(Minghui.org) I have been practicing Falun Gong (also known as Falun Dafa) for over ten years. Until recently, I had issues connected to Master's teaching of “no second discipline.” I finally found the cause of my problem after I began paying close attention and actively eliminated it.
Whenever I tried to talk to my students about the persecution of Falun Gong, I always primarily focused on Christianity. I thought it was fine to use this approach to let them know about the persecution since they did not know I was a practitioner. I would start by talking about other topics and did not change the format I used. Because I was able to help several people withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations, I did not vary my approach and I did not look inward.
I talked with two students about the persecution one day. I became worried when I was later told that the father of one of the students was a policeman. I was so upset that I even stammered. Because I was afraid they might realize I practice Falun Gong, I talked about the Bible. When I looked inward I felt there must be another reason I was afraid.
My friend gave me an audio player so the children could listen to the old, classic Chinese books. After she said it contained the Diamond Sutra I did not open it for over two months. My mother who is also a Falun Gong practitioner, suggested I give the player to someone because she felt dizzy whenever she came to my home. I gave the player away the next day.
When I remembered how frightened I became when I learned one of my students' fathers was a policeman I suddenly understood that I had an attachment to Christianity which was interfering with me. I searched through my home and removed any books or materials about Christianity. I felt much better afterward and I was able to focus when I studied the Fa. I was able to finish reading an entire book of Master's teaching, something impossible for me before.
However, I soon began feeling afraid and uncertain again. I looked around my home and found some calligraphy about Buddhism that my husband bought. I asked him to take it to his workplace.
In March, I could not calm down when I read Zhuan Falun. I shut my bedroom door and read out loud for one hour. I looked at Master's photo and asked for help, “Master, please help me eliminate whatever is stopping me from focusing when I study the Fa. Afterward, I picked up my cellphone and opened my social media app and noticed I had The Book of Changes on my phone. I forgot that my friend put it on my phone. When I noticed it before I did not do anything. This time I deleted it immediately.
I regret my poor enlightenment on this issue. I now realize the interference from other disciplines causes more interference and is hard to identify. With Master's compassionate care and hints, I finally noticed the interference and eliminated it.
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