(Minghui.org) I am 66 years old and grew up in the army. I received an atheist education since I was a child, and I was the class leader from elementary school to university. In order to come out on top, before reaching 14 years of age, I joined the Chinese Communist Party’s (CCP’s) Youth League. Before reaching the age of 18, I joined the CCP and became a member. Then, I got promoted step by step to be the General Manager at the provincial level. Everyone envied me, saying that I was a strong woman. I fought for fame and profit all my life, however, every day I felt so tired.
I suddenly felt a great deal of discomfort in 2007. After that, I was diagnosed with uterine cancer lesions that had spread. At that time, I was only 48 years old, and I couldn’t accept this cruel reality.
At that time, my mother told me: “Only Master Li (the founder of Falun Gong) can help you.” I was stunned and thought about it: My mother began to practice Falun Gong due to multiple illnesses in 1997, and within two weeks she recovered from almost all her illnesses. Especially prior to cultivation, due to heart disease, she would often receive emergency treatment. Since she began practicing cultivation, she hasn’t taken any medication during the past 10 or more years. She also helped me babysit my child. I am a witness to all she experienced. Therefore, I made up my mind to practice Falun Dafa!
Since then, both my body and spirit have gone through incredible transformations.
Eliminating My Selfishness at Work
Master’s teachings have guided me to deal with issues in my day-to-day life. Only by achieving that could it be counted as one’s true cultivation.
Prior to cultivation, I hardly used my pay. I would ask for invoices from the restaurants to reimburse them by the workplace for meals, fruits were placed in my office daily, and caretakers hired by the workplace were used to clean my home. During the Lunar Chinese New Year holidays and other festivals, people from many provinces and cities across the country would send their specialties. I would often bring back specialties when I went to our local branches. When I wanted to go somewhere to do sightseeing trips, I would arrange meetings in those places to have my company pay for my trips.
Since I began reading Zhuan Falun, I’ve truly come to understand the Falun Dafa principles, and how to be a good person. I started with petty things. I called over the office manager, and told him, “I’m the exchange officer sent by the top, you have taken good care of me, and I truly appreciate that. However, I can’t take advantage of my company, please deduct all expenses related to company interests from my pay.” He said, “This is very normal, every leader takes it.” I said, “But I practice Falun Dafa.” I told him how Falun Dafa requires its practitioners to be good people. He understood me and removed the rented bonsai flowers from the office. During the Lunar Chinese New Year holidays and public holidays, if someone came to deliver specialties, the manager would decline them.
A local city leader bought 50 cases of local white wine and delivered them to my mother’s house in a passenger car. I called and asked him, “Do you think I’m in good health?” “Yes, you are. You look still young,” he replied. I said, “Right, this is because I practice Falun Dafa. Because of that, if I were to receive the wine from you, my health would decline. Do you wish me well, or not?” “Of course, I hope that you are doing well,” he said. “I have asked the accounting department to transfer 10,000 yuan from my pay to your bank account, please accept that,” I said.
Using this way to deal with this kind of situation worked out well.
When I held a provincial-wide managers’ conference one time, I announced my rules. After I did it, not only the members of our provincial team changed their style of work, but also the entire middle-level staff revised the rules to follow suit. I was rated as the nationwide advanced general manager for five consecutive years, and our company was rated as the most advanced team nationwide as well. The first day after I was promoted to work at the headquarters, I read my rules out loud to the employees in charge of the national lines. After I retired, people often came to see me, bearing gifts, I just paid them the cost in full.
Resolving Resentment, Treating Others Kindly
The most unforgettable thing since I began practicing cultivation happened to me in 1996. I was the office manager for a large corporation, and due to company restructuring, a meeting of all middle-level officers was held overnight; nine middle-level managers were dismissed, and I was one of them.
At that time, there was no heads-up or any communication beforehand. I stepped down from an office manager to an accountant working for the union, and my union leader was my former subordinate. Not only that, I was also put on the third shift in the weaving workshop as a stopper. My back hurt from working, and I couldn’t even stand. I felt so unfairly treated and held resentment in my heart, and I made up my mind to quit. I wanted to show them how capable I was as a “revenge”.
