(Minghui.org) I have been practicing Falun Dafa for more than 20 years, and am 78 years old. I would like to explain how I passed a huge sickness karma tribulation.
My husband passed away in September 2022, so I bought a plot in the cemetery near my son’s home. My son lives in the city far away from our home. After my husband was buried, I stayed with my son, as after the funeral, my son and his wife wouldn’t let me go home. My son said that I was old and my body was weak. They worried about me being alone at home, and asked me to stay with them for a month, which would allow me to have more time to come to terms with my husband’s passing.
Before my husband died, we lived by ourselves. He supported my Falun Dafa practice. He was very enthusiastic when other practitioners came to our home, and helped if they needed anything. Because my home is a materials production site and we live on higher floors, he often helped me carry the supplies upstairs. Upon seeing me being so busy, he took over almost all the housework.
The Chinese Communist Party’s (CCP) persecution of Dafa practitioners has been relentless. In order to protect the safety of myself and the other practitioners, when people came to my home and rang the doorbell, my husband would ask us to hide, while he dealt with it. Officers took him to the police department twice and threatened him. They told him to keep an eye on me, and said if they caught me doing something, they would hold him responsible. He was concerned for my safety, and the other practitioners knew he was a good person.
His death was a huge blow to me. Sometimes, I would cry when others weren’t around, as I felt lonely and helpless. How was I going to live by myself in the future? But I remembered that I am a Dafa practitioner with a mission, and must listen to Master’s words and do a good job in projects to validate the Fa.
While I was struggling to deal with this tribulation, another one came. My husband had been gone for about a month, when my younger brother suddenly died of a stroke. I almost collapsed, and couldn’t handle such a devastating blow. My right hand couldn’t function well one day, but I didn’t tell my family. I knew it was an illusion, and I wouldn’t acknowledge it. I persisted in studying the Fa, doing the exercises, and sending righteous thoughts. When I was having breakfast the next day, I couldn’t hold the bowl with my hand, and my daughter-in-law noticed it. She wanted to take me to the hospital, but I said, “I am okay.” She disagreed and told my son to take me anyway.
The doctor found that my blood pressure was over 200 mm Hg and my blood lipids were high. He wanted me to do an MRI, but I refused. The doctor said these were signs of a stroke. I stayed in the hospital for a few days, and felt better. But I still couldn’t walk steadily, and my hands were a little shaky when I held things. I told the doctor that I wanted to leave and go back to my own home. The doctor said to me, “If you really want to leave, you must keep using the medication, and keep an eye on your blood pressure. Otherwise it could be dangerous.”
At that time, the COVID-19 epidemic was very serious, and no one was allowed to leave or enter the city. I called my daughter and asked her to pick me up. My son dropped me off halfway, and my daughter picked me up from there.
After returning home, both my daughter and son-in-law were infected with the virus, and I also appeared to be infected, having a fever and a cough. My daughter asked, “What should we do? There is no one to cook for us anymore.” I told her not to worry as I could do it. With Master and the Fa right next to us, I’m not afraid of anything! I can’t fall down like this. I asked Master to support me. I studied the Fa, did the exercises, and sent righteous thoughts every day. I cooked porridge every morning for all of us.
One day, a practitioner told me, “Someone has taken over your [materials production] project, so you don’t need to do it any longer, and there is a backlog of materials in the warehouse.” I asked her why, and she replied, “There must be a reason.” After that, she left.
This incident moved me and I was not able to accept it. I had put in so much effort to run this materials site. It had never been interrupted even when the authorities were at their craziest, arresting practitioners and shutting down the sites. I had made it through with great difficulty. Why did they replace me without consulting me? I couldn’t understand it.
One day, on my way to the bathroom, I felt dizzy and couldn’t stand. I took two quick steps and held on to the bed. Just as I was about to lie down, I suddenly realized that I shouldn’t. I shouted, “Master, please help me!” I was able to sit up right away. I started sending righteous thoughts. My entire body was covered in sweat.
I don’t know how much time had passed when a practitioner came to my home. I opened the door for him with great effort. He asked me what was wrong. I told him what had happened. He said, “Auntie, your righteous thoughts are very strong. This was all done by the old forces, dark minions, and rotten ghosts. Please ask Master to strengthen you. Increase your efforts in sending righteous thoughts, and you will definitely be able to pass this test.”
After sending righteous thoughts in the evening, I opened Hong Yin VI. The poem “From Seas to Trees” appeared in front of me. After reading the poem, I was shocked. In order to save all sentient beings, Master has reincarnated in countless lifetimes, more than we even know. I have such a great Master, so what else can I not let go of? I said to Master from the bottom of my heart, “Master, I was wrong. I didn’t meet your expectations.”
I felt that I had just woken up from a dream. I was able to let go of life and death. The high blood pressure and high blood lipids were illusions. At the same time, I also found many attachments, such as to relying on others, fear of loneliness, attachment to my materials production site project, affection for family, and attachment to fame and fortune.
This tribulation of sickness karma was caused by my unrighteous human heart. Since I have found it, I must get rid of it. I warned myself: Come out of the human state quickly and catch up with the process of Master’s Fa-rectification.
When I was doing the sitting meditation, a scene appeared: I was floating in the air with my legs crossed, and a warm breeze blew over me, which made me feel extremely comfortable. I knew that Master had used it to encourage me. Once my human notions were rectified, everything changed.
The practitioner who told me that I no longer needed to make truth-clarifying materials came again. As soon as he entered the door, he said, “No one is making the Nine Commentaries booklet! You must make them! There are no more copies of them in the warehouse. I have only three copies, but they are not in good shape.” It turned out that everything was an illusion, and it was just to test my xinxing.
During the 2023 Chinese New Year holiday, my younger brother and his wife came to see me. As soon as my sister-in-law saw me, she commented on how my back had straightened. My brother said that my face was glowing and I had even gained weight. I told them, “I have recovered by practicing Falun Dafa.” They saw the magical power of Dafa, and agreed that I should keep practicing it.
Under Master’s compassionate care and hints, I finally took a step forward and passed this huge tribulation. As a practitioner, I want to pay respect to our benevolent Master again!
The above is my understanding at my current level. If there is anything that’s not in accordance with the Fa, please point it out with compassion.
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