(Minghui.org) I am a retiree who began practicing Falun Dafa (Falun Gong) in March 1996. I used to suffer from coronary heart disease, sinusitis, and other serious ailments. After I started practicing Falun Dafa, all my illnesses disappeared without a trace. I have not taken a single pill since, and despite being over 80 years old, I remain healthy and energetic.
Under compassionate Master’s protection, I have escaped danger time and again. Under his guidance, I have discovered my attachments and worked to improve myself. I have found that even reflecting on past incidents can lead to many insights.
Amazing Things Under Master’s Protection
Heartfelt Voices on Tiananmen Square
I visited Beijing’s Tiananmen Square for the second time with fellow practitioners to speak out for Dafa on October 1, 2000. While walking towards the southwest entrance, we saw a large group of police officers, carrying electric batons, running onto Tiananmen Square from the southeast entrance.
We quickened our pace and ran after them. In the square, thousands of Falun Dafa practitioners from all over the country had gathered in support of Falun Dafa and to testify to Master’s innocence, while police and plainclothes agents were beating and arresting Dafa practitioners. I joined the crowds and shouted in unison with other practitioners, “Falun Dafa is good! Falun Dafa is righteous! Restore our cultivation environment! Restore Master Li Hongzhi’s innocence!”
Armed police, plainclothes officers, and regular police had surrounded the crowd, striking them with electric batons and pounding them with their fists. I saw some practitioners beaten black and blue, unable to escape the encirclement. I struggled through the crowd and shouted, “You police should not beat citizens!” Before I could finish, a policeman’s fist slammed into my face. My vision instantly went black. Although I could not see anything, electric batons and fists continued to strike my head and back.
Just as I was about to collapse, a young male practitioner quickly supported my arm. “Hold on! Don’t fall, or you’ll be trampled to death!” He continued to hold me while shouting phrases in support of Dafa. In response, the police beat us harder and I lost consciousness. My spirit left my body and floated high into the sky. Looking down, I saw the crowd surging like waves, while the phrases shouted by Dafa disciples echoed throughout the heavens.
As the police increased their pace of arrests, practitioners linked hands and stood shoulder to shoulder, making it harder for the police to arrest them. This extraordinary battle between good and evil was awe-inspiring! The young male practitioner continued to hold my arm as the police swung their batons and beat him mercilessly. Seeing his suffering, my spirit returned to my physical body. I continued shouting phrases and tried to prevent the police from arresting practitioners.
Afterward, I realized Master had arranged for this young male practitioner to save me from harm at this crucial moment.
Not Cold Even in the Dead of Winter
I was arrested during my second trip to Tiananmen Square, taken back to my city, and detained in a local detention center. I did the Falun Gong exercises along with a dozen other practitioners one day. When a patrol officer discovered that we had done the exercises, he reported us to the director. The enraged director forced us to remove our coats, shoes, and socks. We were made to stand barefoot in the yard, wearing only thin undershirts, without moving or speaking. It was the dead of winter, the coldest time of year. Even water would freeze in an instant. We stood there for three hours yet none of us felt cold at all. The dumbfounded police could only exclaim, “Incredible! Truly incredible!”
We realized compassionate Master had borne the suffering in our place in order to protect us.
Gentle Breeze Blows Through an Enclosed Room
In January 2003 I managed to leave the detention center and return home. All of our truth-clarification information production sites had been shut down by the authorities, and access to the Minghui website had been cut off, so local practitioners were feeling anxious.
A female practitioner who had a relatively easy family environment and I decided to set up an information production site in her home. I purchased printing equipment and contributed money to purchase a car with a young female practitioner. Using the car, that practitioner ferried supplies and distributed our printed truth-clarification materials.
In 2004, I built a secluded little room in an area with low ceilings in my home. A practitioner taught me how to use the computer so I could download Dafa materials. My small materials production site gradually became fully functional, producing Dafa books, Minghui Weekly magazines, truth-clarification booklets, amulets, CDs, and carved jade amulets. I received orders from practitioners in the city, county, and rural areas. No matter the difficulties I faced, I strove to deliver materials on time and of the highest quality. Sometimes, I would stay up all night to meet deadlines and would not feel fatigued the following day.
