(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa in May 1996, and this year I’ll be 70 years old. Before the Chinese New Year, my body developed some false symptoms of illness karma.
My mother recently broke her leg and was about to have surgery, so my sister and I were busy taking care of her at the hospital. In addition, I had also been taking care of my daughter’s child at her home for more than a month. During this period, I did not do the three things well.
In the hospital, I felt dizzy and had trouble sleeping. My sister noticed that the inner corners of my eyes were black and bleeding. She said, “We’re in the hospital now, you should make an appointment with a doctor. Wouldn’t it be better if you knew nothing was wrong?”
My righteous thoughts were not strong, so I went to see the doctor. The doctor examined me, and said that I had high blood pressure and cataracts. He also wanted to draw blood to test my blood sugar level. I was stunned. This had never happened to me in many years.
I thought, “These cataracts, don’t they reflect an obstacle in my heart? This is not the right state of a cultivator. I did not do any of the three things that Master asks Dafa disciples to do well.” I also found that I resented my mother for not listening to me. She was in her old age, and we prepared enough wood for her to use in her wood stove, but she still chopped wood herself. Wasn’t her accident causing trouble for us children?
Looking deeper, I found that I was afraid of suffering. I myself often neglected to cultivate my mind and character, which led to these false symptoms of illness karma.
I showed the doctor the test results that afternoon. He told me that my blood sugar was just slightly high, so I didn’t need to take medicine but just pay attention to my diet instead. The high blood pressure may have been caused by my not getting enough rest. I also knew it was not yet time for me to have surgery for cataracts. I believed that Master saw that I was looking inward, and he helped remove some of my karma. I’m grateful to Master for his compassionate salvation.
My mother was discharged from the hospital and went to stay at my brother’s house. After I returned home, I did the three things step by step, but my body still did not return to the correct state. I felt uncomfortable, had a headache, dizziness, and a swollen head. A voice inside my head said, “It’s been so many days, go to the hospital for an X-ray... the swelling could be caused by high blood pressure.”
I knew this thought was not me, so I sent righteous thoughts to reject it, but these thoughts continued back and forth, and I wasn’t able to reject it entirely. When I burned incense to Master in the morning, I said to him, “Master, your disciple’s enlightenment quality is not good, what should I do? Please enlighten me.”
As soon as I finished speaking, I heard a voice say, “Cultivators have no illnesses!” My tears fell. From then on, I studied the Fa more attentively, knowing that there must be something wrong with my xinxing. I then increased my time of practicing the exercises and sending righteous thoughts.
I looked inward and thought I was doing okay. I had been doing the three things, but I was only cultivating superficially. I didn’t truly realize that personal cultivation and Fa-rectification cultivation are two completely different concepts. I wasn’t paying enough attention to improving my xinxing, and I regarded doing things as cultivation. Many of the attachments deep in my heart had not been eliminated.
Master said:
“And therefore I, your master, removed the names of all Dafa disciples from the ledgers of the Three Realms, of the Human Realm, of the Netherworld, and even of Hell. The lives of Dafa disciples have ever since been in Dafa’s hands only, and freed from reincarnation; even those with sins are no longer bound for Hell.” (“Dafa Spiritual Practice Is Serious”)
While I was studying this scripture, I suddenly understood: “I’m a Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period. My body was purified by Master, and my body cells are composed of many high-energy substances. I cultivate at a high level, and I’ve been removed from the ledgers of the Three Realms; I’m no longer restricted by its laws. Everything about me is under the control of Master. Moreover, I’m doing divine things; I am saving people in the world and sending righteous thoughts.” The false appearance of illness karma gave the evil an opportunity to take advantage of my gaps. Through studying the Fa and Master’s enlightenment, I changed my notions, my righteous thoughts became stronger, and the false appearance of illness karma basically disappeared.
After going through the false appearance of illness karma, I realized that, as a cultivator, we should take tribulations as an opportunity to improve our xinxing. We should not blindly look outward, but cultivate inward to find our shortcomings and various human notions. We must also believe in Master and the Fa and leave everything to him! While studying the Fa well and more often, our human notions will fade, and our righteous thoughts will rise. All incorrect states will then be rectified.
If there is anything that is not in accordance with the Fa, please kindly point it out.
Thank you Master! Thank you fellow practitioners!
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