(Minghui.org) My son, who had been working at a well-known seed company, suddenly quit his job and came home to live on May 12, 2025. He felt that the industry was declining and had no future, so he wanted to find a better job, one with higher pay and better prospects.
I thought that he would quickly find a good job with his work experience. But unexpectedly, the truly good companies were not hiring. After more than a month of searching, he was hired by a fairly decent company. However, when he went to start the job, he found that the company’s products also had no future. After thinking it over carefully and discussing it with his father, he decided to quit again.
My son once again found himself waiting and searching for a job. He also returned to the same tired and stressed state as when he first quit his job.
When he first came home, he was very anxious to find a job. I advised him to take his time, but he said he had to repay his loans every month. I knew he still had debts, but I didn’t know how much, since my husband and I had already helped him repay more than 400,000 yuan. From his behavior, I felt something was not quite right.
He had never liked smoking, but after coming home this time, he smoked frequently in his room. He played computer games in the first half of the night and then stayed up chatting with someone online until dawn. He didn’t eat on time and often ordered takeout. Sometimes he would go out in the middle of the night and return at unpredictable times.
During this time, about a month after my son returned, my husband had surgery due to a thyroid problem. I needed to take care of him, preparing three meals a day with fresh meat. During recovery, my husband’s emotions were sometimes unstable. He would get angry for no reason and feel dissatisfied with everyone, sometimes being quite unreasonable.
Every day, I was busy buying groceries and cooking. I also had to take care of my husband’s emotions and worried about my son. However, I did not feel discouraged, because I had the Fa in my heart. I stayed cheerful throughout the day. Sometimes, some bad thoughts would arise, even painfully so, but I would quickly elevate myself according to the Fa and clear them away.
Without me realizing it, my son stopped smoking and played games much less. When he went out at night, he would tell me what he was doing. Then he opened up to me: he still had over 200,000 yuan in debt. He had thought he would quickly find a job and repay it himself, without needing help from us. But after three months without finding a job, he had to ask us for money again, even though we had no savings left and needed to borrow money. He felt a heavy burden and guilt.
I smiled and said, “Son, as long as you don’t go into debt again in the future, everything will be fine.” When he heard this, he immediately felt relieved.
Soon he told me that everything was ready and that he just needed to make a phone call to secure a job. I felt hopeful, thinking that once he started working, repaying the debt would not be a problem. But for five days in a row, he said he would call, yet he didn’t. I became very anxious. I saw him staying in his room playing games, coming out to eat when hungry, then going back again. I felt like I was about to explode. Complaints toward him all surfaced, but I knew I couldn’t say them. It exposed many impure thoughts of mine. I could hardly sit still and wanted to ask him directly.
At that moment, Master’s teachings came to my mind, “...when you take a step back in a conflict, you will find the seas and the skies boundless...” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun) I immediately thought: “No matter right or wrong, I should step back first and calm down.” I shouldn’t push my son to make the call. But I still felt unsure about how to act kindly. Then a story about Han Xin, a Chinese military general, came to mind. The woman in the story helped him without expecting anything in return—wasn’t that the answer?
I was so happy. The confusion and struggle I had just moments ago disappeared. My son also came out of his room at this moment. I smiled and asked what he would like to eat. He said, “Mom, I’ll eat whatever you make.” I immediately went to cook.
While I was cooking, my son went back to his room and made two phone calls, arranging meetings. Everything went smoothly, and he got the job. About two days later, he officially started working.
Later, I checked and found that from May 12 to the day before he made the call was exactly 100 days. I carefully reflected on what I had gone through during these 100 days and came to the following understandings:
First, during these 100 days, especially through my son’s continuous behaviors, it was like a mirror clearly reflecting all my attachments without missing anything. It felt as if the mechanisms Master had given me—especially the automatic correction mechanism—had been activated. Through my son’s various actions, I could immediately identify my corresponding attachments. Then the Fa would appear in my mind. For stronger attachments, I would recite the Fa more times. For lighter ones, I could correct myself quickly. What surfaced were mainly attachments to fame, gain, and emotion. No matter how sharp or strong they seemed on the surface, as long as I measured them against the Fa, they could not stand.
Second, regarding my son’s debt, I completely denied the old forces’ financial persecution of my family and me. From another perspective, my son’s behaviors—borrowing money, playing games, ordering takeout, shopping online—are not isolated cases, but reflect broader changes in society. They also fully exposed the extent to which my own small universe had deviated. At the same time, this was Master bringing out my worst parts to the surface, so I could improve in the Fa and understand the principle of harmonious completeness.
Third, these 100 days felt like an exam—comprehensive and thorough, testing me from every level without missing anything. The purpose of the test was just one thing: Do I truly have 100% faith in Master and the Fa? In fact, every day and every moment is a test. It just felt like a final exam, and the result was very important.
Conclusion
I am deeply grateful to Master for compassionately imparting Falun Dafa—the all-encompassing, perfectly harmonious Fa that leads people back to their true origin—in these end times and chaotic world, where many no longer believe in the divine and moral standards have declined. He has given us this once-in-eternity opportunity to assimilate to Dafa and return to our true selves. I know there is no way to repay Master’s boundless grace, and I also know that Master is still enduring immense hardships for us and for all sentient beings. What I can do is to place cultivating myself well and safeguarding Dafa as my top priority, set aside fixed times to consistently send forth righteous thoughts, and at the same time do well the other things to validate the Fa. I will steadily walk well this final, crucial period, as the time to meet Master is drawing near.
The above is my personal understanding from this recent period. If there is anything inappropriate, please kindly point it out with compassion.