Soon enough, I found a new job, and it was around that time when I began practicing cultivation.
With continuous Fa-study, I came to truly understand the Fa principles. I didn’t resent them but appreciated them for helping me improve my xinxing. This gave me the opportunity to temper myself, as well as improve and elevate myself. They helped me eliminate my attachments to fame, resentment, competitive mentality, and attachment to my ego. How could I not thank them from the bottom of my heart? When I faced people who had harmed me, I would sincerely bless them.
Once I was looked for at the railway station by police. They arrested me, found my Dafa books and other things, and tried to get me into their vehicle. Since I didn’t want to go, they called another officer over to hold me down on the ground, with his feet on me and twisting my arms. I was badly hurt, only because I wanted to be a good person by holding onto my beliefs did they treat me like that, which was outrageous.
But, since I practiced Dafa, I had to endure the pain and not get upset. I didn’t resent him, but felt pity for him. I kindly said to him, “If this is what you do to make a living, I understand. However, you have to use your mind and heart to see what kind of a person you are. For you to treat us like this, it’s no good for you and your family.”
I was taken to a detention center where a female officer interrogated me. She kicked me during the interrogation, I asked her kindly, “Why did you kick me?” She said, “Because I love you.” I was so touched, and looked inward: How should I treat the other one’s love to me, like kicking? She told me that at home, she would often kick her husband. When she asked me to write down my experience sharing, I put down six pages. In the end, her comment to me was: “You are such a great person. For you to come this far wasn’t an easy task. I couldn’t really help you, but could only bless you quietly in my heart!” After I saw that, I shed a tear, it was a happy tear. I felt truly happy for her to be able to see the truth from falsehood, choosing a bright future for herself!
Prior to cultivation, I was spoiled by my parents. After I got married, I found that my in-laws attached more importance to boys than girls. My husband has three brothers, his eldest brother had a daughter. My in-laws wished me to have a boy, but I ended up having a girl. When my mother-in-law came to the hospital to see me, she said, “We had thought if you didn’t give birth to a boy, then it’d still be fine if you were to have twin girls. However, you gave birth to a tiny baby girl who only weighs 2.7 kilograms (or about 6 pounds).” I kept thinking: How come I married into such a family? I couldn’t let go of this resentment.
I was not happy with this family, however, I tried to be nice to their family, and I would often buy clothes for them during the holidays. A few times I bought good-looking clothes for my mother-in-law, but she simply gave them to my sisters-in-law. What made me most resentful was that without my knowledge, my husband gave the apartment that was assigned to him from work, which was over 50 square meters (or about 530 square feet), to one of his brothers. Even though I was very upset, I remembered that I am a Dafa cultivator and Master’s Fa echoed in my ears and inspired my kind nature so that I was able to get over it.
I didn’t bother my husband about the apartment, but I looked inward. When he decided not to tell me, I knew that it must be out of his concern that I would not agree, or my compassion wasn’t enough. Upon finding my problem, I was able to treat my mother-in-law better and better. I often went to visit her, I would buy useful home appliances for her and also often buy her goodies that she liked. I would do her laundry if I got a chance when I was at her place. All in all, I was able to treat her with a cultivator’s kindness.
Another issue was that when my sister-in-law was hospitalized for late-stage cancer, I went to the hospital to look after her. The doctor said that a blood transfusion was needed to save her life, which needed money urgently, I gave her 50,000 yuan for the emergency. The money was left behind by my mother after she passed away, which was divided equally among my siblings. She didn’t survive the cancer eventually, but without my consent, my husband told his brother that he didn’t want the money back. On the surface, I didn’t show any dissatisfaction and didn’t argue with my husband.
When I looked inward, I realized that I didn’t treat others kindly. Comparing myself with the standards of Dafa, I found my resentment and vanity, and I made up my mind to take them out from the root, to dismantle the rotten substance that had remained in my thoughts. I started searching my memory for the people and the things that I resented since childhood. After I nailed them down, I dug them out at the root.
