(Minghui.org) Looking back on my 26 year-long cultivation journey, even though Master has been watching over me I experienced some tribulations because I did not cultivate solidly when I encountered problems.
By studying the Fa and reading fellow practitioners’ cultivation sharing articles, I realized that Master will help me and resolve tribulations when I look inward and cultivate solidly.
The Fish Bone in My Throat Disappeared
After I finished eating I noticed a small piece of fish was left. I wanted to eat it before I washed the dishes. I asked my daughter, if she wanted some. She got angry and said, “If you don’t want to eat it, then don’t eat it. Don’t ask me to eat it.”
I thought, “I wanted to share it with you, why are you so angry?” As soon as I had this thought, a bone got stuck in my throat. I tried spitting it out, but to no avail, and drinking water hurt a lot, too.
I panicked a little, but I quickly calmed down. I asked Master to help me, because I did not want to go to the hospital to resolve this problem. I am a cultivator, so I must look at this problem based on the Fa. For a cultivator everything happens for a reason.
I recalled that when I was staying at my mother’s house, she knew very well that I ate little or I usually skipped dinner, but she asked me to eat dinner. When she did it repeatedly, I became impatient and spoke to her in a very unpleasant tone. My daughter’s behavior today must have happened because Master wanted me to see my attachment when I spoke to my mother impatiently.
I decided to read Zhuan Falun. After I read one lecture, the bone was still stuck in my throat.
I noticed my grandson already spent more than an hour on the computer, and it was time for him to stop. I decided to play with him and thought I would study the Fa again later. I saw the fruit on the table was turning bad, so I took a knife and cut away the spoiled parts, washed the good parts and ate them. A miracle happened. The bone in my throat disappeared! I was amazed! I kept saying to Master in my heart, “Thank you, Master! Thank you Master!”
Master is always by our side and watches over us. He arranges to help us eliminate our attachments and improve our cultivation. Whenever we have tribulations, we should not look at the problem from an ordinary person’s perspective. We should look within from the perspective of the Fa, and find our attachments. Master will help us to resolve any tribulations, and our xinxing will improve.
The Stench in My Mouth Disappeared
My breath was bad a few years ago. It didn’t happen frequently so I ignored it. However, my husband often said, “Your breath is really bad.” He was angry when he said this.
I thought, “I must need to cultivate my speech. If my breath smells bad people will have a negative impression when I talk to them about Dafa.”
I shared my thoughts about this with a practitioner, and she pointed out it was my tone of voice when I spoke, instead of a problem with my health.
I looked within and discovered I had an attachment that I hadn’t tried to eliminate. The police repeatedly harassed us and my family was under tremendous stress, but they never blamed me. My husband finally said his health wasn’t good and he wasn’t sure how much more he could endure. I wasn’t moved—instead I felt he would be rewarded later for the pressure he was under now.
He reminded me to be careful but I didn’t think he was worried about me. When problems occurred, I didn’t apologize to him from the bottom of my heart. I also didn’t feel these tribulations happened because I didn’t cultivate myself well. This caused him to change from being initially supportive of my clarifying the truth about the persecution to people, to opposing me.
I didn’t reflect on my cultivation or think he changed because I did something wrong. Instead, I thought that since I started practicing, I did all the housework and I paid for everything. When he spoke more assertively, I usually gave in to him. I thought if I didn’t cultivate I definitely would not be able to do all this. But now, he was no longer able to differentiate between the right and the wrong!
I felt unsettled and I no longer did everything that he asked me to do unconditionally, like I did in the past. The tone that I spoke to him in was also not so pleasant at times. When things happened, I also thought that his ideas weren’t as good as mine and I insisted that I was right.
I forgot that he wasn’t a practitioner and that in the human world what he said was logical. I did not acknowledge him and I wasn’t considerate of him. I did not let him see the forbearance and compassion that a cultivator should display. My attitude did not align with the Fa, so how would he listen, agree and support me in doing things related to Dafa?
When I looked at myself based on the Fa, I realized that I was slacking off in my cultivation. From now on, I must be considerate of others when I speak or do things. I must care more for my family and cultivate my every thought. After I looked inward and had these insights, my mouth no longer stank.
Cultivating ourselves well is truly being responsible for ourselves and our sentient beings. This will lessen Master’s worries and we will be living up to Master’s benevolent salvation.
