(Minghui.org) When Master’s new lecture “How Humankind Came To Be” was first published on Minghui.org I was shocked that it was addressed to mankind and my heart was filled with joy. I read the lecture with other practitioners and we exchanged understandings. 

Finding My Attachments

But when I learned that Master’s new lecture would be available to the public, I thought, “This is not possible! How can this be?” I calmed down and asked myself why I had these thoughts. I told myself that it was time to look inward. There were several reasons why I did not wish for this article to be made known to the public: Would people who do not practice understand Master’s lectures? What would they think of Falun Dafa and practitioners? My initial reaction was that I only wanted practitioners to read Master’s lectures. 

My attachments to comfort and selfishness surfaced. I felt that practitioners were superior and thus I did not want Master’s lectures to be made known to the public. I felt that a non-practitioner was unable to comprehend this extraordinary message. My concerns were slowly relinquished after I began to identify my attachments. 

Eliminating My Attachment to Fear and Anger and Experiencing the Wonders of Looking Inward

Many tribulations and tests occurred in both my ordinary work and Dafa projects during this time. Through these, Master several times gave me hints to look inward, let go of my attachments, and make a breakthrough in my cultivation. I knew I needed to face my attachment to fear, an attachment that I’d avoided facing for a long time.

Master said, 

“If a cultivator can let go of the thought of life and death under any circumstance, evil is sure to be afraid of him. If every student is able to do that, the evil will of itself no longer exist. All of you are aware of the principle of mutual-generation and mutual-inhibition. If you have no fear, the factor that would make you afraid will cease to exist.” (“Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s),” The Essentials of Diligent Progress II)

I felt a surge like an electric current, or an earthquake, whenever my attachment to fear surfaced. Fear twisted and turned in my heart and abdomen, and then filled my mind. I was powerless to resist it and knew that it was time to completely eliminate it. I decided to eliminate this negative thing that was trying to control me and prevented me from doing the three things. 

I started to send righteous thoughts but this substance appeared to be a huge mass like a ball, stuck in my throat and heart. I was unable to disintegrate it and experienced excruciating pain while sending righteous thoughts. I felt as if my heart was about to be ripped out. I was determined to eliminate this substance but felt like I did not have enough strength to do it. At the same time, I saw another layer of substance enveloping the attachment of fear. It was anger. 

I was struck by another electric current as soon as I found my second attachment. It felt like a substance wanting to yell out from my throat. It was like a pack of wolves devouring everything around them, or like an uncontrollable fire. It was an evil force trying to hinder me on the path of cultivation. I began sending righteous thoughts directed at my anger. I saw some octopus-looking-like objects slowly backing up. I finally understood how to eliminate these attachments.

I came to understand that in order to eliminate the attachment of fear, I needed to first eliminate anger. I became more determined to send righteous thoughts. 

Thinking back to when I first started cultivation, I saw myself throwing petroleum bombs at the negative forces. I was like a courageous knight. However, I still lacked a heart of compassion since I was a fairly new practitioner. 

Looking Further Inward and Assimilating to Dafa

Master enlightened me another time when I had a toothache. The dentist said that my wisdom tooth and the gums around it were infected. The doctor said it was seriously infected, but it did not feel as painful as it should have. I started to reflect on myself when I got home. I knew that nothing was coincidental and as cultivators we need to treat everything seriously. Just like how the dentist spent a long time treating the roots of my infected wisdom tooth, I needed to do the same in finding the root cause of my attachments. 

Master said, 

“I have long noticed that a few individuals do not have the heart to safeguard Dafa, but instead intend to safeguard certain things in human society. If you were an everyday person I would have no objections—it is certainly a good thing to be a good person who safeguards human society. But now you are a cultivator. From what standpoint you view Dafa is fundamental—this is also what I want to point out to you. During your cultivation practice, I will use every means to expose all of your attachments and dig them out at their roots.” (“Digging Out the Roots,” Essentials for Further Advancement)

Master enlightened me and I knew I still had time to rectify myself. I am fortunate to be a Falun Dafa practitioner and Master is personally leading us in cultivation. I do not want to continue being deluded in the big dye vat of society. I want to fulfill my historic mission and the reason I came to this world. 

Time is of the essence and I do not wish to indulge in comfort and ease. I should cultivate diligently because time is tight. I must not waste any more time. 

Master enlightened me many times about what I should be doing over the past few weeks. However, it took a long time for me to wake up. Master did not give up on me and kept enlightening me until I was able to dig out the roots of my attachments. 

I would like to end with a poem from Hong Yin.

Master said, 

“Falun Dafa

Gong cultivation has a way, the heart is the pathDafa has no bounds, hardship serves as the ferry”(Hong Yin)

This poem strengthens my righteous thoughts. I am able to experience the magnificence of Dafa. Reciting this poem pushes me forward on the path of cultivation with a calm heart. Thank you, Master for your boundless compassion! Despite my many shortcomings, Master kept enlightening me. I want to be worthy of the title Falun Dafa practitioner. I finally understood some principles of Dafa and I will cultivate with a heart of determination. 

Thank you, Master! Falun Dafa is good!

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