(Minghui.org) First and foremost, I want to express my deep gratitude for this opportunity to share a part of my journey with all of you. Reflecting on nearly 20 years of self-improvement, I feel that some of the lessons I’ve gathered might contribute to the growth of our collective path. My hope is that these insights enrich our community and inspire us to continue advancing.
Cultivation Is Not Just About Doing Things
Participating in projects and activities that aim to clarify the truth and validate Dafa is undoubtedly important, but it doesn’t guarantee true cultivation. Studying the Fa and practicing the exercises form the foundation of cultivation and are essential for our growth, but even these do not ensure genuine cultivation. Through my journey, I’ve realized that the essence lies in cultivating the heart—being willing to align with Dafa’s principles and fulfilling its requirements. It comes down to our sincerity in wanting to learn, our readiness to look within, and our determination to endure to become divine, all while striving to help others accept Dafa so that they too have the chance to be saved.
In recent months, I’ve reached profound states of cultivation, experiencing subtle perceptions of my divine bodies in other dimensions. I believe this is because I’ve placed Dafa above all else in my heart.
I have had many sincere conversations with the Master (in my heart), much like a son speaking to his father—seeking wisdom to disintegrate resentment, bitterness, fears, and doubts that arise during cultivation. I’ve also extended my righteous thoughts sessions to 30 minutes whenever possible, and the effect has been remarkable, with many aspects of my dimensions being purified.
Gradually, my heart to overcome difficulties with lightness and contentment has emerged, making life easier. Most importantly, with this transformation of my heart, studying the Fa, practicing the exercises, and participating in projects are no longer mechanical—instead, they are truly productive and enriching. This has encouraged me to cultivate more diligently.
I still make mistakes, and negative thoughts still arise. Fatigue, exhaustion, sadness, and other emotions still manifest, but I have come to internalize that this is part of cultivation in Falun Dafa, where the cultivated part is removed, and we are left with what still needs to be rectified.
My attitude towards cultivation is shifting from resentment to gratitude. I realized that without a genuine heart to want to learn and assimilate to Dafa, we are like academics debating theories, without truly experiencing the power of Dafa. Thus, no matter how much work I have done to validate Dafa or expose the persecution, without the sincere desire to become a genuine cultivator, the power of Dafa will not manifest in my life.
Resentment Is a Poison
Much of what blocked me and allowed evil to take advantage of me was resentment and bitterness. After decades of working in projects and interactions with other practitioners, these feelings intensified to the point where I began to doubt Master and Dafa.
A negative substance began to accumulate in my body, especially in my digestive system and abdomen, which worsened these negative feelings and deteriorated my physical health, almost costing me my life. This process began in 2015, became intense in 2018, and it started improving in 2020. Currently, almost all of it has been disintegrated, but there is still a bit of this mechanism left.
Recently, Master published articles that address topics such as resentment, bitterness, injustice, persecution, and the meaning of human life. I believe our Master has been explicit about why we are here and the reasons why we face tribulations and challenges. To me, it became clear that everything is related to the amount of karma and virtue that each being possesses, as well as the beings of their own cosmos, since some cosmos have sinned more than others in my understanding. However, some cultivators still haven’t been enlightened on how to solve these problems based on Dafa and are following the arrangements of the old forces.
These practitioners show their support by backing influencers on social media or in mainstream media who attack other practitioners and Dafa. Yet, my heart remained unmoved, and I sincerely “prayed” for these individuals by sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil manipulating them. I’m also striving to understand why we, as one body, are experiencing this, knowing that nothing happens by chance in cultivation.
In my current understanding, most of these issues began when practitioners, like myself, got involved in projects or activities aimed at clarifying the truth and validating Dafa. They saw individuals in key positions making serious mistakes, and some tried to alert practitioners in leadership roles, but no action was taken. As a result, they chose to expose these issues publicly on social media. I believe that, in the minds of these former cultivators, their actions were intended to protect Dafa. However, these deeds are fundamentally wrong and have only deepened resentment, bitterness, and a sense of injustice. The old forces exploited these practitioners to attack Master and Dafa, which is profoundly wicked and sinful, leading them down a deviant path.
I bring up this topic to emphasize that many aspects of cultivation don’t make sense when viewed through a human mindset. We have all experienced some form of injustice, humiliation, betrayal, or other interference—sometimes from those we admire and trust the most. It took me a long time to accept this, and it caused me a great deal of pain, as I was confronting these situations with a human heart and all kinds of emotions.
