(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa 26 years ago, when I was young. I recently resumed practicing and I will cherish the time that Master gave me and I will cultivate well.
My Relatives Recovered From Serious Illnesses
I studied hard when I was young. I believed what I was taught in school—including atheism and evolution. My mother developed various chronic illnesses and visited hospitals often, since I was in elementary school. I spent my middle school years anxious and worried.
I worked hard, hoping my good grades would bring me happiness. But I did not do well in the college entrance examination. The big disappointment made me think I was destined to have bad luck. I attended a lesser school. When my mother was diagnosed with leukemia my family tried to hide it from me, but I could see how seriously ill she was from their expressions.
My aunt introduced Falun Dafa to my parents, telling them it would improve their health, and that they would have no need for medicines or shots. But influenced by atheism and evolution, I refused to believe that one’s health could be restored without medical treatment.
My parents told me Falun Dafa is good and showed me the video of Master’s lectures, but I refused to listen. I argued with them, and then I left for college.
When I later I witnessed how my mother miraculously recovered from her illness I was immensely grateful to Master and Falun Dafa for saving my mother and my family. I told my classmates that Dafa is good, but I still did not want to practice. I saw the practice site and the Falun emblem at the park near the entrance to the school one morning in April, 1999. I thought, “I didn’t notice it before. I’ll go there tomorrow.”
I went to the practice site in the morning where I met a man who I later married. He patiently showed me the exercises. I later realized this was Master’s arrangement. I did not know what cultivation was at first, and I only wanted to be a good person. The brutal persecution began three months after I began practicing.
I Stop Cultivating
The persecution of Falun Dafa began on July 20, 1999. I was away from home, and scared, and I didn’t know what to do. I decided to continue practicing. Luckily my husband was by my side and encouraged me. But both of us had only practiced for a few months so we lacked a solid foundation to really understand the significance of Falun Dafa or what it meant to cultivate. We did not proactively eliminate our attachments and we took many detours.
My husband accidentally dropped some Dafa informational materials at work and was reported by his colleague. His company repeatedly took him to brainwashing sessions, and he was eventually sent to a forced labor camp. At that time, our son was only a few months old, and I stayed at my mother’s place with him. The police interrogated me for hours and made me leave my mother’s home and return to my home in the city.
My work unit wanted to stop my contract when my husband and I got married. I refused to go along with it. Later they eliminated my position and reduced my salary to about 200 yuan a month to force me to resign. The financial worry, my husband's detention, caring for our baby, and the police harassment placed me under tremendous pressure.
When my son was one year old, a practitioner could not withstand the pressure and revealed my mother-in-law’s residence. The police broke in and seized all the Dafa books and Master’s picture. They arrested my mother-in-law, and threatened to arrest me and put my son in an orphanage.
I was only in 20s and I was unable to endure the intense pressure. I could not study the Fa without the book, Zhuan Falun, which the police confiscated. I could not go online for fear of being monitored. I gradually drifted away from Dafa. I wanted to avoid harassment and persecution and live a peaceful life. Although I knew Dafa is good, for ten years I stopped practicing.
Returning to Cultivation
I pursued an ordinary life, but I wasn’t happy. I began having health problems, including a rapid heart beat and I was frequently hospitalized. I felt uncomfortable, but the doctor could not find the problem. Things at work and at home did not go smoothly. I was disappointed and felt empty. I did not know the meaning of life.
My mother-in-law was very worried seeing that my husband and I gave up cultivation. She urged me to cherish the opportunity and resume practicing. With Master’s repeated hints, I began to cultivate again in 2013. I was greatly encouraged when I saw practitioners in other countries doing the exercises openly in parks when I traveled abroad. I decided to begin cultivating in earnest. I focused on studying the Fa and found I could learn some Fa principles and I went beyond the surface meaning.
When I read Master’s poem,
“Predestined ties of countless lifetimesEach has Dafa as its guiding thread’Tis in hardship the golden body is temperedWhy such slow and leisurely steps?”(“The Difficult Path to Godhood,” Hong Yin II)
I was deeply touched and realized what Master hoped for us. Master said, ““I do not want anything. I have just come to save you. I just want your heart to be good and want you to be able to move up.”” (“Lecture in Sydney”)
I wept when I felt Master’s immense benevolence. I strengthened my determination to cultivate and I was no longer afraid of difficulties. Master let me realize the Fa principles at my level, and I understood what true cultivation is.
I changed my mindset of low self-esteem. I cherished the environment of Fa study and I worked hard to catch up.
When my forbearance was low during tests I endured with tears. But I knew I needed to meet the requirements for a true practitioner. Master said, ““When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.”” (“Lecture Nine,” Zhuan Falun) I understood Master’s arrangement after I passed each test.
When I began to emphasize looking inward, I found many people or things that previously bothered me were trivial. I looked for my own attachments and removed them, and no longer cared much about whether I was right or wrong. I used to feel resentful about job assignments at work—I felt I was capable but I was suppressed. The work they assigned me was high pressure and difficult, and hard to resolve. I was not assigned tasks that truly required technical skills or that were financially important. I felt that I had no way to reach the annual sales target that was assigned to me.
I became aware of my state as my dissatisfaction and anxiety surfaced. I sensed my deficiencies in cultivation. I thought I had gotten rid of my attachment to self-interest and jealousy. It turned out that they were still quite strong.
When I understood the situation from the Fa principles, I tried hard to eliminate my attachments. I repeatedly encouraged myself to follow the requirements of a cultivator no matter how hard it was. Gradually I restored my peaceful mind. For the past three years, I unexpectedly received large orders and I achieved my assigned annual target. Colleagues said that I just calmly did my job and I got good results.
The company tried to improve its operation and laid off several people. With Master’s help, my job has been stable. Dafa gave me wisdom. I worked efficiently and my colleagues were pleased with me.
I overcame my introverted nature and actively clarified the truth to colleagues and friends, and urged them to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). Their work and family life became smooth after they did.
An elderly colleague had a heart problem during the COVID lockdown, and he was hospitalized. He was told he had a heart attack and he had to be transferred to a large hospital. Because of the pandemic the hospitals were all overcrowded.
He was very lucky and was admitted to a specialized hospital. He recovered quickly after a stent was implanted. I sent him a text message and asked him to recite “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” I visited him after the lockdown, and asked him if he still had the amulet I gave him. He said, “I’ve always kept it. It’s in my wallet.”
Another time, an elderly woman fainted on the roadside. Someone called for an ambulance, but it hadn’t arrived. I overcame my fear, knelt next to her and said softly, “Please recite ‛Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,’ and you’ll be safe.” She slowly opened her eyes as I kept reciting the verses. She regained consciousness within a few minutes when the ambulance came.
I haven’t been diligent—I cultivated slowly and had many difficulties. Fortunately Master arranged practitioners to encourage me, and Minghui.org lets me communicate with practitioners all over the world. I finally understand why I’ve obtained the Fa in this lifetime and my mission. I will cultivate well, and help those who have lost their way, as I did, to return to cultivation. I will cherish the time Master gave me to cultivate and do well.
Falun Dafa cleansed my heart and renewed me. I am very grateful to Master!
