(Minghui.org) Greetings, Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I began practicing Falun Dafa in the spring of 1999. I am 46 years old. On the occasion of the 21st Minghui China Fahui, I would like to share my cultivation experience with fellow practitioners.
Overcoming Serious Sickness Karma
A few years ago, practitioner Ling was stressed by family tribulations. Fellow practitioners and I were concerned and discussed the Fa with her. I said, “When encountering problems, we must look deeply within. If the problem isn’t solved, maybe it’s because we haven’t found the root cause yet.”
Ling immediately exploded and began saying harsh words to me. I was at a loss for words because we usually get along very well. Ling was probably under a lot of pressure and her losing her composure was very unbecoming of her.
I barely managed to hold back and didn’t argue with her. But when I got home, my resentment, grievance, and being upset, all burst out. I completely forgot that this was an opportunity for me to improve my xinxing. Instead, I thought indignantly: I’m so good to you and always try my best to help you. I just kindly reminded you to look inward, but you mocked and attacked me in front of others. You’re really ungrateful.
It was these negative thoughts that were not in line with a cultivator that gave the old forces an opportunity to persecute me and brought me sudden and severe sickness karma.
On that day, my throat started to feel slightly sore. I didn’t pay much attention to it, thinking it would clear up in a few days like before. Over the past 25 years of cultivation, I have hardly encountered any major sickness karma. At most, I get a sore throat for a few days every year, and my teeth hurt for a few days. By looking within and sending righteous thoughts, I got better quickly.
In the evening, a lump gradually formed in my entire mouth and throat, causing severe pain. At around 11 p.m., I felt that the lump had almost filled my upper mouth and throat, and the severe pain continued to strike; even light breathing would aggravate the pain.
I became alarmed and sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the old forces and evil spirits persecuting me. My husband, a fellow practitioner, stayed by my side and sent forth righteous thoughts for me.
A large amount of phlegm began to overflow from the lump. I thought, “Master must be cleaning the lump for me, and it will be fine once it is clean.” However, as I coughed hard, I felt that the lump in my mouth and throat seemed to swell even more.
At that moment, a thought came to my mind: “Be careful, if your lump gets any bigger, it will block your airway, and you could die.” I told my husband about this though, and he also became worried and nervous. He increased the intensity of his righteous thoughts, not daring to slacken for even a moment. The pain continued for several hours, and I had no energy left, so I could only lie there, spitting non-stop while continuing to send righteous thoughts.
At that moment, another thought came to me: “If you can’t make it through, you should hand the bank book to your husband.” I immediately became alert. I realized the thought might come from the old forces, trying to lure me into acknowledging their arrangement. I sent out a thought: “I will resolutely negate old force’s evil arrangement.”
Then another thought was projected onto my mind: “Your husband has been an orphan since childhood. You gave him a sweet home. What would he do without you?” At that time, the illusion of the old forces made me feel that death was so close.
At this time, my body was extremely weak, and the pain was unbearable, but with Master’s compassionate protection, my will was firm, and my righteous thoughts were getting stronger. I said to Master in my heart, “I trust you, Master. You will make the best arrangement.”
I remembered what Master said,
“If he is able to let go of life and death, he is a god; if he isn’t able to let go of life and death, he is human.” (Teachings at the Conference in Australia)
I had a firm thought: “I am a Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period, and my mission is to save sentient beings. Even if I have loopholes in my cultivation, they are not the old forces’ business. I’m not afraid of death, but this does not mean I acknowledge the old forces’ evil persecution. Master, please protect me and help me. I do not believe a sore throat will kill me.” We continued sending forth righteous thoughts and fell asleep.
The next day, the dawn light illuminated the room. My husband and I woke up at the same time. We opened our eyes and looked at each other. “You are alright! You passed the test!” he exclaimed.
The pain gradually subsided over the following week, and the swelling went away as well. It was completely gone after a dozen days. Since then, my throat, which used to be sore for a few days every year, has never been sore again.
I believe because I usually attach great importance to studying the Fa earnestly, the power of the Fa enhances my righteous thoughts and enabled me to quickly overcome the sickness karma at critical moments.
Meanwhile, I looked inward and found many attachments, such as resentment, saving face, vanity, sentimentality, not cultivating speech, and self-righteousness.
Ling’s suddenly talking rudely to me was helping me improve my character and cultivate my forbearance. Not only did I fail to take advantage of this opportunity to improve my xinxing, but I was filled with resentment and grievances, which led to this tribulation.
Now, I am working hard to let go of resentment, handle criticism better, and cultivate patience and tolerance. Although I have not yet fully reached the standards required by Master, I will continue to work hard on my mind.
When I had fully recovered, I had a vivid dream one night. In the dream, a long ancient scroll was unrolled before my eyes. A young boy dressed in ancient clothes appeared on the scroll. He walked along the long scroll towards the end. Master, dressed in ancient clothes and tall in stature, appeared at the end of the scroll, waiting for his young disciple to complete the journey of cultivation. The young boy finally reaches the end of the scroll and joyfully jumps into his Master’s arms. Master bends down and lovingly picks up the young boy. Then I woke up.
Negate Interference on the Basis of Fa-Rectification Period
Before the persecution started in 1999, I had a very close relationship with my father. But after the persecution began, due to the lies and propaganda by the communist regime and his concern for my safety, my father completely changed. He became irritable and quick to anger, often scolding me for no reason. He would fly into a rage at the mention of Falun Dafa, and it was almost impossible to talk to him.
Ten years ago, my father suddenly felt unwell. Tests revealed an abnormality and further tests were needed to confirm whether it was inflammation or cancer. My husband and I drove my father to the provincial capital for tests. He needed to stay in the hospital for further observation and more tests. My husband and I took care of him patiently. My father was probably very touched to see that we were taking such good care of him, and he was also afraid that he had cancer. He began to listen when I tried to clarify the facts to him.
Once, while driving to the hospital for another test, I talked about Falun Dafa. My father didn’t get angry either but listened quietly with a smile. He also agreed to write a solemn declaration, announcing that the disrespectful words he said about Dafa were void.
My husband and I realized that the old forces might be trying to use my father’s illness to interfere with us. We asked for Master to help us negate the interference. That night, when my father’s solemn declaration was published, I had a dream that indicated his sickness was gone. When we received his lab report the next day, the doctor said that my father had an infection only and just needed antibiotics.
Ten years have passed, and my father’s health has been very good. Thank you, Master!
Looking back on the twenty-five years of ups and downs in the cultivation process, we were always under Master’s compassionate protection and were able to get to where we are today. We are extremely grateful to Master for his compassionate salvation! Only by diligently cultivating, doing the three things well, and saving more sentient beings can we fulfill our oath and live up to Master’s salvation!
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