(Minghui.org) I spent a long and difficult time in a Chinese prison because I practice Falun Gong. With Master's protection and fellow practitioners' support, I studied and memorized the Fa and did the exercises daily.
I also used that opportunity to talk to people that I encountered about Dafa. Many inmates and guards learned about Dafa and chose a bright future for themselves. I never dared to slack off while I was incarcerated.
After I was released, I remained diligent. Then I noticed that many fellow practitioners had slacked off in their cultivation. They hardly studied the Fa or did the exercises, and their state of mind was not that of a cultivator following strict xinxing requirements. I became concerned and anxious for them: how could they not cherish such a good cultivation environment? We soon started to have conflicts.
I tried to walk in their shoes and realized it was not easy for them to cultivate in the complicated environment of everyday life. In fact, it was harder. They are walking against the current of ordinary society on a daily basis and are easily contaminated by it.
The relaxed environment, job fatigue, and daily life wear down one's willpower. If a practitioner cannot abide by the xinxing requirements and hold himself accountable, he can easily become indistinguishable from an ordinary person. I soon saw that this was happening to me, too.
With the loss of the group cultivation environment, I became less strict with myself. I became obsessed with online novels and indulged in lust. This caused a significant disturbance to my cultivation, as well as life in general.
After several twists and turns and a heavy stick warning from Master's new scripture, I finally gave up the online novels, but it took me a long time and a lot of effort to let go of the attachment to lust.
For a period of time, I felt I was far from meeting the standard of Master and Dafa. My main consciousness was not strong, my body was karma-ridden, and I was not attentive while reading the Fa. I felt that I was letting Master down. I was ashamed of myself and did not dare to look at Master's picture.
I met a fellow practitioner who cultivated solidly. Through his sharing, I understood that my wife and I had been a couple for many lifetimes and that we were among those who had made a historic vow to follow Master down to Earth to help Master rectify the Fa.
Given Master's compassionate salvation, the precious opportunity to cultivate Dafa, and the grand historic mission that we shoulder, how could I still be infatuated with the trivial matters of this mundane world? Searching deep down, I realized that my fundamental attachment was to human things, to human flesh, to human leisure, comforts and enjoyment. When I realized this, my wife and I began cultivating diligently again and together.
We intensified our Fa study and sending forth righteous thoughts, and our cultivation state changed tremendously. We are now able to be attentive while reading the Fa and truly absorb it.
I realized that time is pressing, and the current time we have is being extended due to Master's tremendous efforts and bearing of things on our behalf. We should not let Master down. We should give our best effort during the Fa rectification period, cultivate ourselves well, save more sentient beings, and be worthy of the title of Fa rectification period Dafa practitioners.
The profound meaning of the Fa awakened me and my wife and made it easy for us to conduct ourselves well. We wanted to share our experience with others, and I hope that this can be of some support and help and serve as a form of encouragement.
Due to my limited level, please kindly point out my shortcomings.
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