(Minghui.org) Because I had been so indoctrinated with Chinese Communist Party (CCP) culture, I had a competitive mentality. After I began practicing Falun Dafa, I failed to cultivate my patience and speech, which caused a lot of trouble, but I didn’t realize it.

My feet suddenly started to hurt in the second half of 2023, and I had difficulty walking. Even though it was tough, I insisted on going out every day to clarify the truth.

I arranged to go out with another practitioner. She said, “Today, we are going to a distant location.” I said, “No, my feet hurt, and I can’t walk that far.” As soon as I said that, the pain increased. I realized that my acknowledging the pain made the situation worse, and my feet hurt so much that I couldn’t even put them on the ground.

I suddenly became alert and looked inward. I realized that when I walked, I was afraid that my feet would hurt; when I meditated, when my legs hurt a little, I took them down because I didn’t want to suffer. I also noticed that I did not cultivate my speech—I was impatient, competitive, and much more.

After discovering these human notions, I started to evaluate my words and deeds with the Fa. I began to memorize Master’s Fa every day, which enabled me to eliminate human mentality and thoughts. I insisted on meditating for 90 minutes and did not take my legs down, no matter how much they hurt. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil elements that persecuted my physical body. I did not recognize the old forces’ arrangements and I insisted on going out every day to tell the truth. A few months later, with Master’s blessing, my feet stopped hurting and were fine.

But then my legs began to hurt so much that I couldn’t bend them, and it was difficult to get up. I decided to look inward further and saw that I had a lot of attachments, especially a very serious attachment to fighting and being impatient. For example, I was very stubborn during conflicts with my husband. When I asked him to do something and he deliberately did it differently than I expected, I yelled at him. Whether it was at home or outside, I refused to listen to criticism. When people mentioned my shortcomings, I blew up. I also talked to people in a harsh tone. I realized I did not behave like a practitioner.

I understood that Master arranged my husband’s behavior to help me improve, which was good, and I should have thanked him. I did not realize this was an excellent opportunity to improve my character, so I missed many cultivation opportunities.

I paid attention to cleaning up the CCP elements I still harbored. After I listened to Dissolving Communist Party Culture I was able to calmly read Zhuan Falun, meditate for 90 minutes, send forth righteous thoughts, and look inward concerning everything I faced. Without me realizing it, my husband also changed and he stopped fighting with me.

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