When someone relies on various crutches to sustain their cultivation instead of committing wholeheartedly to live by Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance unconditionally, they risk following a dangerous path when confronting fundamental attachments. This can cause them to accumulate the poison of resentment and eventually abandon cultivation, leading to potential self-destruction. Unfortunately, we’ve already seen examples of this around the world.
Master always provides us with time, and guidance, and points us in the right direction, as he did with his recent article. However, when our attachments outweigh our desire to cultivate and become divine, it becomes easy to be manipulated and stray from Dafa’s golden path, falling onto a demonic path. In my cultivation, resentment was my greatest obstacle, nearly pulling me away from the sacred path.
Master’s Guidance
What freed me from this predicament? Besides constant study, practice, and validation of Dafa, I sought a heart of forgiveness for others and myself. I was sincere in expressing my doubts, asking for divine help, and seeking the truth instead of my notions. I realized that my understanding of life and the universe is limited, that my wisdom can only see part of the truth, and that I am here solely because of the Master's merciful salvation. With this humility, faith in the path, and perseverance, I kept looking inward and, painfully, removing this poison until I was able to enlighten myself on how to deal with these issues that manifest in the community of cultivators and in my cultivation. After all, everything that manifests in cultivation is something good!
Master also came to my rescue! From 2015 to 2018, Master’s law body manifested three times through sound; that is, I did not see it, but I heard it. The first time, I was determined to stop cultivating, outraged by the behavior of other practitioners. I spent the night complaining to my wife and went to sleep exhausted. Soon, I had a nightmare in which I was in an ocean of karma. Suddenly, a force pulled me to the bottom of the sea, and I began to drown in that black liquid. When I was about to die, I woke up. As soon as I opened my eyes, the law body said to me, “Being good or being bad is just an option. No matter how others treat you, you must always choose between being good or being bad.” After hearing this, I saw with my third eye a Chinese practitioner being beaten, yet she maintained a heart of compassion for her aggressor. This experience brought me back to cultivation, and I thanked Master for teaching me compassion.
The second time, I was questioning why Master allowed some people to make so many mistakes. Once again, Master’s law body manifested and said, “I only look at people's hearts.” I then understood that cultivation is about cultivating one’s own heart, not blaming others. It is about looking within and not at others.
The third time, I was working on a large-scale project. In this project, I was successful in growing revenue and implementing technical advancements, but the coordinator frequently insulted me and was very cruel. This went on for eight months, leading me to mental exhaustion, and I ended up in the hospital for a few hours. After recovering, I went home and decided to meditate, and soon I saw through my third eye fire, lightning, and giant waves hitting my body in another dimension. At that moment, the law body said to me, “You must pay for your karma.” Thus, I understood that the situation in the project was arranged for me to pay a large portion of my karma.
I had a very vivid “dream” in which I was in a building whose floors were constantly changing configuration, representing the impermanence of the human world. As I exited the elevator on a random floor, I saw a path of golden, resplendent bricks, and a practitioner was walking on it very solemnly. At that moment, Master said to me in the dream, “There is a golden path for each disciple.”
It has become clear to me that Master is always with us, but only a heart committed to genuine cultivation can keep us on the true path. In the process of cultivation, we must remove all the crutches that sustain us in the practice and keep only the heart devoted to becoming one with Dafa.
Doing Small Things Well
As my heart transformed, embracing hardship as joy, I let go of the attachment to “doing things”—especially the need to participate in large-scale projects as if they were proof of my genuine cultivation. I now see myself as just a small particle within the greater body of practitioners, willing to serve others regardless of the scale—big or small.
Listening to many experiences shared on Minghui Radio, I gained new respect for the resilience of mainland Chinese practitioners who reach people one by one, day after day. Previously, I thought this individual approach seemed too slow, but now I see the incredible strength of touching hearts with a pure, steady intention to help.
Not long ago, I made a simple calculation: if each of us clarified the truth to just one person a day, with one million practitioners worldwide, we could reach 365 million people in a year. In five years, over 1.82 billion people would have the opportunity to be saved. This realization renewed my understanding of our collective power—that as one body, we can reach vast numbers if each of us takes steady steps forward, no matter how small they may seem.
While large projects that spread the truth widely are undeniably important—and I continue to contribute to them—I now realize that what matters most is a committed, diligent heart that helps others every single day, without pause. This mindset allows me to stay flexible, let go of the need to show off and focus on small details while maintaining a balanced life and interacting harmoniously with others. I now feel I can be as tall as a mountain or as tiny as a cell—both equally powerful.
Only recently have I truly realized how blessed we are to be Dafa disciples. Thank you, Master!
These are my experiences. Please point out any shortcomings in my understanding.
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Category: Cultivation Insights