I worked in this stuffy, poorly-ventilated room for hours without issue during the sweltering heat of summer. Although this room lacked any form of cooling, I would often feel a gentle breeze on my face.
Despite being an older woman with only a primary school education, I was able to understand and learn how to use this high-tech equipment. Many miraculous things happened while I worked. For instance, I would plan to print 100 pages of truth-clarification materials, grab a stack of blank paper, start printing, and realize I had grabbed exactly 100 pieces of paper. Amazing events happened to me often.
An Elderly Woman Nimble as a Swallow
One day in October 2013, a female practitioner from my neighborhood visited my home to drop off a printer. She might not have closed our front gate properly when she left. Less than three minutes later, several policemen burst into my house. I was holding the printer when they burst in. Having caught me red-handed, a policemen smugly walked up to me and said, “Now, what defense do you have?” I calmly raised the printer to my chest and righteously told them, “A better future for all sentient beings. That is my mission!”
A large group of people from the Political and Legal Affairs Commission, the 610 Office, the Domestic Security Brigade, the police station, and the community leadership filed in to my home, attempting to take me away. I quickly led them outside into the courtyard. Standing with one foot outside the gate, I loudly told said to them, my curious neighbors, and passersby about the persecution of Falun Gong. In the middle of my speech, I quickly slammed the gate shut, bolted it, and said to my husband standing by my side, “They’re going to arrest me. I have to get out of here.”
I ran swiftly up the steps to the roof of a side house on the east side of the courtyard, jumped from the side house to the roof of the main house, walked across the roof ridge and jumped onto the eaves of an adjacent abandoned warehouse to the north. From there, I climbed onto the warehouse roof, leaped over two single-story houses and two walls, before escaping to safety.
I was over 70 years old then. Despite the perilous climbs and leaps, a surge of energy supported me throughout, making me feel as light as a swallow. I spent the next several years wandering throughout the country, continuing my truth-clarification efforts.
Master’s Continued Guidance Despite My Delay in Understanding
During conflicts and problems, Master would guide me to look inward, help me eliminate attachments, and elevate my understanding. I would see good results each time I understood Master’s guidance. Failure to do so would lead to delays and setbacks.
One of my long-standing misconceptions was considering doing projects as a sign of diligent cultivation. I devoted myself wholeheartedly to projects, willingly enduring hardship and fatigue. However, I neglected to cultivate away my attachments. I felt I understood everything when studying the Fa, but I fell back on human reasoning to resolve conflicts and problems, resulting in missed opportunities for improvement. These cultivation gaps caused me to be arrested, imprisoned, and persecuted by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) five times.
Despite looking inward to examine my attachments, my examination often remained superficial and bound by human notions. I gave myself leeway in order to protect my human heart. This caused me to encounter setbacks that harmed others and negatively impacted truth-clarification efforts.
On reflection, I feel ashamed and embarrassed! Many failings that I had attributed to others were actually my own. I could have turned my troubles and unpleasant encounters into great things if I had cultivated well.
A Deliberate Tyrannical Episode
My husband passed away during the period of time that I was forced to flee home. Days after his death, my brother-in-law (my husband’s younger brother) told my family to summon me back and demanded I give up practicing Falun Gong. With malice-filled eyes, he grabbed my collar and demanded I renounce the practice on the spot. “If you stop practicing, you’ll remain the head of your family. Otherwise, I’ll take charge and make decisions.” I remained firm and uncompromising in my decision to remain a Dafa practitioner.
I mentioned this absurd episode to a fellow practitioner, believing my brother-in-law had been controlled by evil spirits and had lost all rational thought. The practitioner replied, “Your brother-in-law’s unreasonable behavior can’t be accidental. Master has taught us to look inward whenever we encounter conflicts. You should reflect on your understanding of the Fa.” Only now have I come to realize Master was using this practitioner’s words to guide me. But I was stubbornly oblivious at that time, believing my brother-in-law to be the unreasonable one.
I now realize my error in dealing with this matter. I may have bullied my brother-in-law in a past life, and he was just collecting the debt. His fierce, glaring expression was a mirror for me to see my own angry, resentful side, to see how terrible my long-held resentment and competitive nature were. Although Master intended for me to eliminate my karmic debts, settle grudges, shed my human attachments, and ascend to a higher level, I blamed my brother-in-law for the injustice I believed I had suffered. Because I judged the situation with human standards, I missed the opportunity to elevate in cultivation.
