything wrong with following Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance to pursue being kind? Isn’t the persecution completely ridiculous?”
I asked him to consider, “Why were you given this task? It’s only because the senior police officers and others who know the truth hardly take care of this anymore.”
This young officer attentively listened to my clarifying the facts to him. In the end, he was clear and said, “My dad found this job through his connections. If that’s the case, then I’ll talk to him about finding me something else.”
I once went with Ms. Lu to clarify the facts in public, and I was reported by people who didn’t know the truth. So when we were about to finish handing out our truth-clarification materials, a police car arrived. When the police officers came, one of them said to me, “Auntie, can you please come with us?” I wasn’t afraid and replied, “Are you still taking care of this? It’s not good for you.”
At that time, I had just finished telling an elderly man the facts about Dafa. After he accepted the materials, he was called into the police vehicle. I said, “It was me who gave him those materials, please let him go.” But he was terrified by the CCP and was afraid to leave. I thought if I went to the police station, I could clarify the facts to them. So Ms. Lu and I got into their vehicle.
When we arrived, Ms. Lu and I were in the same room. She kept sending forth righteous thoughts, and I took the opportunity to clarify the truth about Dafa to whomever came in. While I was doing so, I felt a constant flow of wisdom and empowerment from Master. After the police officer finished writing the report for that elderly man, he let us go. I said to this young police officer, “Young man, you are great! Keep up the good work!” He replied, “Auntie, please be a bit more careful.” Ms. Lu and I went home safe and sound under Master’s protection.
Not Being Selective About Handing out Materials
In the process of handing out truth-clarification materials, I wasn’t selective and gave them to whomever I ran into. How high their positions were did not matter, I treated everyone the same. Regardless of what I encountered, I wasn’t moved. I didn’t think about anything else, only saving people.
I ran into a plainclothes police officer. He asked me, “Do you know what I do for a living?” I replied, “What do you do? I want to give you the truth. There’s nothing wrong with you knowing about that. If you’d like to take it, then please do; otherwise, I won’t force you.”
Another time, when crossing a bridge, I ran into a man. I walked up to him to greet him, “Hello sir! For us to meet each other was predestined. I’d like to give you a DVD to watch.” He asked, “Do you know what I do for a living?” I said, “It doesn’t matter what you do, this is only good for you. First of all, it helps you to understand the truth and obtain good fortune; secondly, it helps protect you. What’s wrong with that?” After he heard this, he smiled and said, “Have a look!” Then he took out handcuffs from his bag.
I wasn’t scared and replied, “That should be used for bad people, but I’m a good person!”
He then said, “Auntie, you have to be careful!”
“Thank you! I understand that you are a good person. You have to watch this DVD; it’s good for you.” I replied.
Some Who Learned the Truth Helped Spread the Word
An elderly man close to 80 years old has been in touch with practitioners for years. He persistently read our truth-clarification materials, then passed the truth on to people around him. Because he understands the truth thoroughly, he has been blessed by Dafa. As a result, he is very spirited and has a rosy complexion. He once exclaimed, “Since I’ve been in touch with you, I’ve been blessed and never been ill!”
Another person who learned the truth said, “Please pay attention to your safety. If it was not for you, we wouldn’t have been exposed to true information. Where else could we go to learn the truth?!” There was expectation and hope in his eyes, and he conveyed the trust that all beings have in practitioners. They truly cherish our truth-clarification materials!
There were also people who woke up to the truth, “What kind of society is this? What kind of regime is this? It turns good into evil and is full of lies. If it was not for Falun Dafa practitioners telling us the truth, we would still be deceived by it!”
There was an elderly man who was arranged to monitor practitioners at the forced labor camp. He personally knew the practitioners and understood the truth. Every time he received any truth-clarification materials, he’d share it with dozens of elderly people. They all sat in a room, watching DVDs or listening to podcasts together. One time, he asked me, “There is someone who wants an MP3 player loaded with Dafa information, can you give him one?” I said, “You are doing good deeds and accumulating virtue for what you do, I’ll for sure give you one.” It’s amazing how people who learned the truth have become live media for spreading the word!
Conclusions About My Cultivation State
During the past 20 years of cultivation, even though I have been doing the three things for a very long time, I couldn’t rekindle the feeling I had when I first started to cultivate. I haven’t managed to eliminate all kinds of attachments and strong human notions. For example, with my getting older, I developed the notion of “being old” without noticing it. I thought I was old and didn’t have the energy and strength I used to have. This unrighteous notion resulted in abnormal physical states appearing. Sometimes I felt my lower back hurt, I felt I had trouble lifting things, or I felt I had difficulty walking.
Because I couldn’t let go of my sentimentality, I often failed to maintain my xinxing with my children. Because I was engaged in propaganda work for the CCP when I was young, I still have poisoning from the Party culture instilled in me. In addition, I have a strong sense of contention.
Through intensively studying the Fa and looking inward, I enlightened that these attachments and notions must be quickly rectified and eliminated by solidly cultivating. Before this realization, I paid more attention to doing things and my Fa-study was lacking. I now put more emphasis on Fa-study. I can calm down when reading and am given hints from the Fa’s principles.
Protected by benevolent Master, I’ve come this far. I know that I’m still far from His requirements and the requirements of the Fa. Only by cultivating myself solidly and doing the three things well can I keep up with the Fa-rectification process. I will strive to fulfill my prehistoric vow, accomplish my mission, and return home with Master.
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