(Minghui.org) I started to read an online novel on my mobile phone unintentionally about a month ago. The more I read, the more I wanted to read it. I knew that I should stop reading, but I had lost control. I finished reading the whole novel in one week. After that, I told myself not to read novels any longer, and I really regretted reading it.
Nonetheless, I unwittingly started to watch short drama videos on my mobile phone. The more I watched them, the more I loved watching them. I watched them whenever I had time, and I gradually became addicted to them and would watch until late into the night. I knew that I needed to stop, but after getting home from work I would just pick up my mobile phone after dinner, and even told myself that I would just watch for a short time. In the end, more than two hours often passed.
I felt regret after doing it, and I told myself to stop watching them and deleted the video application on my phone. But I reinstalled it the next day. I watched the videos again, deleted the app again, and then watched again. Like smoking opium, I had become addicted. I no longer practiced the exercises and memorized the Fa. I also stopped listening to cultivation experience sharing articles and stopped going to fellow practitioners’ homes. Apart from going to work, I spent the rest of my time watching short drama videos. In my heart, I knew that this could not go on.
This continued for almost a month. One night, I was sleeping when my right arm felt icy cold late into the night. I did not think too much about it and continued sleeping. When I woke up the next morning, I could not straighten my arm. Moving it a little caused me pain, and I could not touch anything with my hand.
This sudden happening caught me by surprise. When I finally calmed down, I knew that it must be trouble caused by watching videos on my mobile phone. I was shocked and asked myself what I had been doing for the last month! I was muddleheaded all the time. Was I still fit to be called a practitioner? Was I still fit to be a Dafa practitioner?
I picked up my mobile phone and got rid of the video application. After that, I turned on the exercise music to prepare to do the exercises. At this moment, my heart felt especially uncomfortable and my mind could not calm down, as it was a mess. I had practiced for less than three minutes when my arm ached so much that my heart became more disturbed and I could no longer continue doing the exercises. What should I do? Am I supposed to stop learning the Fa and doing the exercises? Impossible! I started to memorize the Fa and study Hong Yin and my heart gradually calmed down.
In the morning, as the exercise music sounded, tears flowed down my cheeks. Tranquility and harmony once again returned to my inner heart. I was just like a wandering child who had finally returned home. After that, I started to do large amounts of Fa study, memorized the Fa, practiced the exercises, listened to cultivation experience sharing articles, looked for fellow practitioners to exchange cultivation experiences with, and went online to do righteous things. I quickly regained the normal state of a practitioner.
This ordeal which lasted over a month made me realize that the most blissful life is to be cultivating ourselves diligently based on the Fa, no matter how our lives go as human beings. That is the most beautiful life one can have.
Through this article, I hope to remind fellow practitioners who are like me not to relax in your cultivation. Definitely do not relax in your cultivation. We must keep a close watch on our thoughts and become true cultivators.
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