(Minghui.org) A Falun Dafa practitioner invited me to attend the Asian Falun Dafa Conference in Tokyo in 2014 to find out more about Falun Dafa. This was important to my stepping onto the path of Dafa cultivation. I was no longer an ordinary person lost in this chaotic world; I became a Dafa practitioner. I stumbled along the path of cultivation, but made it through to this day with the protection of Master Li, the founder of Falun Dafa.
Making Calls on the RTC Platform
In 2020, the pandemic broke out and spread rapidly around the world. Death cases skyrocketed. Many people in China panicked and felt helpless. I knew I had the mission to save people and I felt the urgency. I wanted to call people in China and clarify the truth about Dafa. So, I decided to participate on the RTC platform to call people in China.
The process of calling people was also a process of cultivating my character and improving my xinxing. I talked to all kinds of people. Some cursed me. Some looked down on me, and some threatened me. Others were very kind, and some repeatedly thanked me. I am happy for these people.
I knew that every situation was a test to see if my heart was moved or not. I understood that I should remain compassionate and try my best to awaken people’s conscience, regardless of their attitudes.
Sometimes I became impatient and wanted to give up when nobody answered my call or when people kept hanging up on me. When one woman started cursing after I greeted her, I looked inward and realized I had an attachment to competition and was not compassionate enough. I was not moved and gradually eliminated my attachments.
Improving Through Memorizing the Fa
I read many articles on the Minghui website about memorizing the Fa. Many practitioners talked about how they deepened their understanding of the Fa principles and benefited physically and mentally by memorizing the Fa. Therefore, I decided to memorize the Fa.
I tried to memorize the Fa on my own, but gave up after some time. Then, I started to memorize with practitioners on the RTC platform. We all read calmly and slowly, and after reading a paragraph, we memorized it.
My cultivation had stagnated for a long time. I was stuck and could not make a breakthrough. I realized that I didn’t fully understand the Fa. When I seriously memorized the Fa, I felt that every cell in my body was connected to the Fa, and I experienced the beauty of dissolving my body and mind into the Fa. I made up my mind that I would engrave the Fa in my mind and always measure my thoughts and behavior with the Fa.
Through memorizing the Fa, I deepened my understanding of the Fa principles and strengthened my faith in Master and the Fa. The more I memorized, the more I wanted to memorize, and the more I loved to memorize the Fa. When I was doing housework, on my way to and from work, and whenever I had free time, I memorized the Fa. I gradually felt peaceful and calm. My righteous thoughts were strengthened, and I became openminded. I was able to look inward when things went wrong.
A recent incident touched me deeply. A family member started to participate in the RTC project. He had technical problems, so I asked a technical support practitioner for help. However, the practitioner was very impatient. I immediately apologized to him and said, “I’m sorry, maybe I didn’t express myself clearly.” But he was still angry and told me to find someone else to help.
Why was he so angry? I knew that nothing was accidental. There must be an attachment that I had to identify and let go. I looked inward and found that I did not respect other practitioners and looked down on them. I remembered once when I was dissatisfied with a practitioner when he adjusted my computer’s sound. So this time, I didn’t believe the technical support practitioner could solve the issue. I realized that this was my notion and I must eliminate it.
The next day, I saw a message from that practitioner. He said, “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have talked to you so loudly yesterday. I apologize.” I apologized to him, too. I realized that my environment changed when I looked inward and changed myself.
While studying with the group on the RTC platform, when we got to the paragraph about improving xinxing. I had to repeat it many times before I could memorize it. I knew it was time to improve my xinxing.
Master said,
“Their reason would be that your character has not grown sufficiently. There is a standard for each level of existence, and you must meet it—by ridding yourself of bad thoughts and intentions and whatever is unclean in you—if you are to go there.” (The First Talk, Zhuan Falun)
Master’s Fa is clear and easy to understand. So why couldn’t I treat myself as a true practitioner? Why couldn’t I do well? It is because I didn’t wholly believe in Master and the Fa and didn’t cultivate myself solidly. I didn’t look within unconditionally when encountering conflicts. I didn’t eliminate my attachments, such as jealousy, resentment, competition, showing off and lust.
I realized that all difficulties I encountered were opportunities to improve myself. Therefore, my behavior, my words and my thoughts must follow the Fa. That’s the only way to improve my realm.
Thank you, Master, for giving me such an excellent environment to study the Fa on the RTC platform. I cherish the environment to cultivate and study with fellow practitioners.
The Family Environment Offers Cultivation Opportunities
My husband’s aunt used to practice Falun Dafa. While she was imprisoned for three years for practicing Falun Dafa, she couldn’t study the Fa. When she was released from prison she didn’t behave like a practitioner. My mother-in-law and husband misunderstood Dafa because of her inappropriate behavior.
My husband was against my cultivation from the beginning. He was even against my taking the children to see Shen Yun. I tried to tell him the truth about Dafa, but he always began shouting and would not let me speak. I knew that I could only eliminate my husband’s misunderstandings about Falun Dafa when I did well in my cultivation and let him witness the beauty of Dafa.
My husband is not involved with the family; instead he plays with his phone after work. I also have a full-time job. After working all day, I do the housework in addition to taking care of the children. I felt I didn’t have enough time to do the three things well.
I felt tired when my cultivation state was bad. I gradually became resentful and avoided talking to my husband.
Once, my husband yelled at me because I forgot to do a certain thing for him. Although I put up with it at that time, I was angry and felt aggrieved.
Master requested us to think of others first. Did I meet Master’s requirement? I looked within. I felt it unfair when my husband did nothing at home. I felt he did not fulfill his responsibility as a father. I was resentful, and my attitude towards him was negative. No wonder he didn’t appreciate it no matter how much I did. I realized that I was trying to change him. I realized that my thoughts were selfish.
I felt ashamed when I saw that I was so far from the realm that practitioners need to reach. I started to think from the point of view of my husband. He had a busy job, so he didn’t want to do anything else after a tiring day. As his wife, I should understand him. As a practitioner, I should treat him well unconditionally and let him feel the warmth of family.
I decided to remove my notions and attachments altogether. So I spent more time sending righteous thoughts. Gradually my heart opened up, and the pent-up resentment in my heart was gone. I realized that in the family environment, I had to cultivate myself, look at the good side of my family members, and be compassionate.
Fulfilling Our Vow
We waited hundreds of millions of years and suffered countless hardships in our many reincarnations. Today we are fortunate enough to become Dafa practitioners. I cherish this opportunity and I am glad that I found the way home. I am grateful for Master’s compassion and suffering.
In the limited time left, I will study the Fa well, let go of my human notions, and genuinely regard myself as a practitioner. I will look inward unconditionally when things go wrong. I will save more people, fulfill my vow, and return to my true home with Master.
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