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Greetings, Master!Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I am a practitioner from Switzerland and have been practicing Falun Dafa for almost eight years. In the last year, I have gone through several trials, in particular some concerned my family. As I began writing my experiences down, there was some tension between me and my wife for various reasons. I sensed a serious division between us.
I read the following words as we sat in our room studying the Fa one evening. Master said,
“Then think about it, everyone: If you go to a fortune teller, aren’t you listening to and believing him? Then, doesn’t it create a psychological burden for you? Isn’t it an attachment if you burden yourself with it and keep thinking about it? So how can this attachment be removed? Haven’t you imposed an additional tribulation on yourself? Won’t you have to suffer more to give up this attachment?” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
I remembered that my mother had gone to see a fortune teller in Portugal shortly after I met my wife. When she returned, she told me these words from the fortune teller: “If you marry this woman, you will never be happy.”
I had already been practicing Falun Dafa for almost two years at the time. I knew I shouldn’t believe these words, but in reality, a part of me did, because this fortune teller had helped me in the past, and I trusted her.
I told myself I didn’t believe it, but deep down I feared the fortune teller might be right. So several times, during tense moments with my wife, I found myself thinking about those words, and I began to doubt our relationship. When I reached the end of the paragraph, everything became clear.
Master said,
“Nobody from other schools of cultivation is allowed to see it, either. Even fellow disciples from the same school of cultivation are not allowed to see it. No one will be able to tell it correctly, because a life like that has been changed and is one for cultivation.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
I suddenly felt a dark entity being violently expelled from my body. As this happened, I saw the dense matter between me and my wife dissolve as I continued to look inward and banished the fortune teller’s words from my mind. I no longer had any negative feelings toward my wife. The feeling was very pleasant. Only now did I realize that it had taken me six years to finally banish what this person had said to my mother from my mind.
It became clear to me that my relationship with my wife was predestined. Before I met her, I had asked Master to find me a woman with whom I could grow, practice, and start a family. That is exactly what I received. In fact, my wife is the very person who has offered me the most opportunities for personal growth. Even though it hasn’t always been easy, the only way to have a good relationship with her is to cultivate my xinxing continuously. As I write these lines, I feel ashamed that I had not trusted Master’s arrangement.
A few days later, when I woke up in the morning, something started to tremble in front of my eyes. It was really very strange and kept getting stronger. I then felt pressure in an area of my brain and it was getting worse. I decided to send forth righteous thoughts. After 30 minutes, the problem completely disappeared. While I was sending forth righteous thoughts, I felt as if my brain was being cleansed. This hasn’t occurred since.
Trial by the Demon of Lust
I had a dream one night in which I was attacked by the demon of lust. A woman was with me. Despite my resistance and my will to control myself, I ultimately let lust overwhelm me and failed the test. This briefly woke me up feeling extremely ashamed and terrible. But I refused to face reality, so I went back to sleep to escape this challenge.
But a little later, about two minutes before it was time for global righteous thoughts, a mirror that had hung in our room for five years suddenly came loose. It fell about 50cm (19 inches), making a particularly deafening noise that startled me awake. Not understanding what had caused the noise, I got up and went to the bathroom. When I returned to the room, I realized it was time to send forth righteous thoughts and that the mirror had fallen.
Amazingly, the mirror was not damaged at all. At that moment, I understood that Master had dropped the mirror to awaken me in a twofold sense, as for several years, I’ve had difficulty waking up for the morning global sending forth righteous thoughts. I immediately began sending forth righteous thoughts. As I cleansed my energy field, I saw a demon-like energy in the form of a snake in my energy field at the level of my lower abdomen. I was seized by disgust when I saw this terrible energy that had possessed me – this entity that had compelled me to do something extremely filthy.
So I eliminated some of that energy. I realized that this being was trying to achieve something through me when I had such dreams, and that it was extremely foul. I decided to take this matter more seriously. I began to look inward. I realized that this demonic being had left a mark after biting me when I experienced sexual trauma as a child. This mark had allowed this being to more easily interfere with me throughout my life.
