(Minghui.org) The CCP (Chinese Communist Party) recently started to block the Internet again, making it difficult to go online. I couldn’t access the Internet for two weeks, and my weekly magazines and newsletters had to be delivered by another practitioner, Mei, so that I could prepare materials for other practitioners.
Why was Mei able to access the Internet, but not me? I increased the length of time I read the Fa (teachings) and deeply reflected inward. I found I was competitive, resentful, and complacent—I especially wanted to be acknowledged. After I submitted articles, I always checked online to see if they were published. I realized long ago that this desire for recognition is a bad attachment and should be eliminated. But it was hard to completely remove, especially recently when it was particularly strong.
As soon as I went online, I searched to see if my articles were published. How strong my attachment to fame was! I sent strong righteous thoughts: Completely eliminate this, I don’t want it!
After three weeks I was able to access the Internet. When other practitioners asked for my help to download some files, I was able to help them. The New Year's greetings to Master and my submissions were also sent successfully.
On the morning of December 30th last year, I received a notice from a practitioner: The coordinator of a large group project asked me to write a New Year’s greeting to Master on their behalf. They couldn’t send it due to the poor Internet connection. I complained about the coordinator for not contacting me earlier. It was almost New Year’s Day, and it was difficult to access the Internet.
What if it was delayed? I was very anxious and quickly wrote the greeting. I tried to go online to send it, but I couldn’t access the Internet.
Before I began practicing Falun Dafa, I wasn’t very smart or capable. After I began practicing, Master continually opened my wisdom. This time, my old habit of being slow and complaining resurfaced. Was it really their fault? Weren’t they in a difficult situation, which is why they asked for my help? Due to my slow response and complaints, I unintentionally provided an opportunity for the evil forces in other dimensions, which clearly saw my shortcomings. This was the real reason I couldn’t access the Internet, but I didn’t realize it at the time.
My sister-in-law came over after breakfast, and helped me prepare the 100 newly arrived truth-clarification leaflets to distribute to people. While we worked, I repeatedly tried to access the Internet, but couldn’t. After we assembled the leaflets, I still couldn’t go online, and the greeting wasn’t sent.
It was crucial to send this New Year’s greetings from the practitioners in the large group project. Why? This group includes several material sites, and is a major force in helping Master save sentient beings in our area. They were involved in various activities like producing materials, printing truth-clarifying messages on currency, printing and making Minghui calendars at the end of each year, and speaking face-to-face with people. Our main coordinating practitioner was also part of this group. It was important to convey their respect and gratitude to Master through the New Year’s greeting. I decided to go to Mei’s house and use her computer.
It started snowing heavily, but I made it to Mei’s house. She said, “It’s snowing so hard, why did you come?” I said, “I can’t access the Internet. I need to use your computer to send the practitioners’ New Year’s greeting to Master.” Then I inadvertently complained again, and said, “He (the coordinator) should have asked me to send it earlier, because New Year's day is the day after tomorrow.” Mei reminded me to not complain or be resentful. I realized I was wrong and admitted my mistake.
Mei turned on her computer, and immediately accessed the Internet. When I clicked on the “Inbox,” the signal was lost. I repeatedly tried. When everything was ready and I was about to click “Send” the connection dropped.
Mei reminded me not to be anxious. I tried to control myself, but I still couldn’t access the Internet. It was time to prepare dinner, so I suggested Mei cook instead of staying with me.
I continued trying to access the Internet, and decided to recite On Dafa. After reciting it once, I finally got online, but then lost the “server” connection midway. I recited On Dafa again and finally managed to send the greeting. I also downloaded the week’s Minghui Weekly.
Despite the ongoing snow, I made my way back home. Dinner was late, but my family didn’t complain and helped me cook.
When it was time to send righteous thoughts that night, I was very calm and focused and felt enveloped in a warm energy. When I meditated the next morning I felt calm and very comfortable. The feeling was wonderful.
Mei’s cultivation is very good. She focuses on cultivating her heart, always unconditionally looks inward during conflicts, and views tribulations as opportunities to improve. She is always cheerful when facing those who harm her, and is grateful for the opportunity to cultivate and eliminate attachments. Because Mei emphasizes cultivating herself, her dimensional field is pure, and the evil dares not disturb her, which is why her Internet access is always smooth.
My sister-in-law said she’s inspired by Mei, and is motivated to do the three things practitioners should do.
I suddenly woke up one night and through my celestial eye, I vividly saw two graceful fairies floating in front of me. They were extremely beautiful. I knew that Master was encouraging me to be more diligent.
Thank you Master! Thank you fellow practitioners!
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