(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa with my parents when I was two, and my celestial eye opened. In kindergarten, I could sit in the full lotus position for one hour. As soon as I was able to read I read Zhuan Falun with my parents. The other practitioners said that I was a child who came for the Fa.
Since all my family members practice it was easy for me to participate in group Fa study. Because I started practicing at a young age I never had any illnesses. However, after I began attending boarding school I only read the Fa when I returned home every week or two. I became lax in my cultivation. After I began attending college my cultivation state became even worse.
I came into contact with various deviant thoughts and behaviors in college. I strayed further from the Fa, and I only read occasionally when I remembered. Although I knew this wasn’t right, due to peer pressure, I did not take it seriously. I gave up cultivating and went wild—I was busy enjoying my college life.
Many years passed. Only when my boyfriend caused me mental torment did I finally realize that my future would be over if I continued like this. I asked myself how I should handle these relationships—I was entangled with pursuing money, studies, and career. I wanted to cultivate again, but I wasn’t sure if Master would still look after me. I was depressed for a long time. I slowly started to study the Fa every day. I wholeheartedly yearned to resume cultivating and become an upright practitioner.
As I continued reading the teachings I realized my past behavior was despicable. It was precisely because of my attachments to lust, fame, and gain that the old forces exploited and dragged me down. I resolved to eliminate these attachments and cultivate diligently. I started a family and cleansed my human notions with righteous thoughts.
Seeing my remorse and regret, Master began to care for me again! I could feel Master’s blessing while I did the exercises and when I sent forth righteous thoughts. I could feel Master’s guidance in my daily life, and my faith became even stronger.
If it were not for Master’s compassion and protection, the old forces would not have let me off so easily. Only by cultivating diligently can I live up to the opportunity Master created for me to return to cultivation. Only by truly improving myself can I walk better on the righteous cultivation path.
Now I spend more time studying the Fa, doing the exercises, and sending forth righteous thoughts. As I continue reading the Fa studies, my understanding of the Fa becomes clearer, my righteous thoughts get stronger, and I’m able to effectively clarify the truth about the persecution to people.
Many thanks to Master for his painstaking efforts to help me resume cultivating. In this final stage of Fa-rectification, I will follow his teachings and correct my every thought and action. I will fulfill my vow to assist Master in saving people.
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