(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa began in April 2010, when I was 38 years old. I have always taken sending forth righteous thoughts very seriously, and even though I’ve encountered some difficult situations I successfully pulled through them.
During the ongoing persecution of Falun Dafa in China I was illegally arrested five times and my home was ransacked. I also experienced a few sickness karma tribulations, but I overcame them by sending strong righteous thoughts. I thought: As long as I keep sending forth righteous thoughts everything will be fine. However, a recent incident helped me develop a renewed sense of compassion, and I now feel that everyone I encounter is family.
In September 2024, my husband (also a practitioner) suddenly showed signs of sickness karma and had difficulty walking. He didn’t take it seriously and he didn’t tell me about it. His condition worsened two days later. The left side of his face began to droop and the entire left side of his body was partially paralyzed. He drooled and his speech was garbled. These were signs of a stroke.
At one point, he couldn’t take off his jacket and he fell. I urged him to send forth righteous thoughts immediately, while I continued studying the Fa (teachings) with practitioners in another room. I didn’t pay much attention to him, thinking that he would be able to pull through this situation on his own.
However, his condition became worse over the next two days, so I started sending forth righteous thoughts with him. I put a ‘Do Not Disturb’ sign on our door so that we would not be interrupted. We sat down facing a wall in the kitchen that displayed the large Chinese character “mie” (part of a Falun Dafa phrase addressing the elimination of negative substances). We began repeating the character aloud. My mind was focused, and the character kept appearing in front of my eyes.
We did this for a day and a half and both of us felt exhausted. My husband’s condition did not improve. At that point, I stopped sending forth righteous thoughts and began to share my concerns with him. I told him that he must look inward to find his attachments, especially fundamental ones, otherwise our sending forth righteous thoughts wouldn’t help much.
We went back to the kitchen to recite the word “mie” again. As I did this, I began to feel somewhat overwhelmed and I started crying for the people of the world. I didn’t recite as loudly and it didn’t seem to have the overpowering, detrimental tone it did previously. I wept for those police officers who often came to harass and monitor my husband in the last few months after he was released from jail.
I thought: If my husband’s health declines people would say, “Look, he became disabled from practicing Falun Dafa.” They would have an even greater negative attitude toward Dafa and it would become even harder for them to understand the truth.
I kept repeating “mie” with tears running down my face. I thought: For the sake of sentient beings, my husband must pull through! At that moment, I truly felt practitioners’ huge responsibility. I realized that people in this human world are watching how each one of us is conducting ourselves. The time and opportunity for telling people the truth about Dafa was ticking away.
My husband said, “I’m well now, the ‘evil presence’ on my leg is gone, and I feel very light.” He also showed me how well he could move both legs. He later told me he found a fundamental attachment to using Dafa for selfish gain – he was sending forth righteous thoughts so that the police would not arrest him again. I thought that his finding his selfish attachment might also have something to do with my compassionately weeping for sentient beings.
Even though my husband could walk, his left arm still hadn’t returned to normal. So, we continued sending forth righteous thoughts for the next three weeks. We both felt exhausted, but his left arm was still the same.
One night, at 2:00 a.m., suddenly I thought of my husband as a sentient being who needed help. All my thoughts for him were compassionate. I had no complaint—instead I felt deeply sorry for him. Just then, as my husband sat up to meditate all the bad sensations departed from his body through his arms and legs. He told me later that he didn’t think about anything and his mind was very calm as all the bad feelings in his body abruptly left. Afterwards my husband felt well enough to return to work. Three months later, he was completely back to normal.
After we experienced this tribulation I made up my mind that I will never hurt anyone to validate myself or for any selfish reasons, and I would be compassionate and considerate of others at all times. Otherwise, the consequences could be very serious.
These are are some of my recent cultivation insights. Please kindly point out anything improper.
Views expressed in this article represent the author's own opinions or understandings. All content published on this website are copyrighted by Minghui.org. Minghui will produce compilations of its online content regularly and on special occasions.
Category: Cultivation Insights
