(Minghui.org) I thought I had eliminated my attachment to jealousy, but this was before I read the article “From Fallen Angels to Having Faith in Master and The Fa.”
I looked within as I read it, and saw that some of my thoughts were similar to Lucifer’s when he disobeyed God’s command. When I saw a less-capable man outperform me in the business world, I felt bitter. I also felt uneasy when I heard a new practitioner share how much he’d improved, or found out that a mediocre classmate scored 100 on his test.
I then learned a lesson. There was a young practitioner whom I thought acted too extreme in his cultivation practice, which made his family have a negative opinion of Falun Dafa. He later became the local coordinator. I continued to view him with disrespect. He once asked me to help receive a lawyer who was coming into town to defend a practitioner facing persecution. I told him I didn’t have time. He then asked me to collect information about the practitioner so that we could expose the persecution against him online. But I told him I didn’t know much about the case and was unable to write an article about it. Seeing that I was reluctant, he said, “Then maybe you should send more righteous thoughts.”
He was right about me needing righteous thoughts. I was capable of doing all the tasks he asked of me, but I was too jealous and disrespectful. I used to be the assistant of the exercise site before the persecution started and often held large scale activities to promote Falun Dafa.
Back then, he was only just starting to help teach people the exercises and often had to ask for my help. I felt he was giving me orders and acted like my superior, so I refused to help out. Just like Lucifer’s jealousy in the article, I thought: “You’re too young to tell me what to do, I should tell you what to do.”
As a practitioner, I was supposed to let go of the notion that I was superior and break my habit of looking down on others. I should be more selfless, respectful, and kind. I then dreamed that I put the clutch in reverse while trying to drive forward. This was Master Li giving me a hint. I later apologized to the coordinator and told other practitioners about the lesson I learned.
During the persecution, the practitioners in China who volunteer to be coordinators deserve our respect, as they risk their lives to serve others. I did not become a coordinator because I was afraid. I realized that even if a coordinator was really lacking in leadership, all the other practitioners should dedicate their best efforts to help him achieve success. This is what Master asks of us, and this should be how we validate the Fa.
I paid attention to eliminating jealousy and took the initiative to approach the coordinator, do what he needed me to do, and stay humble. I noticed that the coordinator sometimes acted uneasy when he spoke to new practitioners in front of me. I knew that I still harbored some kind of attitude that made him feel that way. This is something that veteran practitioners need to pay attention to. We should be humble and friendly, so that new practitioners would naturally want to approach us.
Master cherishes all beings in the universe and so should we. If someone performs in an outstanding manner and even surpasses us, we should cheer for them because that’s what the universe needs and what Master wants. Lucifer failed to grasp this principle and was ultimately expelled from Heaven.
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