As I looked inward, I felt my body being cleansed. Warm tears streamed down my face. I also realized that, due to this entity and the general corruption of society, I had been driven to act improperly in my relationships with women my entire life. As I continued to look within, I understood that this being had taken up residence inside me, as if in an abandoned house. It had exerted strong control over me and intensified my sexual desires.
The more I turned my gaze inward, searching for traces of this being, the more my body was cleansed, until I felt a powerful warmth radiating from my abdomen and chest down to my limbs. I experienced a profound sense of inner well-being and simultaneously realized that all of this could not be eliminated at once and that I had to work persistently to relinquish my attachment to desire, so that this being could not return.
Practicing the Exercises
Another issue that had long bothered me was that I found it difficult to diligently practice the exercises. Ever since I began practicing Falun Dafa, it has almost always been difficult for me to be disciplined with the exercises. One of the reasons for this is simply my constant procrastination. Unfortunately, I have the bad habit of putting things off until later or tomorrow, which gives me a feeling of stress and unfinished business throughout the day.
I realized that I was putting more pressure on myself than I could handle. So instead of doing at least one or two exercises a day, I was doing none at all because I thought, “Either I do all five exercises or I do nothing.” So I accepted that at that time I was unable to do all five exercises every day. I then started doing individual exercises more often, sometimes even the shorter versions of the second and fifth exercises. I was in a really bad state of cultivation and couldn’t get myself out of it, but at least I had started practicing more again.
At the end of August last year, I went to a Minghui Camp in France with my son. One of the advantages of the camp was that I was able to do the five sets of exercises almost every day. This motivated and inspired me to continue at home. Another advantage of the camp, in terms of practicing the exercises, was that my son, who had only done them a few times before, could do them with other children. At first, he didn’t want to participate and preferred to sit while we did the exercises as a group. During the second exercise, a thought came to me: “The fact that my son doesn’t want to do the exercises reflects my own attachments.”
When I became aware of this, I felt a negative and very dense substance inside me. This substance made my body feel heavy whenever I wanted to practice. It caused me to give up on my intention by instilling thoughts like, “Ah, I’m too tired” or “I’ll rest a bit and practice later.” Naturally, I almost never did them.
Master said,
“In your body, a “you” is accumulated over time that bears the exact same appearance as you. However, it is composed of that thing and it controls you. Because it’s a very strong attachment that forms into your image, it is therefore so very strong that it can control your heart. This is because it’s formed by a very strong attachment.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2019 New York Fa Conference,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. XV)
I had the courage at that moment to eliminate this negative matter. I felt that a part of it was being removed by Master. I continued rejecting this matter throughout the day and replacing my laziness with self-discipline. I felt that in the following days, another portion of this matter was eliminated. My son, too, was more motivated to practice and even did the fifth exercise for about 20 minutes, which was quite a lot for him.
Once we got home, I did all five exercises almost every day, or at least the first four or the fifth. I also managed to overcome one of my biggest attachments, namely the tendency toward seeking comfort. In fact, I had always found it difficult to get up early in the morning. I was used to going to bed late and getting up late.
But because I was motivated to free myself from my attachment to comfort and to practice the exercises daily again, I felt that Master was helping me wake up in time to send forth righteous thoughts. As a result, I felt that I had more inner strength, was more stable in my cultivation, and was able to do the three things.
Master said,
“You claim that you are too busy and don’t have the time. Actually, you are afraid that you don’t get enough rest. Has it ever occurred to you that cultivation is the best form of rest?” (Teachings at the First Conference in North America)
I’ve been much more diligent in doing those three things since this, and I intend to continue this way.
These are my personal understandings. Please kindly point it out if you see anything that isn’t aligned with the Fa.
Thank you, revered Master!Thank you, fellow practitioners!
(Selected submission presented at the 2025 Swiss German-Speaking Area Fa Conference)
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