Long-Standing Jealousy
For a long time, I was unaware that I harbored jealousy—despite some practitioners having pointed it out to me—because I could not stand to be criticized by others. While studying the Fa, I thought that the examples of jealousy stated in Zhuan Falun concerned others, not me.
I definitely harbored jealousy, it was just that the attachment had become so ingrained, it was not easily noticed. My human side also kept protecting it. During each attempt to discover and eliminate it, my jealousy would cunningly slip away to hide under the cover of my human self.
For example, I know a female practitioner around my age who has been doing her best for Dafa projects in the same city. Both of us are widely acknowledged as senior practitioners standing at the forefront of Fa-rectification efforts. However, I had reservations about this senior practitioner. During discussions, she humbly accepted my advice but carried out her business as usual afterward. So whenever fellow practitioners praised her strengths in front of me, I felt uncomfortable and resentful. Actually, this was my jealousy manifesting unconsciously. I thought other practitioners did not know her well, while as someone who was constantly interacting with her, I knew her better.
Master has told us to focus less on others’ shortcomings and more on their strengths, but I did the exact opposite. My jealousy affected my actions, and I did not use the conflicts that arose during our cooperation to improve myself. I truly feel ashamed!
Scammed Into Thinking Son-in-Law Sent Me To Prison
In 2021, the CCP issued a new directive to re-examine Falun Gong practitioners on medical parole, in an attempt to drag practitioners back into prison. After wandering around for a long time, I had returned home only to be sentenced by the authorities. Due to health reasons, I was not imprisoned but granted medical parole. Although my health did not meet the re-examination requirements, the local police station head, along with several officers, still carried me off to a detention center. The police station head secretly told me, “Auntie, don’t resent me for arresting you today. It was your son-in-law who bribed me to arrest you. Otherwise, why would I?” I was furious to hear about my ungrateful son-in-law who’d sent me to prison.
But I also had my doubts. I treated my son-in-law well; why would he resort to such tactics? After much thought, I concluded it was because my son-in-law works in an important department of the CCP. Because my daughter is a Falun Dafa practitioner, he feared I would influence her and implicate him, so he sent me to prison to put his mind at ease. The more I thought about it, the angrier I became. I started to believe the lie about my son-in-law sending me to prison.
In March 2023, I was released and returned home. Still feeling resentful about my son-in-law, I told my daughter what I had learned. She bluntly replied, “That’s impossible! Your son-in-law has flaws, but he’s kind at heart. He’s never opposed Falun Dafa; in fact he approves of it. He’s even survived a near-death experience because he recited ‘Falun Dafa is good.’ He respects you, his Falun Dafa practitioner mother-in-law. The police station head has ulterior motives and his words are lies. Don’t be fooled.” Instead of believing in my daughter, I thought she was protecting her husband.
When I complained to a fellow practitioner, the practitioner said, “It’s obvious your judgment is wrong. Firstly, from the perspective of the Fa, your understanding stems from your flawed character. The old forces seized upon this gap to persecute you. If your character was flawless, no one would dare to touch you. Secondly, going by worldly evidence, the decision to imprison you should have come from either the provincial review team, the 610 Office, the court, or the judicial bureau. The police merely carry out orders. The police station head’s claim that your son-in-law bribed him is a complete lie. The old forces are using this person to sow discord between you and your son-in-law, leading you down the path where you blame others instead of examining yourself.”
Thinking back, it is clear that Master was using my daughter and the fellow practitioner to enlighten and warn me. After listening to the practitioner, I realized that what they said made sense and my resentment eased. But I could not fully let it go. I started visiting my daughter’s home only after my son-in-law had gone to work. I would leave before he returned home, doing my best not to see him. I ignored my gaps and instead fueled my resentment and suspicion. How could Master not remain anxious at this continued loophole?! Master, your disciple was wrong, truly wrong!
Concluding Remarks
In the process of writing this article, my human notions gradually fell away, leaving my mind with righteous thoughts. My strengths and contributions are due to Master’s support, while my mistakes and foolish deeds are attributed to my failure to look inward and cultivate sincerely. I will correct my ways, walk forward, and do the three things well in order to fulfill my vows as a true disciple of Master.
