(Minghui.org) I recently discovered that I developed a hidden attachment to seeking comfort. I realized that the Fa-rectification is coming to an end. Once Jiang Zemin, former head of the communist regime, is arrested, everything will be over, so I began to pay more attention to current events.
I read one lecture in Zhuan Falun each day, as well as some of Master's other lectures. I make sure to send righteous thoughts at the four designated times and attend group Fa study once or twice a week. I also find time to distribute Dafa informational material and make phone calls to tell people about Dafa. On weekends, I clarify the facts about Dafa to people face to face.
When I compared myself to others, I felt that this amount of activities qualified me as being diligent. After I finished studying the Fa, I usually took a break, began browsing the web, and checked my smartphone. I watched NTDTV programs and read some news. I also spent some time doing household chores.
Whenever someone asked me to read the Fa with them, I was reluctant. If other practitioners asked me to do something, I usually hesitated. I did not want anyone to bother me or disrupt my routine. I became good at finding excuses.
One day, I suddenly realized that I had become a selfish, smooth-talking person who did not want to proactively save people. How awful! I had become someone like this, after cultivating for so many years!
After I studied the Fa and looked inward for a long time, I discovered that I had a problem. I also felt Master’s boundless compassion and his concern for me.
I'm sharing this so that others who may be in a similar situation can identify their problem as well.
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