(Minghui.org) I had relaxed in my cultivation along with the easing environment a couple of years ago. I was moved by human attachments, notions, and emotions in my daily life and when doing the three things. My state was just like what Master had told us could happen. I was superficially diligent, as I was involved in projects validating Dafa and saving sentient beings, and I kept studying the Fa and doing the exercises daily. However, Master knew my true state. I did not pay much attention to improving my xinxing. I had a strong attachment to doing things. I had missed many opportunities to improve my xinxing without noticing. As my xinxing had not elevated, I had sickness karma and felt sleepy. I was once puzzled and asked myself, “Why am I still in this state even after cultivating for nearly 30 years?”
I had a vivid dream one night. Many practitioners and I walked quickly along a mountain road. As we reached a wooded area, the alarm for sending righteous thoughts sounded. The coordinating practitioner directed us to sit on the ground and send righteous thoughts. I noted a pile of dry grass under a nearby tree. I stepped forward and sat on the grass to send righteous thoughts.
Afterward, everyone continued walking, but I could not get up because I felt like I was sinking when I attempted to move. I was very scared and shouted for help. After standing up, I noted that there were branches under the grass and more than half of the pile of grass was suspended in the air. I became afraid. Upon the urging of the practitioner who came to help me, we rushed forward and caught up with the other practitioners.
After walking along the rugged mountain road, we came to a deep ditch, which was about two or three meters wide. It had a rail less than two inches wide laid across it. The person walking in front of me was a young practitioner. He crossed over the rail while running and jumping. But I was dumbfounded and timid. I calmed down and thought that it was the path Master had arranged to test us and that I could pass it if others could.
I stepped forward with fear. Due to my unstable mentality, I suddenly missed my footing. Just as I was about to fall, I suddenly saw a branch above my head. I quickly grabbed the branch and held it steadily. I stepped forward and passed the ditch nervously. I took a long breath and woke up from my dream.
I sat up and could not calm down for quite a while. I realized that at the last leg of Fa-rectification, Master was worried about me and had given me hints twice in the dream. The first hint was that I had an attachment to comfort and that it was so dangerous that I could fall into the abyss. The second hint was that I must cultivate solidly and lay a solid foundation. Otherwise, the path would be dangerous.
I understood that though I did a lot of things, I did not cultivate myself well. I read two lectures of Zhuan Falun each day, but I did not take it to heart. Sometimes my mind was not calm. I practiced the five exercises for two and a half hours a day, but I could not become tranquil. Sometimes I felt sleepy.
Master gave me a hint that the cultivation path is very narrow and that I could not deviate or relax. I need to move forward diligently, eliminate the mentality of fear, and correct myself. Fa-rectification is a prearranged process. Only by walking righteously on one’s cultivation path can one catch up. I did heshi with tears in my eyes, in appreciation for Master for the hints and his compassionate salvation.
Though the dream occurred more than two year ago, it is still vivid in my memory. I remember these hints from Master and warn myself to study and recite the Fa calmly, memorize Master’s teachings, change my notions while validating the Fa and saving sentient beings, and eliminate various human attachments.
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