(Minghui.org) I started to practice Falun Dafa 30 years ago, when I was in my 30s. My firm belief in Master and the Fa will never change regardless how many ups and downs I have gone through. I’d like to share my cultivation experiences during the time when I tried to recover unlawfully seized pension.
Clarifying the Truth to Officers in Multiple Levels and Cultivating Myself While Working with Other Practitioners
The Social Security Center stopped my pension and tried to make me return the pension I already received using the excuse that I had been incarcerated. I felt like the sky was falling. I lived by myself and had little savings. I wouldn’t have anything if I had to return the pension I already received. On second thought, I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. Master asks us to help him save sentient beings. I should use this opportunity to tell people the truth about Falun Dafa.
The Social Security Center stopped my pension illegally and this was a form of economic persecution. I shouldn’t acknowledge it—instead I should think from their perspective. I shouldn’t acknowledge the persecution. I discussed it with other practitioners and we decided to coordinate our efforts. studied the Fa, clarified the truth to people and delivered letters to various departments together. We visited many departments such as the National People’s Congress, trade unions, women’s federations, petition offices, social security agencies, and supervisory authorities.
I worked with Ling (alias). I had heated conflicts with her and experienced a heart-wrenching cultivation journey. We were like two people from different worlds. When I said something, she said the opposite. It seemed that she challenged me on purpose. Whatever I did, she pointed out my shortcomings. She found fault with everything I said. I realized that we had different ways of thinking, different characters, different ways of doing things and different understandings of the Fa.
This may have been caused by our grudges and grievances from past lifetimes, but I felt it was mainly caused by the old forces which tried to separate us and prevent us from saving sentient beings. All these were illusions. If we could step out of our human notions and surface appearances we would be following the path that Master arranged instead the old forces’. Both of us looked within and finally broke through the old force’s arrangement.
During the process, I found my attachments such as showing off, complacency, validating myself, Party culture, arrogance, jealousy, resentment, not my cultivating speech and my dominating character. I considered myself superior to other practitioners because I memorized the Fa easily and I helped more people quit the CCP. Ling occasionally lost her temper with me, but I didn’t take it to heart. I also did not look within. Ling was very kind. She adjusted herself and continued cooperating with me.
Looking back now, I should apologize to Ling. I was in a huge hardship which was caused by the old forces. One practitioner saw in her dream that two heavy cases were on my back and my back was bent. Master let me see a scene: I was confined in a narrow space which could only hold one chair and it was surrounded by walls. I was wrapped with thick ropes and tied to the chair. In this dimension, it manifested as constant conflicts. I felt depressed and bitter and I didn’t consider others from their perspectives. Ling did let go of herself and she worked with me. She was generous and selfless. Why did I still find fault with her?
When Ling got angry with me, although I didn’t say anything, I thought in my heart: how come she lost temper despite that she had practiced Falun Dafa for so many years? I looked at her shortcomings without realizing that old forces separated us. I thought I was good because I didn’t take it into heart. I didn’t examine myself to find out why Ling got angry, or why I saw this, what attachment I should let go of, and what attachment caused Ling to lose her temper. As time went on and conflicts accumulated, I felt unbalanced in my heart and I complained to other practitioners. I only wanted to know who was right and who was wrong superficially. I didn’t cultivate my speech. I missed many opportunities to improve my xinxing. Both of us felt bitter.
Now I realize that whether it is good or bad thing, they are all good things. Master uses these conflicts to help us improve our xinxing. But I didn’t improve my xinxing. When I later, I dug out many attachments I felt guilty when I saw Master’s thoughtful arrangements. In recent years, I constantly looked within and had a leap forward in cultivation. I have passed this test even though the process was rough.
We went to the Social Security Center, Human Resources and Social Security Bureau to clarify the truth to the officers and requested that they restore my pension. As we continued to talk with them, some leaders agreed to quit the CCP. But they said that they were unable to give me pension because it was the policy.
Some officers didn’t listen to us so we gave them some pamphlets. We applied for administrative reconsideration and went to the petition office again to clarify the truth to them. After we visited all the departments, we then began administrative litigation, going through the first instance, second instance, retrial, and procuratorial protest proceedings. My case was denied after we went through all the processes. We didn’t pay much attention to the result but did whatever we should do. We sent truth-clarification letters to everyone that we had been in contact with.
Forging Ahead Despite Pressure
Ming (alias) came to see me and wanted to write a report on what I was doing. I worked with Ming and Ping (alias). Ming understood the Fa very well and had strong righteous thoughts. She shared with me from the Fa’s perspective and helped me a lot. They both got up at 3:10 a.m. to practice the exercises every day. I was greatly encouraged by them. Sometimes I got up early to practice the exercises with them. Thanks to their help, I practice the exercises with them almost every day now. I feel that Master sent them to help me.
