(Minghui.org) I recently had some friction with my mother when we worked together to produce Falun Dafa fliers. I noticed she didn’t fold the fliers properly and the edges were not even. I started to “supervise” her and check her work. My mother got annoyed and said, “If you don’t trust my work, then why don’t you do it?”
I thought I was being responsible and doing the right thing, but my mother did not understand, thus I felt wronged.
In reality, I was the one who was wrong, as my attachment to jealousy was provoked. I didn’t realize it initially, then Master’s (Falun Dafa’s founder) words came to mind. I was like Shen Gongbao, and my mother was like Jiang Ziya.
My mother is in her 60s and looks young, but I saw her as an old lady and thought she was slow and unorganized. I felt I was very capable and knowledgeable; thus, I looked down on her. (In fact, my capabilities and wisdom were given by Master and Dafa.)
I used to think that being envious of those who were more capable than I was a sign of jealousy. I eventually recognized that being picky, pointing fingers at, and correcting my mother were also manifestations of jealousy.
I made the same mistake again during group Fa study by pointing out that she read the Fa with the wrong intonation. I was conceited and thought I was telling her this for her own good. My mother replied, “You read it then.” She got up and went to another room.
My mother began to practice prior to the persecution, and has cultivated better than I have. Despite the persecution, she hasn’t stopped practicing or given up her faith in Master and Dafa. She’s been making Dafa informational materials at home all these years, whereas I started to practice two years ago. Because I had the Chinese Communist Party culture mindset, I often focused on my mother’s shortcomings and didn’t use the standard of the Fa to examine my behavior. I’m far behind my mother when it comes to cultivation.
I am grateful that Master pointed out my attachment to jealousy amid the frictions with my mother. This helped me improve. I’m sorry for hurting my mother with my unkind words and unjust treatment.
As a practitioner, returning to one’s true nature is the goal of cultivation; therefore, I must get rid of jealousy.
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