Last year, both my in-laws were hospitalized, and I looked after them all day long. I helped by washing their faces and feet, and I helped clean my mother-in-law’s lower body, taking great care of her. The doctors and nurses said to them that their “daughter” was so kind. My in-laws would praise me to whomever they ran into. They now treat me as their own child, often saying that I am broad-minded.
My broad-mindedness came from the teachings of Dafa, and it’s Falun Dafa that has helped me understand the karmic relationships among people, which I could never figure out myself. It taught me to let go of my resentment, and the dangerous plan of taking revenge on others, and I changed my bad temper. At the same time, I taught my daughter to treat the elderly with kindness. With that, my outlook on life has gone through a great transformation, and I came to understand that the real purpose of people living in this world is to endure hardship and eliminate karma, accumulate virtue and do good deeds, and eventually return to one’s original and true self when one reaches a selfless realm.
Telling Myself When Running Into a Conflict With Others: I Did Wrong
Prior to my cultivation, whether I was home or at work, I was very bossy. I often had the final say in whatever matter it was. For instance: When I was at work, among my subordinates, if anyone whom I was focused on training did something wrong, he or she would be called into my office to be reprimanded, and everyone got used to it.
In the past, my heart was narrow, compared with the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance. In reality, you can’t change people by simply scolding them, I was wrong, and I went against the universal principles. I must cultivate “Compassion”, and treat everyone around me kindly. Since then, I implemented the traditional culture of benevolence, righteousness, courtesy, wisdom, and trust in the education of the staff, and the workers have changed a lot in their thoughts, words, and deeds. The achievements of our department in the past few years have ranked No.1 in the entire company.
The medium and high-level officers whom I trained were many countrywide. One officer said to me jokingly, “You’ve truly changed, you are younger and more beautiful. You’ve changed, and so have our staff and officers. Our company has gone through a great change, we implemented the enterprise culture that you influenced wherever we went.” I replied, “This is the power of Dafa, Master’s compassion. We hold ourselves to the universal principles to do things, which are Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance.”
I would also like to share with you what happened in my family, as Dafa has brought harmony and happiness to my family.
When my elderly father was hospitalized, my sister-in-law looked after him. A few times, I ran into things unexpectedly. One time the level from the monitor for oxygen saturation (pulse oximeter) had dropped to the bottom of the display, but she was doing her own thing and didn’t notice. I had a temper tantrum with her at that moment, bringing her to tears. But still, I went around telling people what was wrong with her. Among my sisters, nobody wanted to talk to me, as it was always me who was right.
Since I began practicing Dafa, the principle of “looking inward” kept inspiring me and I learned to do that. Without thinking about things from the other’s perspective, I had always judged whether the others were right or wrong from the standpoint of selfishness and my own ego. I wrote a letter to apologize to my sister-in-law, acknowledging that I was too much of a dictator and that I didn’t care about her feelings. After she read the letter, we sincerely shared with each other and eliminated the gaps between us.
Another time, I invited my whole family for dinner. One of my sisters-in-law had been respectful of me. On that day, she was suddenly critical of me, saying that I was too bossy, etc. It happened so suddenly and caught me off guard. At that time, Master’s words came to mind: “Whatever you experience during your cultivation—whether good or bad—is good.” (“To the Chicago Fa Conference” in The Essentials of Diligent Progress III)
I am a cultivator, I should practice forbearance and look inward. I said to my sister-in-law and everyone kindly, “I didn’t do well before, my words and actions have harmed you. I’d like to make a sincere apology to everyone today.” I stood up to bow to them. After that, I said, “I am a Dafa cultivator, I’ll rectify myself in the Fa.”
Now our whole family lives in great harmony. Even though my parents have passed away when it comes to holidays and festivals, my siblings, including their children would come to visit us. It is Dafa that has renewed my soul, cleansed my thoughts, and made me look younger, purer, and more compassionate.
I feel grateful to Master and Dafa, for giving me a new life! In the final leg of the Fa-rectification, I will do the three things well to fulfill my vow, and welcome the return of Master!
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