Ming had strong righteous thoughts and set high standards for us. She often suggested that I do this and that. For example, she suggested that I send truth-clarifying letters to the judges, court directors and prosecutors, and expose how I was persecuted. I felt a lot of pressure. I was worried because I wrote letters to them using my real name. I was repeatedly arrested, detained and tortured. I didn’t want to put too much pressure on myself. Actually, I didn’t understand the Fa well. This persecution was not one person against another. It was the old forces in other dimensions that manipulated human beings to do evil things. When I understood this the pressure lessened. I realized that I didn’t 100% believe in Master and the Fa. I still wanted to protect myself.
As I studied the Fa more and was encouraged by practitioners’ righteous thoughts, I gradually let go of putting myself first. I went to talk to the officers for the purpose of saving them and didn’t consider myself. People came for the Fa. No matter which positions they were in, I must help Master save them. I sent them truth-clarifying letters. If I didn’t clarify the truth about the persecution there would be no difference between my effort and a non-practitioner safeguarding their rights.
There were some conflicts between Ming and me. She was outspoken and frank. She talked sharply and sometimes lost her temper for no reason—she was worse than Ling. Because of my experiences with Ling, I ignored Ming’s attitude. I looked within and cultivated myself. Then the test was passed. I understood that it might be caused by old forces’ disruption or perhaps Master utilized it to give me an opportunity to cultivate. Afterward, Ming and I worked together harmoniously.
I should look at practitioners’ strengths. Ming and Ping tried their best to help me and took care of more things than I did. Ping wrote all documents and I edited them. They sent forth righteous thoughts for me, made plans and carried them out. I was really touched. They really put their hearts into helping me and we cooperated harmoniously.
Recently the Social Security Center applied to the court to force me to return the pension I already received. They broke the law when they stopped my pension. Now they even applied for compulsory enforcement. We prepared an application challenging the enforcement and pointed out the illegality of their action and we demanded that my pension be restored. I sent truth-clarifying letters to the judge and leaders. The judge opened my letter but returned it to me. He insisted that I had to go to court myself. I hesitated because I was worried that they would detain me. I went there, nevertheless. Master is protecting us so we should do things openly and with dignity. The judge just asked for information about my case and didn’t say anything else.
My case made significant progress in the court. The court contacted me and asked if I had any requirements. I told them to restore my pension and backpay my pension for the previous several years. The court clerk said he would coordinate with other departments. We practitioners only wished to save people—Master had the final say. The process tempered me and I let go of many attachments. The biggest one was fear. We contacted those people including leaders frequently and sent them letters. I felt a lot of pressure. But I needed to improve my xinxing if I wanted to save them. Master helped me so that I could make it to today.
I wanted to clarify the truth to my colleagues for a long time, but I didn’t see any opportunities. The previous leaders had all retired. I took this opportunity to tell the new leaders stories about my pension and I asked that they help. I sent 17 letters to the leaders in various departments. I only sent six letters. Later, I felt that I should let more people know the truth. So, I sent 11 more letters.
There was an incident during the process. When I first went to the post office to post the first six letters, the employee had positive attitude towards Falun Dafa. She told me that I could mail the letters before 5 p.m. On the second day when I went to the post office to mail the seventh letter, another officer was there. She was not nice to me and asked me if I mailed letters yesterday. She said that I must go to the counter to post the letters and shouldn’t put them in the mailbox.
She also insisted that I go there before 3 p.m. She said that if I went there late and something happened, she might not find me. They all knew what kind of letters I posted because of my case. I had negative thoughts after I came home. What did she mean? Did she want to report me so she ask me to go there two hours earlier? Should I go to the other post office? But on second thought, what Falun Dafa practitioners did was example for future generations. I shouldn’t do things for the purpose of doing things. I must walk my path righteously. I signed the letters with my own name. I had the freedom to mail as many letters as I wanted. No one should interfere. I went to the same post office the following morning. That employee was busy. She weighed the letter and let me leave. She didn’t say anything.
I went to the community center to apply for a minimum subsistence allowance and to clarify the truth to the staff. I sent truth-clarifying letters to them as well. I sent a letter to the Party secretary in the community center. She came to see me with gifts. I thanked her. I didn’t pay much attention to personal gain or loss. I came to save sentient beings, no matter who the person was. As long as I met them, I clarified the truth to them because everyone came for the Fa. Whenever I have the opportunity I do my best to help Master save sentient beings.
I was simple-minded and careless. The practitioners who worked with me sacrificed a lot and accompanied me through thick and thin. I’d like to express my thanks to them!
Final Remarks
Four years have passed in a blink of eye. Looking back at this pension case, I had the joy to help Master save sentient beings. I also experienced frustration when I did not cooperate well with other practitioners, and I had financial hardships. All these didn’t stop me. I didn’t have much time to do everyday work because I went out to clarify the truth to people all year round. I didn’t have time to enjoy life. Saving sentient beings is the only choice on my cultivation path. Although it’s hard, I feel happy. Our compassionate Master is always with me.
Thank you Master for your compassion and salvation! Thank you, fellow practitioners, for your selfless help!
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