(Minghui.org) I obtained the Fa in 1999, when I was in my 40s. I had retired early because of poor health. Suffering from illnesses and family tragedies, I was so miserable that I wished for an early death. I tried many ways to restore my health, which included all kinds of qigong and praying to Buddhas, but to no avail.
Then I came across Falun Dafa and was given a copy of Zhuan Falun. When I read the book for the first time, I took every sentence to heart. After reading this book just once, my health was restored. Most importantly, I found answers to many questions, such as the true meaning of life and that Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is the highest Buddha Fa.
It has been 19 years since I stepped on the cultivation path, with many ups and downs. Unfortunately, because of sentimentality towards fellow practitioners, it took me quite some time to let go of many attachments. This also interfered with my xinxing improvement.
Importance of Looking Within
My home is a Fa-study site. One practitioner focused on the amount of Fa we studied and refused to listen to anything she deemed unpleasant. She kept complaining that others always found fault with her. Although I shared with her about looking inward, there was little improvement. I thought that she had poor enlightenment quality.
On the surface, I was tolerant, but fellow practitioners told me that I was not compassionate. This came as a shock to me.
When I looked inward I found that I had not cultivated my heart. Although I studied the Fa, I did not truly look within. Only by looking inward did I realize that it was I and not the other practitioner who had the problem. This offered me an opportunity to improve my xinxing.
Letting Go of Sentimentality to Fellow Practitioners
When I heard that a coordinator was not in a good state of cultivation, I went to see her. She told me, “Those who have pointed out my shortcomings have actually thrown something bad into my dimensional field.” I asked her, “Have you tried to find any reasons for this by looking inward?” She told me that, whenever I visited her, her health got worse. I responded, “Perhaps my dimensional field is not clean. I will look within thoroughly.”
On the bus home, I suddenly felt my chest tightening, not a good feeling. I asked Master to strengthen my righteous thoughts, so I could eliminate whatever was attacking me.
When I looked inward, I found my attachments, such as feeling wronged, being meddlesome, always considering myself in the right, and the mentality of showing off. Especially my attachment to fellow practitioners was deeply rooted and was not easily eliminated.
Master said:
“...you’ve realized and come to know that your Master is truly taking care of you and being responsible for you. Your improvement, then, is systematically arranged—everyone has a systematic path of cultivation.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Singapore)
Master told me that I should not worry about my fellow practitioner and tell her what to do! I sent forth a strong righteous thought: “Please forgive me, my fellow practitioner. It is my fault, and I have brought you unhappiness. Please help my fellow practitioner pass the test, Master.” The tightening in my chest disappeared.
From the bottom of my heart, I thank my fellow practitioner for her frankness and thank Master for having removed these bad substances for me.
Cultivation Is Serious
Many practitioners in our city were arrested, and our local Dafa resources suffered a heavy loss. I was so stressed out that my cultivation suffered. I told Master, “No matter how difficult it is, I must make up for the overall loss and do well with what I should do.”
Another practitioner and I went to another county early in the morning to clarify the facts about Dafa. I returned home at 8:00 p.m. Soon after, a fellow practitioner knocked on my door. She looked worried and said, “We must send righteous thoughts for some practitioners. This is the third time that I have come to your place.” I smiled, but was not too happy, since I had not eaten today.
I wondered why she was upset with me, but then decided to look within unconditionally. I realized that I had not cultivated my mind lately and blamed others for their shortcomings instead of looking for mine. I was still looking outward.
It was good that I found my attachment and was able to remove it by keeping a cool head. A different thought resulted in a different outcome. Cultivation practice is not only serious, it is also amazing.
Overcoming Shortage of Manpower
There are about a hundred million people in our city, but very few Falun Dafa practitioners. To practice cultivation is to cultivate oneself, so I am trying to make up for where the manpower is lacking and try to do the three things well.
To make up for the manpower shortage, I distribute software that allows one to break through the information blockade. This project does not require technical expertise. People who know how to use a computer can use the software and quickly learn the facts.
These people can also share the software with others. This can lay a good foundation for our persuading people to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations. Then it is not a problem to use our mobile phones or talk face to face to people, because they’ve already learned the facts. This can also play a role in our overall cooperation.
In the beginning I distributed the software to people I met. Then, I decided to give the software to students, because most of them use computers and are very curious about something new. University students in our city come from all parts of China. They can take the software home and share it with their friends and families.
I also distributed the software CDs face to face. So that people who don’t understand the software don’t throw it away, I clarified the facts to them first. After learning the truth, these people tell others what they’ve hear, and the number of people who accept the software is growing. Sometimes it only takes me a short time to give away dozens or even hundreds of the software CDs.
The more CDs I distributed, the better the result. It seemed that many people were looking for the software. When I gave a software CD to someone, he thanked me and told me that he was looking for it.
A 10-year-old and an adult were sitting on the roadside. I gave a software CD to the adult and told him that it was software to overcome the information blockade.
“I know it,” said the child. “This is the software to break through the Internet blockade. I know how to use it. I have visited a website that talks about quitting the CCP. It tells us how bad the Party really is. I have also visited the Minghui website and bought the book Zhuan Falun.”
Clarifying the Facts in Rural Areas
Many people in rural areas are not aware of the facts or the persecution, so a fellow practitioner and I often go to rural areas and distribute truth-clarification materials. When there was no one around, we put up truth-clarification signs that said, “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.”
On market days I take with me a bag filled with Dafa informational materials. I look at people to decide which materials I should give them. While I distribute the materials, another practitioner sends righteous thoughts.
It was very difficult at first. We came across all kinds of people. Some were contemptuous, some did not understand why we were doing this, and some did not want to accept the materials.
Of course, we also came across those who were worried for our safety and those who thanked us. I took this as encouragement.
If there was a problem, we did not force the person to accept what we told them, and we remained kind. We have safely traveled to many towns to distribute materials.
Different Materials for Different People
Clarifying the facts is what I must do every day. Distributing materials is my way of being friendly when I interact with people, and it comes naturally to me.
Every day when I go out, I have all kinds of informational materials in my bag, such as DVDs, the software CD to overcome the information blockade, booklets, and amulets. I use every opportunity to distribute different items to different people, whether I walk, wait for a train or bus, or shop.
Now sentient beings are waiting for salvation, and many people are longing to hear the truth. I really feel that Master has paved the way for us so that we can save more people. Everything is being done by Master. When we are successful in cultivation practice, we will certainly live up to Master's expectations.
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